Dear Heart, You Screwed Me(90)

“You don’t want to anger the spirits beyond this earth plane. You were called here for a reason, and now I am going to see if I can connect to you to find out who it is,” she smiled, reaching over and taking my hands in hers as she looked at the lines on my palms. After a moment or too, she closed her eyes as she began to hum.

I don’t know why, but my heart was jack hammering in my chest. I was apprehensive but also excited. I had never done anything like this before.

“Spirits, I call upon you to find the soul who brought this young lady to me,” her voice echoed around the room, my eyes were glued to her.

“Come forward, my child,” her voice was soft, quiet, calm which instantly stilled my racing heart as I waited with bated breath.

“Yes, I can hear you.” She smiled before her eyes opened, but something was different. They were still a crystal blue, but I felt the connection. I gasped, my breath catching at the back of my throat. My eyes widened, my face moving closer to the lady.

I knew those eyes.

“Elijah,” I whispered.

“Yes, my child. I have Elijah here with me. So young to have crossed over onto this side.” I heard the tightness of her voice, her head cocking to the side as she studied me.

“Okay my darling, okay…” she nodded as she listened, “slow down, we are in no rush.” Her lips lifted at the either side. She dropped her head for a moment, her eyes closing. Once her head lifted, her eyes opened, and the connection had gone.

“Your Elijah wants you to know that he is at peace, and he is okay. He didn’t feel anything when he passed over, but he feels the gaping hole in his heart at the loss of you.” Her brows furrowed slightly as she looked at me, “but he doesn’t want you to be sad anymore. You have a much bigger reason to smile now and that’s because of the baby that is growing inside of you. You need to let go of your past, let go of Elijah and move on with the life you deserve.”

“I don’t want to let go. I don’t want to forget,” I whispered, her hands still holding mine. I felt the gentle squeeze.

“No-one said anything about forgetting my child, just about letting go of the pain that you’re harbouring. Elijah is working hard to give you the life you want and need, and the first step towards that was Connie.”

I knew it. I felt it.

My eyes began to glass over as I nodded, nibbling the inside of my lip.

“And the second is Killian.”

I froze.

“He is your next path, the path that Elijah has paved for you to follow. He told me to tell you to let go of your stubbornness and that streak of Latino you have pumping through your blood. The last thing he said to me was that it was time to chase a new end of the rainbow. Mourn Elijah, remember him, talk out to him but don’t get so lost and consumed with your past that you forget to look forward to your future. That’s all he wants for you,” she smiled as I pulled my hand from hers and palmed away the tears that were rolling down my cheeks.

“He loved you very much, and he knew how much you loved him but now it’s time to find a new person to love, a new heart to hold onto… and he told me to tell you to trust him, everything will make sense soon.”

I nodded, taking the tissue she handed me as I wiped my tears away and blew my nose.

“Thank you, I didn’t know how much I needed that,” I choked, the tears filling my eyes.

“But he did,” she bowed her head.

“Thank you,” I whispered, pushing off the chair and reaching into my purse. She reached forward, grabbing my hand and shaking her head. I smiled, as I stepped back.

“Now go, take care of you and that beautiful little girl that is growing inside of you.”

“Girl?” I whispered, looking down at my flat stomach. “I’m only early…” confusion laced my voice.

“I have it from higher voices, she was sent to you at a time you needed her most…” her voice was quiet as she began to lay cards out in front of me.

The first card was death.

The second was the star.

And the third was the sun.

I looked up at her, my eyes scanning the three cards.

“Death, as much as this seems a scary card. It doesn’t mean what it says. You’re transforming, moving into the next stage of your life after a dark time. Death is here to make way for new things to come into your life.” Her hand moved to the right and hovered over the next card on the table. “The star,” she smiled, “after every storm, must come a rainbow.” Her eyes lifted as they landed on my stomach, “this card is all about healing, purpose and wholeness. This card normally comes up if the person has gone through a deep and emotional turmoil in their life… which you have. This card is showing you there is hope and recovery. This is a sign from your guardian angel that everything is moving in the right way. And last but not least,” her hand hovered over the third card, “the sun…” she smiled, “happiness. Life is good, the sun is shining on you and the path you need to be on… and I believe the sun is Elijah.”

The smile was spread across my face, my heart felt so full but still broken at the same time, but I felt content. I felt whole.

“Thank you,” I nodded, the happy tears streaming down my face.

“Now go, my child. Find your happiness.”

I bent down to pick my bags up, thanked the tarot reader again and walked back into the alley.