Don't Let Me Fall(65)

I looked up at Aimee. She looks worried. Scared even. And it’s because of me. I ruin people’s lives. I suck the life out of them.

“Please,” Logan whispered.

I found his eyes again and whatever part of me that belongs to him, yes, I belong to him in a way because whenever I’m near him or whenever he just looks at me, I’m done. I forget

what I was thinking. I forget about hurting myself. I just think about him. He owns some part of me that I didn’t think I had. I still don’t know how that happened.

I nodded.

Logan stood up and held out his hands for me. When I slipped mine in his, he smiled and I couldn’t help but smile back. Just a little one. He doesn’t have that much power over me.

It’s more like my heart. Yeah, that’s it. He’s messing me up because my heart wants him. It knows he’s a good guy and it knows he cares a fraction of something for me.

“Rebeckah,” I stopped short when I heard Dad call out for me. I glanced over my shoulder and saw him walking out of the house with Kelsey and Matty behind him. “We need to go.”

No…

“Where?” I asked.

“Martin needs to talk to us,” he said glancing at Logan and Aimee. Martin is Mom’s lawyer. What the f-uck does he need to talk to us about? I thought Dad and Jacky already took

care of everything. “It’s important. We need to go. Sorry you two but this is a family emergency.”

Remy’s car pulled up to the house and Jacky jumped out. She glanced at the twins, waved slightly then grabbed me. “That * wants to take everything from you,” she said.

“Let’s go.”

“What?” I glanced around. “What’s going on?”

“Martin has Mom’s will,” Jacky said.

“I don’t care,” I said. “You guys go.” Like I want to hear what she says on her will. She’ll probably tell me that she never loved me. Hello, I already know that.

“Mom left you something,” Matty said staring at the stone pathway. “Roger thinks it’s valuable and he wants it.”

“Who’s Roger?” I asked, shaking my head.

Matty’s head snapped up and he stared at me with a blank expression. “Her boyfriend. God, Becka, you really didn’t give a shit about her.”

“Matty,” Dad said, turning to him. “Get in the car.” Matty gave me another blank look then took Kelsey to the car. “I don’t want to do this, Birdie but Martin says if we get

it over with, you won’t have to deal with it later.”

“Okay,” I said blankly.

Jacky walked me to Remy’s car and I got in. Aimee and Logan stayed at the house, their eyes following me until I couldn’t see them anymore.



***

Martin pushed the glasses up on the bridge of his nose as he stared at the paper in his hands. He read everything Mom left behind. Roger didn’t get anything because apparently she

was dumping him. I laughed at that.

“Please excuse the language,” Martin said clearing his throat and running a meaty hand through his blond hair. His green eyes flicked to mine and he seemed to squirm in his chair.

“Ms. Britton states that she left a note for Rebeckah Lennox.”

“I’m right here. You don’t have to do that,” I said. He can clearly see me. I’m the psycho chick covered in tattoos. I’m not hard to miss.

He cleared his throat again and licked his lips.

Dad, Matty, Kelsey, Jacky, Remy and Roger are sitting around the large wooden table looking back and forth. My eyes are trained on the chip of wood on the table. I don’t want to

look at anyone. I just want to get this over with.

“Your mother states that I read it for you,” Martin said. I nodded so he started. “Any money left in your college fund will be split between your brother and sisters–”

My head snapped up and my brows furrowed. What did he just say? What’s happening to my college fund?

“I’m sorry, what?” Dad asked.

Martin pointed at the paper in his hands. He’s not done.

“Go on,” I said, waving my hand at him.

“Um…” Martin chewed on his lip as he looked up at me. “I’m sorry. I have to read this.” Okay, read it. “Your college fund will be split between your brother and sisters

because it’ll be a miracle if you can live long enough to graduate.”

Hell broke loose after that.

Dad started yelling while Roger laughed. Matty’s mouth dropped in shock and Kelsey burst into tears. Remy and Jacky had a few choice words and Martin tried to calm everyone down.

I was the only one who remained quiet and in my seat. I kind of expected this from my mom. She did hate me.

“Stop,” I said. I looked up at everyone who was now shouting to be heard over each other. “Stop!” I said a bit louder. Everyone’s voice lowered until it was quiet in the room.

“Give me the letter,” I said to Martin.

He slid it over, along with an orange clasp envelope with an object inside and averted my eyes. I stood up and grabbed my phone.

“Mom is still your mom. It doesn’t matter if she hated me. You don’t have to hear what else she has to say,” I said walking over to the door. I chanced it and glanced at Matty.