Overtime(119)

Jordie knew very well who those people were, and his mother was not on that list. When his phone sounded with an email, he looked down to see that it was from her. It was the reservation information for dinner. With no “I love yous,” “can’t wait to see you,” or “see you soon.” Nothing, just the restaurant and the time. Soon his heart picked up in speed and his throat started to close. He knew what he had to do. He felt it, knew the words he needed to say, but still, like a child, he wanted her love.

“She won’t ever love you though,” Benji said, and Jordie hadn’t realized he had said what he was thinking out loud. “She’ll continue to hurt you, until you start hurting other people and you’re all alone. Then I’ll read about you in the news, offing yourself. So really, you need to decide what’s more important: her love, or the love of all the people that help lift you up?”

Before he could answer, Benji nodded. “The love of the people that lift you up: Kacey, Karson, just to name a few.”

“Exactly,” Jordie agreed just as his phone rang. Looking down, he saw Kacey’s smiling face and he smiled back before saying, “My girl is calling. Give me a few.”

As he answered, Benji nodded before reaching for the remote and Jordie said, “Hey, there.”

Kacey looked back at him, her hair wet and her face red like she had been crying. “Hey, you crying?”

She shook her head. “No, new face cream, my face is on fire. What are you doing?”

“Talking with Benji. Oh, and my mom emailed me the reservations for dinner.”

She made a face as her lip went between her teeth. “Are we going?”

He smiled; he loved that she automatically assumed she was going. He wanted her to go, to be there for him, but maybe he should do it alone. “Maybe I should go alone?”

She shook her head. “I really want to go. So if she says something stupid I can kick her.”

“I like her,” Benji said and Jordie grinned.

“She’s a violent little thing,” he joked and Kacey rolled her eyes. “I want you there, baby.”

“Then I’m there. Are you sure though? Can’t you just call her and tell her to f*ck off?”

He shook his head. “No, I need to go and do it in person.”

She slowly nodded her head. “Okay, we’ll go.”

“Thanks, babe.”

“Always,” she said slowly, looking down and sucking in a deep breath.

He eyed her, and he knew something seemed off. “You sure you are okay?”

She nodded, looking back up at him. “Just really tired and I miss you.”

“I miss you more,” he promised, holding the phone closer. “Show me some boob.”

“Jordie!” she scolded and he laughed as she fought her grin. When she pulled her shirt up suddenly, both her tits on the screen, he slowly nodded his head.

“Mm, can’t wait to get home.”

“Me either,” she said, her eyes watering up, and that surprised him.

“You’re being weird.”

“I don’t like being away from you,” she said as a tear slowly fell. “Are you okay?”

He nodded. “I’m fine.”

“Going to your AA meetings?”

“I went to one yesterday, and I’ll go again tomorrow. Might make Benji go with me. Roommate bonding and shit,” he said and Benji nodded as Kacey smiled.

“Good, the email didn’t bother you too much, did it?”

He shrugged. “Kinda, but nothing I can’t handle.”

She worked her lip, letting out a long breath. “Okay, well, call me if you need me. I’m dead on my feet.”

He nodded. “Okay, baby, I’ll call you in the morning. I’m gonna finish my dinner and start Game of Thrones with Benji.”

She grinned. “Sounds like fun, talk to you tomorrow then.”

“Love you.”

“Love you more,” she said, and she waved before the screen went black and she was gone. Something really did seem off, but he wasn’t sure what it was. It was hard to push for info when they were so far apart. He was ready to get home, but he still had five days before he would be able to.

“You’re lucky to have her,” Benji said from his bed, pausing the TV.

“I know,” Jordie agreed.

“And she obviously loves you,” he said slowly and Jordie nodded.

“Yeah, she does, as do I.”

“Then don’t let your mom f*ck it up,” he said sternly. “Let her go because she will ruin you, dude.”

“It’s harder than it sounds,” he said slowly, but Benji shook his head.

“It’s not. Look deep inside of you, and if you can write down three reasons why you need to keep her, then do it. But if you can’t, then let her go,” he said before opening the drawer in the side table and grabbing a pen and paper. Throwing them to Jordie, he said, “And if you can find three reasons to keep her, make a list of the things that need to change, and then give them to her. If she can’t change them, let her go.”

Jordie looked down at the piece of paper and then back at Benji. “Seriously?”

He nodded. “I have so many lists that I make for every person I form a relationship with. It’s something Richie taught me, and it’s worked for me.”