Don't Let Me Fall(35)

everyone. Second, I need to eat a f-ucking sandwich or something that I’m used to and third, I have to stop feeling like shit and man up. I have to move past these nightmares. They

are killing me. Not as fast as I want but they’re killing me.

I walked toward the train station and zoned out until I got home. No one was there so I took a shower and made some food. Matty and Kelsey don’t leave school for another hour and

Dad’s at work so I’m lonely. I would call Jacky or Remy but they have work too. Or they’re home going at it like rabbits.

I decided to crash on the couch until someone shows up. I just got comfortable as the doorbell rang.

“Are you f-ucking kidding me?” I mumbled.

I got up and walked over to the door.

You can say my mouth met the floor when I saw my mom standing outside. She looked past me and frowned.

“Is your dad home?” she asked.

Nice to see you too.

“No,” I said. “Work…just like every day.” She should know. She did live here for a long time. Mom’s eyes shot to mine and she scowled at me. Wow.

“Kelsey?” she asked.

“School.”

Her blue eyes landed on my arms and I saw her cringe. I know the sight of me is repulsive. She told Jacky that last year over the phone. I was standing right there when she said it.

Jacky’s eyes were the widest I’ve ever seen then she took Mom off speaker and walked into another room. It didn’t matter though. I heard it.

“I’ll come back later,” Mom said turning around and walking down the pathway toward her car.

The young girl in me wanted to call out to her and ask if she wanted to do anything but those days are gone. Vanished. Never going to happen. She hates me.

“Diana,” I called out. “Next time call.”

I closed the door and headed back to the couch where I watched reruns of some stupid MTV show. Seriously, reality TV sucks now. What happened to MTV having good shows? And why does

everyone have huge fake b-reasts and an annoying voice?

The front door opened and the noise of two younger siblings plus an annoying friend filled up the silence. Kelsey spotted me first.

“Keep Finn outside,” she said smiling wide. “Why didn’t you come home last night? I didn’t get to tell you about my first day.” She pulled me into a tight hug. I tensed when I

felt how thin she is.

She’ll get better.

She’ll get better.

“Holy shit, baby girl,” Finn said eyeing me. “Did you want to give me a heart attack? Sleepover with Aimee, my ass. She was with some guy all night.”

I raised an eyebrow at him. “How do you know?”

“Twitter,” Matty said shaking his head. “These two stalked her to know what you were up to. I’m guessing the only time you saw her was during the party at Logan’s.”

Kill. Me. Now.

No, not now. Not in front of my family.

“Details,” Kelsey said hopping onto the couch.

So I told her. Everything minus the sex of course.

She told me about school and how she talked to Micha recently. Her big news is that he’s going to get a transplant in a few days. I really don’t want to think about it because

that means someone has to die and I only want to think about my death. Not some stranger’s.

“Birdie!” Dad said walking into the house. “Nice to see you’re alive.” I saw him regret saying that as soon as the words left his mouth. He doesn’t know about last night. He’

s talking about when he found me in the bathroom. “So, let’s eat before you have to go to work.”

All of us walked into the kitchen and helped him cook something fast. Jacky and Remy showed up five minutes later. And now that Jacky and I are both here with Finn, he let the

flirting out. Apparently Gabriella doesn’t mind the constant flirting because 1) Finn will never get with us and 2) She will cut off his penis if he even tries to touch us. She’s

a smart girl.

Dad, Matty and Remy were sharing weird looks the whole time we were eating and since no one else noticed it, I spoke up.

“What’s wrong with you three?” I asked.

“Nothing!” they all said at the same time.

Everyone stopped eating and stared at each other.

Yeah, nothing my ass.

Then all three of them started pulling words out of their asses, making me more suspicious.

“O-kay,” I said standing up. “You guys can speak gibberish without me. I should start heading to work so–”

“No!” Remy said snatching my arm and holding me down. He seemed so off that I couldn’t speak. “Um…” He cleared his throat and let me go. “Stay. Five more minutes.”

“Okay…” Jacky said, eyeing us with a weird look. “That is not weird at all.” I glanced at her. “What is going on?” she asked Remy.

All eyes were on Remy now as he stared at Jacky. It looks bad! Like really really bad.

“Are you breaking up with me?” she asked, her voice cracking. “In front of my family.” Shit. I will literally beat the crap out of him if he does. “Where am I going to live?”

“No, Jacky,” Remy said standing up and walking over to her. “That’s not it.” He’s tensing. And he looks nervous.