Fools Rush in(95)

“Hi, this is Millie. Leave me a message and I’ll call you as soon as I can!”

My chirpy voice sounded idiotic. No wonder Sam was sorry. Beep!

“Millie, it’s Sam. Pick up the phone.”

“No,” I said to the machine. Sam sighed as if he could hear me.

“Millie, please call me. I’m home all day, except at two, when I’m going to see Dr. Reardon. I should be back by three. Okay? Call me.”

Ten minutes later, the phone rang again.

“Hi, this is Millie. Leave me a message and I’ll call you as soon as I can!”

“Aunt Millie, it’s Danny—”

I snatched up the phone. “Hi, honey. How’s your dad?”

“He’s okay. I don’t think he slept much last night.”

“Uh-huh.” No mystery there. “How’s his shoulder?”

“He says it’s okay, pretty sore, though. Want to talk to him?”

“No!” I yelped. “I mean, no,” I continued more calmly. “I’m just running out. Let me know what Dr. Reardon says, okay?”

“Okay, Aunt Mil. Bye.”

Sam called again, around four. “Hey, Millie. It’s Sam.” He paused for a second. “Millie, we can’t…listen, I really, really want to talk to you. Please call me. Thank you.”

I didn’t call. I just couldn’t listen to him tell me what a mistake he’d made, how sorry he was, how we should forget it, put it past us, blah, blah, blah. Nor did I want to talk to anyone, not Katie, not Curtis or Mitch. It was one thing to have this big, aching love. It was another to tell people that you’d been rejected.

Danny called again later and filled me in on the doctor’s visit, which had confirmed the diagnosis of bone bruise. Sam had taken a Vicodin and gone to bed. Sadness and sympathy flared at the idea of Sam sleeping uncomfortably in his big bed. Danny told me the sling could come off in another day or so, and I told him that I thought that would be fine, too.

“Is everything okay, Aunt Millie?” my nephew asked in a low voice.

“Sure, Danny. Everything’s fine. I just…I’m just distracted. We closed the clinic yesterday, and I start my new job in a couple of weeks….” My voice trailed off. I didn’t want to lie to Danny.

Sam called the next day, but only once. “It’s Sam,” he said. He stayed on the line for a minute, waiting. “Okay, Millie,” he said quietly. Click.

I cleaned my already immaculate house. I baked cookies, then brought them to the senior center. I went for a run. I showered, e-mailed, organized my closet, polished my shoes, but the day refused to end. My skin felt stretched too tight, trying desperately to hold my secret in. Finally, I grabbed my keys and drove into Orleans, heading for the Barnacle. Hopefully, it wouldn’t be too busy and Katie could take a break. I needed my best friend.

I burst into the restaurant and then lurched to a stop. For the first time in my life, I hadn’t noticed Joe Carpenter’s truck in the parking lot. He was sitting next to Katie at the bar, some papers in front of him, their heads close together. The bar was quiet, only a few tables taken now that the tourism season was finished for the year.

Walking up to the bar, I cleared my throat. “Hi, guys,” I said.

Katie looked up. “Hey, Millie!” she smiled. “Guess what? Joe’s getting Tripod certified as a therapy dog!”

Joe looked up. “Hi, Millie,” he said, his voice neutral.

“Hi, Joe,” I said. There was an awkward pause. “That’s great.”

Joe looked down. “Yeah, well, he’s a good dog. You know.”

“And if Tripod does well, then Joe can adopt a puppy and train it to be a therapy dog, too,” Katie announced, beaming like a proud parent.

“That’s great, Joe,” I said.

“Katie’s helping me with the application.”

“Great.” I glanced at Katie.

“Ask her,” Katie whispered, nudging Joe’s arm.

Joe took a deep breath. “Would you give me a reference, Millie?”

My mouth fell open. “Sure! Of course, Joe. You’re great with dogs. Tripod is so well-behaved.”

“Thanks.” He smiled then, a little shyly, and I found myself smiling back. “I heard Sam got hurt by some punk,” Joe said, taking a swig of beer. “How’s he doing?”

“He’s fine.” My ears burned at the mention of Sam’s name. “Thanks for asking. Um, he just got hit pretty hard, but he’s good.” Again, I glanced at Katie.

“Listen, Joe, you finish filling that out, okay?” she said. “I have to talk to Millie for a sec.” Katie and I went to a table in the corner and sat down.

“So what’s up?” she asked.

Suddenly feeling uncomfortable, I stalled. “What are you doing with Joe?”

She laughed and pulled her hair over one shoulder. “Oh, he just needs a little…guidance. I don’t know. Remember I told him off at Nauset High that day?”

“Sure.” The Wrath of Katie was not easy to forget.

“Well, he came in last week and asked for some advice, can you believe that? On what I thought he should do to get himself on track. Whatever. So I told him to volunteer for some worthy cause, and he showed up tonight with all the paperwork and stuff.” Katie smiled, clearly pleased. “Anyway. What’s going on with you? You look whipped.”