Love Survives (Love's Suicide #2)(79)

She squeezed my hands. “Can we go back to worrying that I’ve been impregnated for the second time in a hotel room? How could I have let something so important slip from my mind?”

I traced my lips over her forehead. “We were preoccupied, making up for lost time. And no, we’re not going to worry about that. We’re going to keep making love and when you get pregnant, I’ll be able to experience everything I missed the first time.”

“Brooks, I need to get a divorce first. Don’t you think we’re rushing? We can’t just forget about everything else.”

“I’ve waited to be with you for over twenty years. This isn’t rushing. Kat, everything is going to be fine. Who gets pregnant two times in a row after one time being together? It’s pretty impossible.” In my defense I’m pretty sure I cut class during this discussion. I had no idea how any of this scientific stuff worked, other than what I’d learned out on my own. Kat was a mother. She knew exactly what she was talking about.

“Whatever.”

I tickled her where I knew she couldn’t take it, just to change the subject. I needed her to get back in that bed so I could start round two. “You’re a worry wart.”

Kat froze in place, causing me to lean down and kiss the top of her nose. “My girl.”

“We need to go slow, Brooks, not for us, but for the sake of everyone around us that won’t understand.”

“We have a kid together. She’s almost two. I think they can figure it out. Besides, I really don’t give a shit what people think or say. All I care about is being with you and B. The rest of the world can kiss my white ass.”

Kat couldn’t contain her reaction to my comment. A giggle escaped her puffy lips. “It is pretty white.”

“You’ve been looking?” I liked knowing she was checking me out.

She slapped me there, lightly. “I missed you so much.”

When she said it all the jokes were put to the side. I needed to be serious for a second. “I missed you too, Kat. You’ll never have to miss me again because we’re never going to be apart again. I promise.”

I did something I didn’t want to do, but knew it was important to show her I could be considerate, above everything else. I put my shirt over her head and lowered it to cover her back up. We kissed slowly, making it last even though it wasn’t going to lead to anything else, at least not then. “Thank you,” she said while staring into my eyes.

“Never thank me for taking care of you. I was put on this earth to do it and you know it, too.”

A little later while she was in my arms falling asleep I found myself laughing out loud. “You know, if you’re pregnant after one time, then I have super sperm. I bet we could make a fortune selling it on the black market like they do kidneys. Can you imagine how rich we’d be?”

She never moved from her comfortable position when she responded. “You’d have a million kids.”

“Yeah, well there is that. I guess it’s a bad idea, huh?”

She laughed and slapped my chest. “I’m glad I don’t love you for your brains.”

“No, you love me for my white ass, apparently.”

The longer we spent together, the more it felt like old times. I never wanted this to end. We were just getting started. When I fell asleep, I knew I’d never be rested enough to work, but a little was better than nothing. At least I knew I could come back to them and hold her in my arms again. It was something I’d never been able to do.





Chapter 39


I don’t know why I set an alarm, because I woke up every day without it. I quickly turned it off and got dressed, trying not to wake either of the females sleeping, one of which was in my bed, taunting me to climb back under the covers. She faced me with tired eyes as I whispered. “I’ve got to go into work. Will you be okay here until I get back?”

“Are we staying here another night?” She asked.

“You’re not going home. Listen, when I get back, I’ll go with you to the courthouse to file for the protective order. We can see about getting an attorney if you want to get a jump on it.” I knew I was pushing, and maybe she wanted some time to settle down, but I wasn’t about to let it slip her mind. I’d slept with a married woman. It was something I always told myself I’d never do. Of course, the woman had been Kat, and technically I felt as if she belonged to me. It still bothered me.

The cutest little girl caught our attention. Her big beaming eyes were taking us both in. “Me go bye bye’s?”

I sat down on the bed next to her. “I have to go to work, bug, but I’ll be back later and we can play.”

“We can pay?” I loved how excited she was about that.

I pretended to be as happy as she was. “Maybe we can go swimming.”

“In da pool?” She got ecstatic.

“Yeah, baby, in the pool.” I picked her up and kissed her. “I love you.”

While Kat got up to put a dry diaper on B, I finished getting my boots on. It sucked that it was so hot outside and I had sweat my ass off all day, but there wasn’t a shorts option. “If you need anything, you call. I’m right down the road. I love you.”

I kissed her twice, making sure I savored each one. “Love you, too.”