Teaching Aleck (The Last Hangman MC #2)(50)
“I rushed her to the hospital and they took her in, but left me by myself for hours. When they finally came to get me, they told me Emma didn’t make it. I wasn’t sure how to react, to be honest. Sure, I was sad, I never wanted her to die, but I wasn’t heartbroken and, as bad as it sounds, I still wasn’t sure about my kid’s fate at that point.
“They took me to see her, she was tiny and hooked to a couple of tubes. I spent most of my time in the hospital with her. I had to wait a couple of weeks before I could properly hold her, but when I could; I finally felt like a father and I never wanted to give her to anyone. She was mine and I’d protect her forever, I’d happily give my life for her. She is my little bundle of joy. Besides being born early, she was pretty healthy, they did keep her in hospital for a couple of weeks just to be sure she would develop properly.
“When she was released, I didn’t have the first clue of what to do. I was on my own, having to take care of a kid and I had absolutely no idea what to do. I’m so grateful when Ant found out and talked to Cabe. He helped me out so much, from showing me how to properly take care of her, to how I should change her diaper and lay her down, feed her and everything in between. He gave me Ayden’s baby stuff, her crib and clothes; I was so thankful for the help, both for the material things and more importantly how to best take care of her.
“I called Rose, my old nanny and asked her if she would still be up to take care of a kid and she agreed instantly. I’ll forever be grateful to her. She raised me and now she’s helping me raise Ally. I named her after my sister’s middle name and her second name is her mother’s name.” I sigh rubbing my face and wait for Line to say something, but she stays quiet. I look up and I see that she has tears streaming down her face. “I didn’t want to make you cry, Gorgeous,” I say softly as I get up and wrap my arms around her.
“I’m a softie inside.” She giggles softly and squeezes me tightly. “I’m sorry you had to go through so much heartache. I wish I could have been there for you,” she says softly.
“I don’t deserve you,” I whisper against her forehead.
“Cut the bullshit, Sanford. The fact that you have an adorable daughter or that your past isn’t picture perfect aren’t going to make me run away. You’re a DILF.” I look at her confused and she bursts out laughing.
“What the f*ck is a DILF?”
“Dad I’d like to f*ck?” She grins innocently.
“Fuck. Me,” I groan. “You do know how to bring a man to his knees, don’t you.”
“Only you.” She kisses my head and goes to the kitchen to refill her coffee and she brings me a beer. She knows me too well.
“Thanks, Love.”
“You’re welcome.” She grins at me and takes a long sip of coffee. “Did you really think I wouldn’t want you anymore knowing Ally’s story?”
“Yes and no. I mean it’s not like I was the most loving boyfriend when I was with Emma.”
“She seemed troubled too. I obviously wasn’t there when it happened and didn’t see how you and Emma were together, but a relationship goes both ways, not all the blame can be put on you.” She shrugs.
“You might be right.”
“I know I am.” She smirks and takes a bite of another donut. “Anyway, you said yes and no, what’s the no part?”
I sigh and rub my face before taking a long pull from my beer. “It’s not all. I’ve done some really bad stuff for the club and outside of the club too.”
“I know you’re not a saint, Aleck. I don’t know exactly what you did, but I have a pretty good idea.”
“What do you think I did?” I’d rather hear it from her than have to tell her everything.
“You most likely used women for sex, have done drugs, killed someone, I’m not sure really, but those are the three that pop into my mind.”
“You say it like it’s no big deal.”
“I can’t control or change your past and what you did. For the women, well I hope you were using protection, for the drugs that you are clean now. As for the killing part, there’s nothing I can do about it. In a way, I wish I could erase everything, but then you wouldn’t be the way you are today. Sure, you can be a bit of an *, not gonna lie, but as I said, club Aleck and normal life Aleck are two different people.”
“You amaze me a bit more every day.”
“Why? Because I’m not kicking you out because you did some stupid shit and probably are still doing some of them. Sure, it can be surprising, but I love you the way you are, you keep saying how I need a prim and proper guy, but that’s not what I want. I. Want. You.”
“Why? Why after all those years do you still want me?”
“Because my heart is stubborn.” She gets up, I can see she’s getting frustrated. “It fell in love with you years ago and never stopped, even when you were being a douchebag and rejecting me. I don’t have much experience, I’ve only had two boyfriends, but my heart knows what it wants. I’m stubborn and have a much stronger character and temper then you give me credit for. I need a guy like you who can handle a bit of a temper, not someone who won’t say shit when I’m being a bitch. I don’t need someone to baby me. I just want someone to love and care for me the way I love and care for them. I want a partner in crime, a lover, a fighter, a great man who knows what they want in life and, to me, that’s you,” she finishes and is nearly breathless. I don’t think twice. I stand up, take the two steps to her and capture her mouth in a passionate kiss.