Trusting Nicole (The Last Hangman MC #4)(21)

We don’t get to really enjoy our post orgasm embrace for long as rain starts to pour down on us. Reluctantly, he pulls out and takes off the condom, throwing it in a bin that sits by the lounger. We don’t have time to get dressed before it starts to hail. Jase only has his boxers on when he swoops me up and rushes us inside.

“What a way to end the night.” He chuckles and grabs us towels from the bathroom. He gently wraps me in one and dries me before drying himself.

“That’s for sure.” I smile and get in bed, not sure if he’ll want to join me, but I’m too tired and relaxed to care.

“Move over.” He slaps my ass as I’m lying face down in the middle of the bed.

“Hey! No spanking.” I glare at him and roll over.

“I remember someone enjoying it rough before.” He smirks and wraps me in his arms.

“That was before.” I cuddle into him, feeling horrible for what we just did, but past the point of caring about what’s right or wrong.

“What changed?”

“I don’t know.” I shrug. I know exactly what changed.

“You’re still a shit liar, but I’ll let you off this time.” He kisses my head and pulls the cover over us.

“Thanks,” I whisper against his chest and close my eyes. I relax in his arms, something I haven’t done in a while. Every time we are together, I feel alive and good, but my thoughts drift to something somber. It doesn’t feel like us being back together, it feels like this is goodbye. We won’t get our happily ever after. We were doomed from the beginning. We’re just torturing ourselves each time we see each other but it seems like neither of us cares about the consequences. We need each other. I just wish we were destined for a happily ever after.





CHAPTER 6




Jason

I can’t believe what just happened, again.

I disgust myself but I wanted it, I needed it.

It wasn’t fair for either of us or to Jenny. Truth is, Nicole and I have known each other for a long time and this isn’t our first time. Do I regret the way we met and wish I could have a do over? Yes. Do I regret anything that’s ever happened between us? No. Even though I was unfaithful to Jenny and her memory, I don’t regret any second I’ve spent in Nicole’s company. She makes me feel. She riles me up, pisses me off, gets me hard in less time than it takes to say it and she makes me feel like a man. I don’t know how she does it, but whenever I’m with her, I’m happy, whether we have sex or not.

Tonight was different though. It felt like we were saying goodbye and that’s the last thing I want. As lame as it’s going to sound, I need her. She’s the light to my darkness and even though I don’t want to taint her with my past, I can’t stay away from her and nor do I want to.

I never feel this good unless I’m with her. No matter what horrible things I’ve done in the past, everything is forgotten when she’s near. What will happen when my past catches up though? It’s already threatening to destroy everything I have, everything I built so hard to make seem perfect. Seem being the keyword.

I feel like my world is on the brink of falling apart and I’m going to lose Nicole for good.

My Kitten.

She has no idea how I feel about her. She knows I like her, she has no idea that she stole my heart years ago, but I can’t have her. I don’t deserve her, not after all the things I’ve done in the past.

I hope none of it will fall back on her.

I’d never be able to forgive myself.

I kiss the crown of her head and watch her sleep peacefully, completely unaware of the danger coming our way.

“You mean the world to me,” I whisper and close my eyes, hoping it’ll be a night with no nightmares.



I wake up and don’t feel Nicole by my side. I groan and look around, making sure last night wasn’t just a very good and vivid dream, but I’m brought back to reality when I feel a pair of soft lips wrap around my cock. I lift the sheets and there she is, on her knees, between my legs, my cock between her soft pink lips, eyes locked on mine.

“Best way to wake up.” I smirk and move the sheets away. She doesn’t say a word as she takes me in her mouth, making me shudder in pleasure as I hit the back of her throat. She’s going to be the death of me. Death by orgasm, there’s no sweeter death than that. I push her beautiful dark hair away from her face and prop myself up on a pillow, wanting to watch one of the most beautiful sights ever. The lips of the woman who owns my heart sucking me off. Her hair’s a mess, she doesn’t have a speck of make up on and yet, she’s the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen. You dickhead! Your wife only died a month ago! My conscience keeps screaming at me every chance it gets but I push those thoughts away and smile at Nicole. I moan as she licks the underside of my cock slowly, no doubt to make me pay for all those times I teased her. She smirks at me and starts jerking me off at a good pace and leans down, capturing my balls in the warmth of her mouth, making me jerk my hips.

“If you keep doing this I’m not going to last, Kitten.”

“Who says I want you to last?” She smirks at me, full of confidence.

“What about you?”

“All in due time, Officer Sanders.” She bites her lip, trying to pull off looking innocent, but it’s not working for her.