Trusting Nicole (The Last Hangman MC #4)(34)

CHAPTER 11




Nicole

Well, f*ck me sideways. I did not expect that.

I look at Jase in disbelief. I can’t believe he went through this nightmare on his own and is still living it. I’m glad he’s finally told me. I get why he was so scared of telling me, of telling anyone, not a lot of people would understand. But what he doesn’t get is that Gabe and Aleck never would hurt him for what he did, well they might because we’ve had sex but other than that, they’d understand. They’ve had to do things to survive, all of them.

“Say something,” he says his voice laced with despair.

“I’m sorry you had to go through all of that. I hate the saying, but things do happen for a reason. I hate that you went through all of that and pretty much on your own, because it sounds like you didn’t have any friends besides those men, but had none of this happened, maybe you wouldn’t have found my brothers and their friends. They’ve become your family and even though you haven’t been honest with them, which you had reasons for, they would still accept you.”

“What about you?” He looks up at me.

“What about me?”

“Do you still accept me?”

“Jason, when are you going to get it in your thick-ass skull that I am not going anywhere. You won’t be getting rid of me. I know a lot of things we did are wrong. We shouldn’t have hooked up and started seeing each other when you were married or so soon after she died, but honestly, as bad as it’s going to sound, I don’t care. It felt right being with you. People can call me a bitch or a slut for it, I don’t care. Our relationship isn’t common, a lot of people would frown upon it, but who cares what others think. All that matters is that we are happy and that you don’t go around f*cking other women. You do and I won’t hesitate to chop your balls off and feed them to rabid dogs.”

He chuckles. “I don’t doubt for a second that you’d do that, that’s if Gabe and Aleck don’t kill me first.”

“I’ll make sure they don’t, but it might be better if they know the full story. If they don’t accept us being together, we can just run away, get married in Vegas and travel the world.” I shrug.

“Interesting back-up plan.” He smiles and wraps me in his arms.

“I always have a back-up plan, besides, I’d go anywhere with you.” I kiss his neck and cuddle into him.

“I’d go anywhere with you too.” He kisses the top of my head.

“How do you feel now, having told me most of it?”

“Most of it?” He scoffs.

“I know you held back on some stuff.”

“I did. But you know all of it, just not the details of what I did, and I’d rather not tell you that.”

“Understandable.”

“I’m feeling a lot better. One less person to lie to and keep up with those lies.” He sighs.

“That must not have been easy to lie to everyone and remember what you told each of them.”

“It’s a f*cking nightmare. I have to remember what I said to the Hangman, the cops and report back to Sergei about everything.”

“What do you mean report back to Sergei about everything?” I sit up and look at him.

“Fuck.” He rubs his face, clearly having let that slip.

“I’m waiting.”

“The intel I was getting when working with the Hangman, Bastards and Angels wasn’t coming from one of my cops being on the inside. It was coming from Sergei and his men. He had someone infiltrate the Kings and report back. Same thing just not from the right job.”

“Anything else?”

“I might have been a part of the reason that some of the deals went wrong in the past for the Hangman and the Bastards.” He grins innocently.

“You’re so f*cked.” I can’t help but chuckle.

“I know.” He looks at me looking exhausted and amused.

“The sooner you tell them, the better it’ll be.”

“I don’t know how to tell them. Ric and Ray already hate my guts, th-”

“They don’t hate you. MCs don’t like cops because usually they are after them and do everything they can to put them behind bars or six feet under. You are the opposite. You are helping them get away with crimes they’re committing and even helping out on some. They’ll be pissed that’s for sure. Some might want to fight you for you to prove that you are worthy of them, but they won’t kill you. It’s not like you’re really working for the cops anyway. The Hangman and the Russians have a truce. They each keep to their territory and everything will be fine. You working for the Russians might not go down too well, but you haven’t done anything since you’ve hung out with them that would make any deal fall or anything else, not that I know of anyway.”

“I guess you’re right. I am however responsible for the Disciples coming here.”

“What do you mean?” I look at him, confused and he pulls out a slip of paper from his wallet.

“I got this yesterday. Lewis found it in my office when I dropped it and she looked into my file, that’s how she found out I’m not a cop.”

“What did you do that would cause this type of backlash? Looks like I’m targeted too.” I sigh.