Don't Let Me Fall(89)

when I thought about him. The way Logan’s eyes might hold mine then roam down my body. He invades my thoughts and makes me feel dirty for the things I want to do.

I drove to the twins’ place…and Darren’s because they’re having a small New Year’s party. This will probably be the most fun I’ll have in awhile. I’m predicting my future

during this trial and I can see myself shutting down and being weird again. But I won’t give up. I promised Kelsey.

“Holy f-ucking shit!” Aimee yelled, opening the door to her apartment. “This is why you wanted to come alone. Jesus. You look…” Her eyes stayed on my b-reasts and I couldn’t

help but smile.

This is the first time I’m wearing a mini dress and heels since that night everything went to shit. Jacky stuffed me into them actually. Before she and Remy left for a party of

their own, we were all home celebrating before we separated. She brought this baby blue dress over and tossed me into it. I didn’t want to wear it but then I stared at the color

and I thought about Logan. And his damn eyes.

The * has my heart.

Any part I have hiding in my chest.

One hundred percent.

“I can’t think of a word,” Aimee mumbled. “Come in.”

I walked behind her into the big open space with people crowded around a table getting drinks. Oh, good. They’re not looking at me.

Aimee whistled and stepped to the side.

f-uck. I know what she’s doing.

“Someone wanted to start the new year off with a bang,” Aimee smirked, glancing at me. “It’s a shame my brother has dibs. I’d go out of my comfort zone right about now.”

Kill me now.

More like drown me in alcohol. They have plenty of it.

Kevin, Max, Juan and Shaun were busy talking to their dates (just for tonight, they never settle down) but they couldn’t stop looking at me either. Victor’s talking to Caleb and

they both seem like they’re in a dream state, and Darren is staring at me like I stepped out of a porn video with his favorite porn star. I feel like I’m being watched under a

magnifying glass. Everyone is staring.

Logan popped out of the kitchen with a chilled bottle of vodka. “Only one I got so–” He stopped short as his eyes took me in. Everyone’s beady eyes disappeared and it was just

the two of us.

Is it wrong to feel special now? Knowing I made an appearance and everyone is looking at me? I didn’t plan on it but it happened. I’m fine because of Logan. He does things to me.

“This party sucks,” I said glancing around. “No one is moving.”

“Because they all have boners,” Alyssa said linking her arm through mine. We walked to the right and I caught her eyes travel to my ass. I stopped walking and placed a hand on my

hip.

“You know, I’m more comfortable walking around naked,” I said. “Should I lose the dress?” Alyssa’s eyes widened as she smiled.

“It’s just weird…your tattoos…they look like they’re coming to life when you walk,” she said pushing my hair to one shoulder. “You never show skin so I’m in awe.”

“We should go to the pool,” Logan breathed. “It’s heated.”

He’s lucky his balcony has a pool. And it’s even better that the balcony is closed off so no one can come in or see us.

I turned his way and gave him a challenging look.

“You know I’ll drop the dress,” I said. Logan just loves when other people stare at me so I know he won’t accept.

Kevin’s date, a blonde, stepped forward and slipped off her heels.

“Are we going?” she asked giving me a teasing smile. Oh, this girl likes them any way. She’s a fun one. I smiled and kicked off my heels, unzipped my dress and let it fall to the

floor at my feet.

“Oh sweet Jesus.” Alyssa sucked in a breath beside me.

I laughed and walked over to the blonde.

“I have a boyfriend so don’t try anything,” I said winking at her. I have no idea where this playful Rebeckah came out of but it I like it. I feel like the old me. Sort of.

“Boyfriends are overrated,” she said slipping her hand in mine. “And he doesn’t seem to mine.”

“I don’t know who you’re talking about,” Logan said, suddenly in front of me. He scooped me up and threw me over his shoulder as he walked to the pool area. My chest knocked

into his back more times than I can count but it was his fingers, teasing my thighs, that made my mind draw a blank.

“You’re still in clothes,” I said swatting Logan’s butt.

I glanced up and found everyone hopping around as they got out of their clothes. I laughed when Caleb fell over and landed on his ass. Aimee slipped out of her dress and helped him

up. I was surprised they didn’t go lock themselves in their room.

Logan carried me until we made it to the pool. I heard him unzip his jeans then they fell. He set me down on the floor and pulled his shirt off.

“Why did you want to come to the pool?” I asked him. “What you need is a cold shower.” I feel him pressed against me so I know. He laughed and scooped me back up as he jumped

into the pool.