Defending Hayden (Second Chances #7)(35)

As soon as he got closer, I wrapped my fingers around his cock, massaging his length. He sucked in a breath and groaned, his heated gaze on mine the entire time. “You’re killing me, love. I won’t last if you keep doing that.”

“How long has it been?”

He kissed me hard. “Way too f*cking long.” Grabbing my wrist, he pulled my hand away and held it above my head. “It’s my turn now.”

With his free hand, he traced a finger over my breasts and down my stomach. My clit throbbed, and I knew that the second he showed it some attention, I’d be pushed over the edge. He slid a finger inside me and I gasped. When he pushed another finger in, I screamed in ecstasy as everything exploded from the inside out.

“You’re so f*cking wet. How long’s it been for you?”

My eyes rolled back into my head and I squeezed his hand. “You have no idea.”

He pulled his fingers out and put them in his mouth, moaning with his eyes closed. When he opened them, all I could see was raw primal need. Reaching over, he opened one of his dresser drawers and pulled out a condom, keeping his eyes on mine as he put it on. Clasping his face in my hands, I leaned up and kissed him as he positioned himself between my legs. He pushed in just a bit, and I stiffened with the pleasure and pain. It had been so long.

“Are you okay?” he asked, concern etched across his face.

I nodded and held him tighter. “It’s just been a while, that’s all. I promise I’m fine.”

Closing his lips over mine, he kissed me gently as he slid the rest of the way in. I wrapped my legs around his waist, squeezing as tight as I could to keep him there. I wanted to feel all of him, as deep as he could go. He slowly started to move against me; our bodies slid against each other. I couldn’t think of anything else but the two of us, our bodies connected as one. You would never believe Derek was this big bad-ass football player by how tender he was with me. He was letting me see a whole other side to him.

Picking up his pace, he grunted with his thrusts. My orgasm kept building, and the more he pushed against me, the closer I was brought to the edge. “Derek,” I screamed, digging my nails into his back. Holding me tight, he finished inside me, his cock pulsating with his release. He collapsed on top of me, his breaths coming out in huffs. I had never felt so happy in my life.





Chapter 14





Derek


Holy f*ck, what just happened? A moment of weakness had royally f*cked me over. How could I have done that to Hayden? Once she found out what I was really like, she’d leave me in a heartbeat. The sun shone in through my window, beaming across her chocolate-colored hair. In the light, there were wisps of red that I hadn’t seen before. She looked like an angel. After I’d made love to her, she’d passed out and hadn’t woken since. I’d spent the rest of the night watching her sleep, knowing that I’d made one of the worst mistakes of my life. I shouldn’t have let her in, but it was too late. I couldn’t lose her like I had Brianna; I didn’t want to take that chance, not when my feelings ran as deep as they did. What was worse was that I felt more of a connection to Hayden than I ever did to Brianna.

Guilt plagued me and I felt sick. Getting out of bed, I paced the room, running my hands angrily through my hair. I didn’t want to hurt Hayden. Keeping her away would protect her from my life. She was bound to leave me anyway. I’d f*ck up somehow and it would ruin her. What the hell was I talking about? I’d already f*cked her up.

“Derek?” Her voice was like honey, silky and sweet. I’d imagined what it would be like to hear that voice screaming my name as I f*cked her over and over. Last night had been the best night of my life, but it had scared the shit out of me. I couldn’t shake it. “Derek, are you okay?” she asked. Stopping midstep, I turned to face her, and her eyes widenened when she got a glimpse of my face. I could only imagine what she saw. So many emotions battled inside me. She held the blanket to her chest, and her lips trembled. “Please tell me this wasn’t just a game to you,” she whispered.

Swallowing hard, I sat down on the edge of the bed and reached for her. She recoiled from my touch. “None of this was a game, Hayden. Last night was f*cking amazing.”

Her eyes glistened, but her jaw was firm. “Then why are you looking at me like that? Like you regret what we did.”

I wanted to touch her, but last night had been my only chance. She’d never let me close to her again. “I don’t regret it, but eventually you will. You’re not the only one who’s lost someone they cared about. I can’t go through it again. It’s best to stop this before it goes any further.”

“Any further?” she scoffed. She waved her arm around the room, her anger so thick I could cut it with a knife. “If you didn’t want it to go any further, then why did you bring me here? Why would you do that to me?”

“Because I care about you,” I said, knowing it made no sense to her.

“Then why are you pushing me away?” she cried.

Standing, I got up and walked over to the window. “You wouldn’t understand.”

She rushed out of bed and threw on her clothes. Jaw clenched, I didn’t know what to expect, but I surely wasn’t expecting what came out of her mouth.

“Are you doing this because of the accident?”