Point of Retreat(70)
“Will?” Kel says.
“Yeah?” I reply. I’m too tired to even look at him. I can’t even keep my eyes open.
“What’ll happen to me? If….she can’t take care of me? Where will I go?”
I manage to open my eyes and look at him. As soon as we make eye contact, he starts crying. I lean over and wrap my arms around him and put his head against my chest. “You aren’t going anywhere, Kel. We’re in this together. You and me.” I pull back and look him in the eyes. “I mean it. No matter what happens…”
Friday, January 27th, 2012
Kel,
I don’t know what’s about to happen in our lives. I wish I did. God, I wish I did.
I was lucky enough to be nineteen when I lost my parents; you were only nine. That’s a lot of growing up left to do for a little boy without a dad.
But whatever happens…whichever road we have to take when we leave this hospital...we’re taking it together.
I’ll do my best to help you finish growing up with the closest thing to a dad you can have. I’ll do my absolute best.
I don’t know what’s about to happen in our lives. I wish I did. God, I wish I did.
But whatever happens, I’ll love you. I can promise you that.
Chapter Fifteen
“Will.”
I try to open my eyes, but only one of them opens. I’m in the floor again. I close my eye before my entire head explodes.
“Will, wake up.”
I sit up and run my hands along the chairs next to me, pulling myself into one by the arm. I still can’t open my other eye. I shield the fluorescent lights with my hands and turn my head toward the voice.
“Will, I need you to listen to me.”
I finally recognize the voice as Sherry. “I’m listening,” I whisper. It feels like if I spoke in any louder of a tone, it would be too painful. My whole head hurts. I bring my hand to the bandage over my eye, then to my eye. It’s swollen. No wonder I can’t open it.
“I’m having the nurse bring you some medicine. You need to eat something. They aren’t keeping Kiersten so we’re going home soon. I’ll be back for Kel after I get her into the car. I’ll bring him back up here during the day, I just think he needs some rest. Is there anything you need from your house? Besides a change of clothes?”
I shake my head. It hurts less than actually speaking.
“Okay. Call me if you think of anything.”
“Sherry,” I say just as she exits. When I say her name, I realize nothing audible even comes out of my mouth. “Sherry!” I say louder. When I say it, I wince. Why does my head hurt so bad?
She comes back to the door.
“There’s a vase in my cabinet. Above the fridge. I need it.”
She acknowledges what I said with a nod and turns to leave again.
“Kel,” I say, shaking him awake. “I’m going to get something to drink. Do you want anything?”
He nods. “Coffee.”
He must not be a morning person…just like his sister. When I pass the nurses’ station, one of the nurse’s calls my name. I back step and she holds out her hand. “These will help your head,” she says. “Your mother said you needed them.”
I laugh. My mother. I pop the pills into my mouth and swallow them and head to find coffee. The double doors in the lobby open as I pass them, sending a swarm of cold air around me. I stop and look outside, then decide some fresh air might do me some good. I take seat on a bench under the awning. Everything’s so white. The snow is still falling. I wonder how bad our driveways will be by the time we get back home?
I don’t know how it happens; how the thought even creeps its way into my head…but for a second I wonder what would happen to everything in Lake’s house if she dies. She doesn’t have any family to finalize anything for her. To finalize her banks accounts, her bills, her insurance, her possessions. We aren’t related and Kel’s only eleven. Would they even let me do that for her? Would I even legally be allowed? Am I even legally allowed to keep Kel? As soon as the thoughts register in my mind, I force them back. It’s pointless thinking like this, because it isn’t going to happen. I get pissed at myself for letting my mind get carried away, so I head back inside to get the coffee.