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“Trevor would have thought you were the coolest thing ever.”

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“I’m counting on it,” she said slowly and then opened her door.

Less than five minutes later, we stood on the fifth floor, and the fear that had been dodging me all day was back, and it was back hard. I dropped Monroe’s hand and shoved my own deep into the pockets of my jeans, avoiding the curious gazes from the nurses behind the station.

“Can I help you?”

The tall one came around the desk, eyebrows arched as she waited for us to answer.

“I…” Shit, my voice sounded worse than when I was twelve and it started to change. I cleared my throat, my gaze moving past the nurse to where Trevor’s room was.

“Nathan’s here to see his friend, Trevor Lewis,” Monroe said.

The nurse’s eyes narrowed, and she cocked her head, her eyes never leaving me. A moment passed. And then another.

My heart sank, because I saw the recognition in her eyes. She knew who I was. The screw-up who was responsible for Trevor being here. There was no way she was going to let me walk past the damn desk.

What the hell had I been thinking?

“He needs to see Trevor,” Monroe said forcefully. “You have to at least let him try.”

“Honey, I don’t need to do anything,” the nurse replied, her hands now on her hips as if she’d made it her own personal mission to keep us away.

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“Brenda…” I looked her in the eye. “Brenda Lewis, his mom, told me to come by when I saw her today. She said that he might…” I rolled my shoulders and tried to keep it cool. “She said that he might not make it ’til morning.”

Shit. Hearing those words was tough; saying them was even tougher.

Something softened in her eyes and she sighed, shaking her head. “I’m sure she meant for you to come before nine. I’m sorry, but it’s too late, and it’s against hospital policy.” She shook her head. “I’m going to have to ask the both of you to leave.”

And that was it. Over before it could start.

“Are you kidding?” Monroe pushed past me, and for a second, I thought she might actually hurt the nurse. “Can’t you see what this means to him? Trevor is his best friend. He has to see him.

You have to let him.”

The nurse shrugged. “I understand what you’re saying, but we have rules and we have them for a reason, and if you don’t leave quietly, I’ll have to call security.”

“Monroe, it’s no use. Let’s just go.” I grabbed her elbow and would have turned except I heard a voice call my name, softly, but there was no mistaking the gruff undertone.

“Nathan.”

I looked past the nurse and spied Mike Lewis standing just outside Trevor’s room, and if it was possible for everything inside me to freeze, it did. My lungs. My heart. My brain.

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I was standing in ice, as if the blood rushing through my veins was frozen and slow.

The nurse was still chattering in my ear, though she’d moved a bit and I had nothing blocking my view. I had no idea what she was saying, because there was nothing but Mike in my vision. In my head.

Nothing but a slow blow to my heart.

Trev’s dad looked as if he’d aged ten years since I had seen him. His skin was gray and his eyes, shit, his eyes were sunken, glassy, and so full of pain, I felt it like a physical blow.

As if he’d balled up those massive fists at his side and smashed them into my face.

For the longest time, he stared at me, those sad, angry, and haunted eyes pinning me hard. I wasn’t sure what he was going to do. Was he going to finally kick my ass? Would that somehow make him feel better?

Because I gotta tell you that if it would, I’d gladly let him beat me. I’d let him lay his hands on me and get whatever relief he could. Anything to make his pain go away.

He pushed off from the wall and walked toward us, his gait slow. He was a big man, intimidating to most with his shaved head, tattoos, and massive shoulders. Yet when I looked at him, I saw the guy who took Trevor and me fishing every Friday after school when we were ten. The guy who helped us build go-karts and who rushed me to the emergency room when I broke my arm after an epic crash.

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I saw the guy who let us play our loud ass music ’til all hours of the evening and who would watch us, bobbing his head even though I knew he’d rather listen to Big & Rich.

I saw the guy whose heart I had shattered.

He stopped a few inches away, his sleeveless wife-beater stained down the front of his chest— coffee maybe— and it was wrinkled, like he’d slept in it or grabbed it off the floor to come here.

He rolled his shoulders, his eyes never leaving me, but there was no danger in his voice when he spoke. He just sounded really tired.

“You look like shit, Everets.”

I nodded. “I guess I do.”

Mike ran his hand along at least a week’s worth of stubble on his chin and his eyes slid to Monroe. “You again.”