The Drake Unwound Complete Collection (The Drake Series Book 9)(72)

She nodded, and I could tell by the expression on her face that she was finally taking this seriously.

"Yes," she said, her voice breaking a bit. "I'm so sorry I didn’t tell you right away. None of this had to happen."

"You didn't tell me for a reason,” I said, knowing it was because I failed to make sure she trusted me enough. “You don't trust me to handle the truth and so you hid it from me. Kate, I would have been jealous. I would have been upset that you saw that video of me with Sunita. I would have been upset about what Maureen said. Eventually, I would have accepted it and dealt with it, but not until I f*cked you hard and fast and made you come a few times."

Still blindfolded, she couldn’t see so instead, she ran her fingers over my face and stroked my cheek. "I liked it when you f*cked me hard and fast."

I kissed her neck. "You did, didn't you?"

"I did. I could have come very easily, if you’d let me."

"I had to do something to punish you. I figured since you liked the erotic spanking, I'd have to deny you a second orgasm."

"You're so mean," she said in mock anger. "It didn't hurt. It seemed to make the whole area like on big erogenous zone."

"That's the purpose of an erotic spanking. The nerves in your ass are deep under a layer of fat and it takes an erotic spanking to stimulate them. They're so close to the nerves in your * and clit that the whole area becomes stimulated when it's spanked. Plus, I love watching your nice round ass jiggle. A woman's ass is so desirable. Delicious. If a woman's body, if her belly and ass are too lean and muscular, it's more like a man's body. I like a womanly ass with a bit of jiggle in it. Makes me hard, in case you didn't notice."

"I noticed," she said, grinning.

"Vive la différence, I always say. You're petite and luscious." I kissed her again, smiling against her mouth.

"Are you ever going to take off my blindfold?" she said.

"I don't know. I might keep you in bed all night and day with that on, doing all kinds of things to your body that you can't see and can only feel."

"Mmm," she murmured, smiling. "That sounds very hot."

"It does, does it? Have I created a monster in you, Ms. Bennet? An insatiable sex goddess?"

"Insatiable sex goddess," she said, grinning. She reached out and felt my face, slipping her hands behind my head, pulling me down for another deep kiss.

Finally, I pulled the blindfold off and leaned over her.

"Kate," I said, doing my best to keep my voice soft. "I don't want another night like tonight. I can't handle it. You have to follow the rules of the agreement. I'm going to have to be stricter with you, until you do so without thinking. It's not just for your sake, but for mine. If I'm going to control you, I have to control myself. If you're going to submit, you have to trust me completely. Only then will you be truly happy."

"I will," she said, her voice breaking from emotion. "I don't want another night like tonight either. I can't handle it." She pushed a hank of hair behind my ear, and stared into my eyes. "I will follow the rules," she said. "I didn't think you wanted to, because you never really have been very dominant with me. I thought you wanted a relationship with me that was more than D/s and sex."


"I do," I said and stroked her cheek. "But I've been single, for all intents and purposes, for five years. The only relationships I've had with women have been purely D/s. No emotion." I hesitated, not wanting to say too much. "But with you…" I inhaled deeply, my gaze moving over her face. "If I'm going to let you in, I have to trust you. That means you tell me everything when it comes to sex. That means when ex-boyfriends hit on you at fundraisers, you tell me right away. Will you accept that completely?"

She looked in my eyes, her brow furrowed as if she were considering.

"No."

"No?" A shock went through me.

She shook her head. "I want to amend our agreement."

I pulled back a bit, wary now that she still hadn’t understood. "What do you mean?"

"I want," she said and ran a finger along my jaw. "I want the option to get f*cked first thing in the morning occasionally, when I need it and when you can spare the time."

I leaned down to her, relieved. "Consider it done."

I pulled her into my arms and kissed her again, so glad that it was the only amendment to the agreement. We lay together in the darkness, the moonlight flooding in from the window.





CHAPTER FOUR





I was awake early the next morning, feeling invigorated after our night of confessions. After I was finished with my shower, I started to brush my teeth. I went into the bedroom where Kate lay under the covers, a toothbrush still in my mouth.

"I'll be gone all morning," I said around the toothpaste foam. "I have an appointment with the oncologist and then a lunch meeting. I've got things to do at the office. Won't see you until later."

Kate sighed. "I've got to finish the canvas so I'll probably spend the day there and come back here when I'm done."

"I'm glad you're painting," I said and stood regarding her, wishing I had more time and could crawl back under the covers. "If the oncologist says Liam's in the clear, we're free to go to Africa but I'll have to wrap up my work on the board and at the Foundation."