Losing Him (Mitchell Family #8)(46)

My love for Jessie wasn’t going to just disappear. He had my heart and there was nothing I could do to change that. As much as I wanted to believe that someday he would feel the same, I wasn’t going to stress about it anymore.

I had been given a second chance at life and still had a long way to go before I could get back to normalcy.

I don’t know why, unless he totally felt sorry for me, but Jessie decided to take me out for dinner. I’d been so cramped up in the house that it sounded like it could be fun. After a lot of thinking I knew exactly what I needed to do. I just had to come up with the nerve to go through with it. Jessie needed to know where I stood about things.

It was just easier said than done. The more I tried to push away from him, the more it seemed he was pulling me back in. Understanding that my almost dying had caused him to rethink his decisions, I knew I had to be the one to end things. He was still too busy being the great guy that he was to realize that what he was feeling wasn’t real and it wasn’t going to last.

When he kissed me in the car, I could feel the tension building. We hadn’t been intimate since my accident, primarily because I couldn’t physically do it. Now that I was feeling better, Jessie knew that this was his opportunity. We always fell into the same pattern. We’d started getting along and fall right back into bed with each other. My love for him prevented me from saying no. His lips were a powerful weapon to get me to do whatever he wanted. With just one kiss, I had forgotten all about letting him go. All I cared about was being in his arms and in his bed.

We made it to the restaurant in one piece, after making out at a traffic stop. I think we were both breathing heavily when we got out and walked into the establishment. Jessie kept his hand on the center of my back and it immediately made my nipples tingle. One touch from him could drive me crazy.

Things didn’t change once we got seated and started looking at our menus. I caught Jessie giving me the look and once we’d ordered, he rubbed his leg against mine under the table. I knew if I looked into those beautiful eyes, I’d be at his beck and call. Of course, that’s exactly what I did. I became captivated in the aspect of spending the night in his bed.

Knowing that we didn’t have to pick up Jacob let me know that he’d planned to wine and dine me. Maybe I should have been offended that he’d had our night all planned out. Obviously, I had forgotten what I had come to do. After we’d paid and gotten into the car, we couldn’t keep our hands off of each other. I still had to be careful with the way I moved my body, especially my neck, but Jessie was gentle, moving slow and holding me in a way that I remained secure. His tender kisses consumed me, overwhelming me with desire. I didn’t just want to feel his tongue brushing against mine. I wanted to feel his tongue touching me in other places, licking me and caressing me, in ways that only he knew how to do.

By the time we’d made it into the house, we were already half dressed. Jessie’s shirt had been ditched before we had even gotten out of the car. When we reached the living room couch, all bets were off. He unbuttoned my skirt and let it fall down to my feet. My panties followed, then my bra was unhooked and fell with everything else. I stood there in front of him, naked and ready.

Jessie pulled off his boxers and sat down on the couch, holding his arms out for me to climb on top of him. I bit down on my lip as I did what he wanted. Right away, I could feel his hard erection pressing on my skin. My body burned for him.

Jessie grabbed my ass and started moving me overtop of him. He teased me with his tongue and nibbled on my ears, while my hand reached down and got a hold of his hard cock. His smooth skin was easy to stroke. If he wasn’t ready to be inside of me, I was going to make damn sure he didn’t wait too long.

I moaned as I moved my hand in a vigorous pace. Jessie’s deep voice let out his own sounds giving me a tingle just knowing that I was getting to him.

My mouth began to water as I thought about something else I could do to please him. Carefully, I slid down off of his body and stared right at his stiff erection. He knew what I was going to do and readjusted so I wouldn’t have to bend my neck. With it already so close to my face, I stuck out my tongue and licked the tip, letting my saliva spread across it. I pulled away and rubbed it in with my fingers, licking my lips as I salivated to have him completely in my mouth.

I leaned down carefully again, making myself comfortable so that I could take him into my mouth. His shaft was warm as it entered the walls of my mouth. It filled me as I began to move my head up and down. Right away, I felt the pain in my neck. As much as I wanted to please him, I knew I wasn’t going to be able to do much more.

Perhaps Jessie saw me struggling. He grabbed me by my hair and forced me to let his cock come out of my mouth. I struggled to grab it again, but the pain was getting worse. Too much straining would set me back. I had to consider doing something else, instead of messing up all of the rehabilitation progress that I’d made.

Jessie grabbed his shaft and started stroking it, while I held out my tongue, letting it hit the tip frequently. I watched him watching me and got turned on knowing that he was improvising. I opened my mouth and let him tap his cock onto my lips. He spoke words that I couldn’t make out, holding his eyes closed and picking up the pace. When he opened them again, I licked my lips and held out my tongue again. Jessie bit down on his lip and slowed down. “I need you, or else I’m going to finish in your mouth, right now!”