Love At First Hate (Love At Firsts Book 2)(55)

“Why the frown, and why did you never expect to fall in love?”

“I never believed in love. I’ve never been in love or had someone love me. I never let someone get close enough to me to let that happen. Hell, a couple of months ago, I was dead set on never being in a relationship. I was fine with just casual sex. Now, I find myself wanting a relationship and something good with Matt.”

“That’s good.” Spencer smiles at me.

“It is, but it’s terrifying.”

“That’s the whole point. You are putting your fragile heart in the hands of someone else, and you have to trust them not to drop it and stomp on it, but you have to take that leap of faith and give your trust to someone and accept theirs. It’s your first real relationship, and you’re old enough to face life’s adversities. People will judge you. They’ll try to break you two up. They’ll want to see you fail. It’s your job to be stronger than them. Just ignore them and be happy living your life with Matt. You’ve been through hell and back, and you survived. You’ll survive this with Matt if you stand with each other and hold onto each other,” Spencer says looking deep into my eyes.

“You should write books, you’re good with words.” I chuckle, trying to lighten up the mood. Shit got very serious, and he’s right about all of it; that’s the worst part.

“I know, I’d be a bestseller overnight.” He chuckles. “In all seriousness, screw everybody else. You and Matt deserve to be happy with each other. Just make the right decision.” He gives me a pointed look.

“About what?” I look at him confused, not following what he’s going on about.

“The decision you have to make for the Bahamas.”

“The decision is already made.”

“What is it going to be?” He pauses with the bottle mid-way between the counter and his mouth.

“There was never a decision to make. It’s Matt. I love him. I just have to figure out how to break the news to my family.”

“Be honest. Don’t sugar coat it or bullshit them. Just tell them how you feel. Ask them to let you speak because you have a lot to get off of your chest, and if they have to say anything that they can wait for their turn, but nothing will change your mind and if they have any homophobic opinion or comments they can roll them up and shove them high up their ass.”

“Amen to that.” We clink our bottles and finish them.

We decide to call it a night and go up to our rooms. We continue to make small talk going up to our levels as we’re on the same one and part ways to go to our respective rooms.

Matt is fast asleep and looks so peaceful that I don’t have the heart to wake him up. Instead, I strip out of my clothes, brush my teeth, and take a leak before joining Matt in bed and spooning him. He instantly cuddles into me and in that moment, I know that I can face anything my family will throw at me when I decide to come out to them.





May 7, 2016

Today started the right way. I was woken up by Nate’s lips around my dick, giving me the best morning head ever. Scrap that, the best head ever. I might not have had any the day before, but he made sure I wasn’t left out and took extra good care of me today. Which is slightly weird when we are having breakfast with my family today, and I’m introducing him to them as my boyfriend. Yes, I’m a fifteen-year-old inside and will obviously think about the fact that I had my dick in his mouth an hour before we met for breakfast. I wonder if he’ll be thinking the same thing.

“How are you feeling about meeting my parents?” I ask Nate who seems lost in his thoughts.

“Nervous. What if they don’t like me?”

“Don’t be nervous, my parents are awesome. You’ll know straightaway if they like you or not, especially my mom and my brother.” I chuckle remembering how they were to John.

“Why are you chuckling?” He narrows his eyes at me.

“Just remembered how bad it was with John the first time they met him.”

“That bad?” he asks in a worried tone.

“Yeah, my brother wanted to punch him, my mom wanted us to break up, and my father just couldn’t stand being around him. They all thought he was sleazy and was taking advantage of me and my situation. I should have listened to them, but you live and you learn.” I shrug.

“What situation?”

“I have a good job, and it pays well. I get a load of free stuff through it, so I don’t have to spend a crazy amount of money for some of the stuff I actually want that is expensive.”

“In other words, you’re loaded, and he wanted to enjoy the money and free stuff.”

“Sadly, yes. Tough luck, though, I do like to spoil the ones I love, but I’m not going to give them a shit load of money or a car, and that’s what he was expecting.”

“That’s sad,” Nate scoffs.

“It is. He’s well off, but I guess if you spend other people’s money you’re saving your own.”

“I don’t get people nowadays.”

“Nor me. They’ll love you. Don’t worry,” I say kissing him.

“Won’t they mind the tattoos, or my past, or well that I’m missing a bit.” He chuckles nervously.

“Thank f*ck it’s not the best bit.” I smirk and squeeze his cock through his jeans.