Toxic: Logan's Story (Torn #4)(40)

“I want you to kiss me everywhere,” I said.

He shook his head. “I told you last night that I wasn’t going to move too fast with you, and I meant it. I’m not going to screw this up with you.”

“You won’t, I promise. I just really need you tonight, Logan. Please. I want you.”

When he shuddered, I knew that I’d won.

He pulled my face to his and kissed me deeply. “Promise me something before we go any further.”

“Anything,” I said against his lips.

“If you ever decide that you don’t want me, you tell me. Don’t try to hide it or force yourself to love me, okay?” He pulled away from me enough to look down at me.

The pain in his eyes broke my heart.

“Oh, Logan. I won’t do what she—I’ll never hurt you, and I won’t lie to you. I promise.”

Chloe had hurt him so badly. Even now, he was still thinking about what she’d done to him.

“I can’t go through that again. I can’t give someone my heart and watch as she stomps on it before throwing it away.”

I reached up and grabbed the sides of his face, forcing him to stare directly into my eyes. “No matter what happens between us, I will never hurt you. I’ve wanted you for so long. I’d be a fool to cast you aside. Since I met you, you’re the only man I’ve thought about.”

He smiled down at me, and I saw relief fill his eyes.

“Thank you, Jade.”

I pulled him back down to me, and I kissed him. He didn’t hold back this time. Instead, he threw everything he had into that kiss. It was like an invisible wall had been between us, and it was gone now. I knew deep down that he was still scared, but in time, he would see that I meant what I’d said. I would never hurt him. He was all I wanted. I’d spent so much time wanting him that it felt surreal to be lying here with him.

He sat up and pulled his shirt over his head. After tossing it aside, he leaned back down and started kissing me again. I moaned as our naked skin touched. I ran my hands down his chest and ribs. He shivered at my touch, and I smiled. I felt powerful and sexy and so many other emotions that I hadn’t felt in a very long time.

I shoved on him gently until he rolled to his back. Before I lost my nerve, I rolled on top of him. He seemed surprised, but he grinned up at me.

“It’s been a really long time since I’ve done this, so bear with me, okay?” I asked.

“Somehow, I doubt you’ll disappoint.” He rested his hands on my hips.

I leaned down and kissed along his neck and then down to his chest, teasing him like he had teased me earlier. My hands explored every ripple of muscle on his stomach as my tongue darted out and attacked his nipple. His body jerked in response. I slowly kissed my way down his stomach to the top of his jeans. I reached down and undid the top button with shaking hands. Once it was loose, I slowly unzipped his jeans. When I sat up and started tugging on them, he grabbed me and dropped me onto the bed beside him.

I watched with rapt attention as he stood and lowered his jeans. He kicked them off and climbed back onto the bed, never taking his eyes off of me. I couldn’t stop my eyes from lowering and taking in all of him. His fingers grazed my cheek, and I raised my eyes up to meet his. He gave me the sweetest smile possible, showing off his dimples, and I felt myself melt.

Dear God, he is so beautiful, and he’s mine.

“You’re sure?” he asked quietly as he ran his fingertips down my arm.

I nodded, unable to speak.

“Are you on anything?”

It took me a moment to realize what he was talking about. Birth control. Shit. I wasn’t. I’d had no reason to be. I’d spent the last six years on my own. Babies and pregnancy-scares had been the last things on my mind.

I shook my head. “No, I never had a reason to be.”

“It’s fine. I have condoms in my wallet.”

I raised an eyebrow, and he grinned.

“Hey, I didn’t come down here, expecting anything with you. I’d just rather be safe than sorry.”

He reached down and grabbed his jeans off the floor. After pulling his wallet out of the back pocket and grabbing a condom from inside, he threw them back down. I watched as he put the condom on the table beside the bed and turned back to me.

“You’re the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen, Jade.” He leaned in and kissed me gently.

As he moved his body over mine, I moaned. I could feel his dick against my thigh, hard and ready.

“I’m nervous,” I whispered after I broke the kiss.

“Don’t be. I won’t do anything you don’t want to do. If you’re unsure, we’ll stop now.”

I shook my head. “No, I don’t want to stop. I don’t know why I’m so nervous.”

“Let’s see if I can distract you.”

He started at my neck and slowly kissed his way down my body. When he reached my ankle, he started his way back up. The kisses were gentle and sweet. When he reached my inner thigh, my breathing increased. I felt fire flood my veins when he kissed higher. His breath tickled my skin when he reached the apex of my thighs. He pressed a light kiss where my body needed him the most, and I moaned loudly.

“Is this okay?” he asked.

“Yes.” My voice cracked.

He continued to press kisses between my legs. When I felt like I was going to explode from all his teasing, he pulled away. I groaned and opened my mouth to beg him to stop teasing, but his mouth was suddenly against me. My back arched off the bed as he ran his tongue across my clit, and then he sucked on it gently.