Rule(85)

“I’m learning easy things never really pay off.  It’s the things that make you work that really matter.”
“You’re still a little punk that can’t hold his liquor but somewhere along the line you really did turn into a man I’m proud to call my brother.”
We stared at each other for a long moment and I would kill before I admitted it but my eyes totally welled up.  I cleared my throat and pushed off the counter.
“Thanks Rome, now I gotta go see if I still have a girlfriend or if I managed to drink myself single last night.”
I was thinking about his words as I dialed Shaw’s number only to be sent to voicemail.  I just had to let her love me; I wasn’t sure how to go about that but I knew whatever I was doing now wasn’t working.  After her recorded greeting I left a gruff message, “Hey it’s me.  I suck and I’m sorry.  I should have called.  I’m sure you were worried and if you had pulled that shit with me I would have been climbing the walls.  Really I don’t have an excuse other than things have been off with us for a little bit and I’m trying to figure it out.  Call me when you get this if you want.  I’ll see you later tonight.  Really I’m sorry and I promise to stop trying to do things different when the old way was working just fine.”
I didn’t know what her response was going to be I only knew that I had screwed up and that I hoped it wasn’t too late to fix it.  I finished getting ready for work without hearing from her.  I burned through my first two appointments with no word from her and I was starting to worry.  I knew she had class today but that didn’t normally stop her from hitting me up between sessions.  I was tempted to call her again but worried about what getting sent directly to voicemail again would do to me since I was already hanging on by a thread.  I was cleaning up my final appointment of the day when I finally got a text from her:
-       I’ll see you at dinner.
That’s was all.  There was no I forgive you, no yes you suck now let’s kiss and make up, no everybody makes mistakes, no I’m so glad we’re getting things back to normal, just I’ll see you at dinner.  What was I supposed to do with that?  This having a girlfriend business was starting to make my head hurt and I longed for the days where we were just cordial enemies that only spent an hour a week together, that wasn’t remotely true but it made me feel a little better as I plodded home and changed into something that wouldn’t give my mom a reason to have a fit.  I put on gray Dickies and a button down plaid shirt with pearl snaps on it and changed out of my studded leather belt for a plain black one.  I left my boots on and made sure my unruly hair had just enough product in it to keep it in a semi styled mess.  I still looked like me only a me that my dad wouldn’t raze and wouldn’t give my mom anything to bitch about and I had to admit to myself that I wanted Shaw to see that I could clean it up when the occasion called for it, but my head was so twisted where she was concerned I tried not to spend too much time thinking about what her reaction would be when we finally saw each other.
Rome and I climbed into the truck and I could tell he was nervous by the silent ride down to the restaurant and I honestly couldn’t blame him since the last family get together had gone so smashingly and to date mom still didn’t believe that she held any part in the family rift.  I wasn’t sure that meeting in public and having all this extra tension between Shaw and I was going to be a recipe for success but I was determined to give Rome the sendoff he deserved and not let him leave disappointed in me or with any extra reasons to worry about those he loved.
We parked in a crowed lot and shoved a couple dollars in the payment kiosk and made our way to the busy restaurant.  Mom and dad were waiting out front with Shaw.  My breath quickened and something in my chest flipped over at the sight of her.  It had only been a few days but seeing her now I suddenly felt like we had spent years apart.  She had changed her hair in the time that had passed; it was now drastically two colors and looked badass next to her pale skin and bright eyes.  Her cheeks were red from the cold and her green eyes were guarded as we got close.  I could see my mom had a near death grip on Shaw’s arm and that she wasn’t exactly overjoyed with our arrival.  Rome leaned in and kissed both them on the cheek and shook dad’s hand before moving to pull open the door.  I opted for a chin lift and a raised eyebrow in Shaw’s direction.
“Hey.”
The corners of her mouth pulled down and my mom flat out ignored me.  “Hey.  Let’s go inside I’m freezing.”  She let my mom pull her along and a little sliver of anger started to spark under my skin but this wasn’t about me so I tried to stamp it down as my dad cupped me on the back of the neck and gave me a little shake.  It was a gesture that made me feel like I was ten years old again which was funny since I was about six inches taller than him now.
“This is a good thing for all of us kiddo.  Just be patient and we’ll all get better at being a solid unit again.”
“It’s just dinner dad.  Let’s not get ahead of ourselves.”
“Well we have to walk before we run, son and as of now the Archer’s are barely managing a staggering limp.  All we can do is move forward.”
I didn’t know what to say to that so I just kept my mouth shut and watched Shaw’s shapely form as the hostess guided our group to a table in the back of the building.  My mom was jabbering nonstop at her and she was occasionally nodding and making noises of agreement but what she wasn’t doing at all was looking at me or acknowledging me in anyway.  The anger was starting to turn from a smolder to a burn and if something didn’t break soon I was going to do something I was bound to regret later.  When we sat at the table I ended up sandwiched between my brother and my girlfriend, one was looking at me warningly the other was watching me with eyes shrouded in sadness and accusation, two things I didn’t understand and was ready to say the hell with it to get answers about.  I never got the chance because as soon as I turned to Shaw the waitress appeared and we were busy ordering drinks and my mom once again high jacked all Shaw’s attention.