Teaching Aleck (The Last Hangman MC #2)(52)
“I really hope you don’t relapse, but that wouldn’t make me stop loving you. I’d kick your ass for sure, but it’d take a lot more to make me stop loving you Aleck. When are you going to understand that?”
“Why?”
“Not again!” I can’t help but chuckle.
“Was I the reason you never dated in high school?”
“Not really, well, not at first. No one ever sparked any interest until I met you, to be honest.” I shrug.
“Bunch of losers, not knowing what they were missing,” he mutters.
“I don’t care that I never dated in high school. I do regret meeting my first boyfriend. Thinking back on it, he was such a f*cking douchebag.”
He chuckles. “I don’t think I ever heard you swear this much, Gorgeous.”
“Totally blaming it on you.” I shrug.
“You’re so going to pay for that one.” He chuckles and pinches my ass.
I yelp. “Motherf*cker! Why did you do that for?” I rub my bruised cheek.
“I’m sure you’re enjoying it. I did hear you enjoying a bit of rough love earlier anyway.”
“Fair enough.” I cross my arms over my chest and his gaze follow. “Eyes are up here, Aleck.” I raise my eyebrow when he looks up at me sheepishly.
“Not even sorry. Why did you end things with Brian anyway?”
“It wasn’t right anymore, if it ever was. He was always complaining and wanting to have sex and I just wasn’t in the mood. He was also having difficulties with us being friends. He was really sweet in the beginning, but slowly he started to show his true colors, and I realized I couldn’t stand him anymore. We were talking on the phone the other day and he was complaining about me not paying attention to him, going on and on and I just couldn’t stand it anymore, so I ended things with him.” I shrug.
“When was that?”
“Couple of days ago why?”
“Just thinking about all that’s been going on and the threat notes and everything. I’m just worried for you. I don’t want someone hurting you because of the club.”
I stroke his cheek and kiss him softly. “I’m alright, the f*cker who’s going to mess with me isn’t born yet. I’m not going to let some dickhead mess with my life because they have a grudge against you or the club. It’s pissing me off more than scaring me.”
“You’re amazing,” he whispers against my lips.
“You’re only noticing now?” I raise my eyebrow.
He chuckles. “Of course not, you’ve always been amazing. I’m still shocked that you would want someone as damaged as me. I’ve been addicted to drugs and have killed people, Line. Not one or two, I’ve killed more than I can count.”
“Do you regret killing any of them?” I ask softly.
“Yeah, the very first guy, I can’t go into details, but he was innocent and it’s still messing with my head. The other guys were all the bad people, so I have no regrets about them, but the last deaths I added to my count were yesterday.”
“I’m not trying to come up with excuses for you, but I’m sure you had a reason to use your gun, I don’t know if it was in self-defense or planned, but I can’t change the way things are. Sure, it sucks that you’ve had to take lives and will probably do it again without regrets, but better them than you.” I shrug and he looks at me with a serious expression on his face. “What?”
“What did I ever do to deserve you?” he says softly.
“You’re a good man Aleck, whether you believe it or not, you are.”
“I’m not. I’m f*cked up and have done bad things in my life. Your life is already complicated and tainted because of the club, I don’t want to make it worse, yet I can’t stay away from you anymore.”
“How about you let me be the judge of that. Seriously, stop making decisions for me. I’m a grown woman. I know what I can handle, and you, Aleck Sanford, I can definitely handle, so shut up, grow some balls and kiss me!” I don’t have to wait long for him, boy can he kiss. This is the be-all-end-all kiss. I don’t think any other man could ever kiss me like Aleck. He’s giving me all the love and passion he can’t express in words in this kiss, and it’s rocking my world.
He cups the back of my head and gently bites my lower lip, making me moan in pleasure. He lies me down on top of the table, spreading my legs and positioning himself between them. I rest on my elbows watching him try to keep control. I want him to lose control, but I also want to wait and enjoy this. I’m afraid that once we have sex, it won’t be the same anymore. I love Aleck, there’s no doubt about it, but I’m scared of losing him.
He smirks at me and pushes my shorts to the side, brushing his fingers along my slit. I moan in pleasure, arching my back. He leans over me and gently bites my nipple through my shirt. “You’re killing me, Line,” he whispers before torturing my other nipple. All coherent thoughts left my mind the moment he touched me.
He gently slides two fingers inside me, taking his time to torture me. I swear he’s trying to kill me with this sweet torture! I try to unzip his pants, but he stops me. I look at him confused. “It’s all about you today, Charline.” As if to prove his point, he starts to pick up the pace and rubs circles on my clit with his thumb. I moan his name as I grind onto his hand. I don’t care if we are outside, if Ayden and Ant are home and can see us or hear us. All I know is that I’ve never felt this good, ever.