Bullet(59)

He slid under the sheet and laid his hand on my tummy underneath the nightie. He didn’t even look under to see that I wasn’t wearing panties. But he leaned over to kiss me while his hand roamed upward to find my breast. Oh…now that was nice. His touch was light, teasing, and I felt my entire body respond, my * getting wet again, hoping he would finally put me out of my misery. After the long, sensual kiss, he moved his lips to my neck and then to his hand to lick the nipple that had pebbled up at his touch. My back arched, pushing my nipple farther into his mouth, wishing he could consume me fully. I heard a loud sigh escape my lips, and I shoved my fingers in his hair.

His mouth released my breast to my dismay, but he began kissing a trail down my abdomen, moving farther down. Oh. I felt my muscles tighten in anticipation of what I thought he might be considering.

He kissed down the side of my hip, down the top of my leg, and then placed his hands on my thighs to gently urge them apart. Oh, there came that overwhelming sensation again, that one of feeling like too many nerves were being tantalized at once, that one of my brain not being able to keep up. And as his thumbs parted my labia, I thought I would jump out of my skin. That first stroke of his soft, warm tongue…

That blew me out of the water, and I already thought I couldn’t take anymore. I made some kind of groan and wrapped my curled fingers into the bottom sheet. But he licked me again, and the muscles in my inner thighs clenched and my breathing grew deep, hitting the bottom of my lungs with the force of forty horses. And yet his touch was gentle, maddening.

One stroke, then another, and I could feel myself climbing. This time, though, I knew what awaited me on the other side. I moved my hands to his head, winding my fingers into his hair, and then I could feel the motion of his head as he delivered those delicious sensations to that sensitive area, and somehow that intensified the feeling.

He sped up and I gasped. I wasn’t ready for the change, but then I could tell orgasm was inevitable. I felt my legs spread farther apart just out of instinct, and I tilted my pelvis and holy shit. I sucked in another deep breath only to be hit with one of the most powerful sensations I’d ever experienced in my short life.

Oh, yes, it was only the second orgasm I’d ever experienced, but it couldn’t compare to the first time. This time I had a better handle on what to expect. I still had no control over what he was doing to me—I was writhing, moaning out of control, and probably nearly pulling his hair out—but the feeling was at least familiar. And I held on as long as I could, but I finally said, “Oh, God, stop.” I thought I was going to lose my mind. I couldn’t handle the intensity anymore.

It took him a few seconds to register, but then he did stop—quite possibly because I was pulling up on his head. “What?”

I was breathing hard, as though I’d just run five miles. I tried to catch my breath. “I can’t take it anymore.”

His eyebrows furrowed. “Doesn’t it feel good?”

I felt my heart rate starting to slow. “Oh, yeah. It feels out of this world. But…too good, if that makes any sense. I can’t stand it anymore.”

He looked confused. “Too good? Is there such a thing?”

“Yeah. Oh, God, that was unbelievable.”

He cocked his head and sat up, but he wasn’t quite done. He kissed my belly again, making a path up to my cleavage. Then he looked up at me, and the way his head tilted made his eyebrows shadow his eyes. He looked mysterious, dark…tempting. “I really wanna be inside you. Do you think you could take that?”

I smiled. “I want to try.” And then I remembered. “Do you have a condom?”

He looked dismayed. “Next time. I promise.”

So I nodded, in spite of my hesitation. In seconds, he pulled down his underwear and entered me, and I realized I had again underestimated my body’s reaction. I took in a sharp breath, hit with the revelation that my orgasm was going to continue under the blows of his cock, whether I wanted it to or not. With his second thrust, I felt my thighs quiver in response, and they clenched his hips. I tilted my pelvis to take him in as far as he would go, but it had the added bonus of making me feel like a goddess. My gasps turned to audible groans again as he inflicted wave upon wave of heavenly delight upon me. But it couldn’t be stopped. I had no control over my body’s reaction. Maybe with time…but right now, it was so new, so unexpected, so freeing, all I could do was to let it overtake me and enjoy the ride.

* * *

Like the last time, Ethan wasn’t lying next to me when I awoke the next morning, and it wasn’t because he’d awakened before I had. When I got out of bed, I saw he was sleeping on one of the cots in the living room.

It was quiet as the guys slept away, but Brad was already up. I heard him in the shower, and he had already made coffee. I poured a cup and took it back to my room so I could put on makeup and do my hair before going to work. I didn’t want to do my makeup without washing my face, but I could at least fix my hair. While I worked on it, I thought about Ethan. Was he not sleeping with me because he really thought he could keep his involvement with me a secret, or was something else going on, something I couldn’t fully understand? Much as I loved Ethan and thought I knew about him, I knew there was far more beneath the surface than I’d ever touched. Even Brad had said as much to me.

But I couldn’t talk to anyone about that. Not a soul. Sure, maybe I could try emailing Jill or even Jennifer or messaging either one of them on Facebook, but I didn’t know that I wanted to talk with anyone about it. And even though Brad had become my closest friend in this new life, there was no way in hell I’d discuss Ethan and me with him. I didn’t know, didn’t think Brad still had feelings for me in that way, but whether he did or not, this was not a topic of discussion between the two of us. Ethan was like his brother, and I thought Brad had said as much about Ethan to me as he’d ever cared to, but more than that and something I didn’t want to think about was the possibility that he might still have deeper feelings for me.

I’d have to broach the subject with Ethan himself. I did know Ethan well enough to know that he wouldn’t want to talk about it, but if he really cared for me like he said he did, I’d tell him he had no choice. I wasn’t going to allow myself to be hurt or lied to, so he was going to have to explain. Besides, even if he did think he could keep us secret, he needed to know that wasn’t going to happen. I almost blushed remembering how vocal I’d been the night before.

I heard Brad exit the bathroom, and I gave him a little bit to clear out of the hallway before I walked into the bathroom to wash my face and brush my teeth. I returned to my room quickly, and by the time I left for work, I heard him strumming a tune on his acoustic in the big bedroom. It sounded sad. Part of me wanted to go hug him, but another part of me thought maybe I was the reason for that sad tune, and I hurried out the door, not wanting to dwell on that thought and ruin my happiness with Ethan.





Chapter Twenty-five



MY SHIFT WAS over early afternoon and I walked home, noticing for the first time that cooler weather was on the way. It was still pleasant and warm, but it wasn’t scorching hot like it had been all summer long.

I walked up the stairs to our apartment, feeling tired. The work at the sub shop wasn’t hard, and even standing on my feet for hours on end wasn’t bad, but it was boring work. The only time it felt stimulating was when we had customers who needed us to make something for them. I knew—whether music would become my entire life or not—that food service was not for me. I’d stick it out, but I didn’t plan to be there for years.

As I walked down the hall toward the apartment, I realized I could hear voices. And they were voices I knew. The guys were having a heated discussion. That was nothing new. They were all passionate about the music and they all had strong opinions, so to hear their voices raised didn’t completely surprise me.

But I paused outside the doorway. They weren’t talking about music.

No.

They were talking about me.

I couldn’t make out the words at first, but it didn’t take long. I heard Brad shouting. “You don’t deserve her.”

Okay, so that grabbed me around the heart and rattled me. Then I knew why Brad had been quiet and sullen the last several days. Whether or not he still had romantic feelings for me, he obviously objected to Ethan’s pursuit of me.

“Fuck that. I make her happy.” Something I couldn’t hear…but I resisted putting my ear up to the door. Then Ethan again: “You heard her yourself.”

It was quiet for a few seconds and then I heard, “Ethan, you’re a mess. You know it and I know it. You wanna make her happy? Get your shit together, man.”

I took a deep breath. Should I go in or not? Should I wait until they were done or leave and come back later? Well…maybe they didn’t know I could hear them, and maybe if I entered now, I could make them stop fighting. I really didn’t want to hear the conversation, but I hoped my presence would end it.