Loving Mr. Daniels(78)

He declined that offer, telling me that California was all I ever wanted, it was my dream. I moved over to him and brushed my fingers against his cheeks. My hands wrapped around his neck and I pulled his mouth to mine, kissing him hard, feeling his tears hit my lips.
“I know.” I swallowed hard. “Don’t ask me to be the reason you give up everything.”
“How am I supposed to keep going? Without seeing you every day? Without you?”
My hands landed on his chest. “Start slow,” I said. “Maybe we were just meant to get each other through the darkness.”
“I don’t believe that,” he argued.
I frowned. “It was Jake Kenn. You’ll have to talk to him. I can’t be the reason you lose everything you worked so hard to get.”
He chuckled nervously. “I’ve lost worse.”
My footsteps away from Daniel were the most painful steps I’d ever taken. The walls were whispering to me, mocking me with the debilitating truths of Daniel’s and my fate. There were so many times I wanted to turn back to him and take back my words. But I knew I’d made the right decision.
Because if it were the wrong decision, my heart wouldn’t hurt this much.






Don’t say goodbye.
~ Romeo’s Quest


Walking back into the cafeteria, I gasped when I saw Hailey sitting with Jake at our table talking. I rushed over and hugged Hailey tightly. “I thought you weren’t coming back this week!”
She smiled. “Gotta start back sometime.”
Daniel returned to the cafeteria and walked over to our table. “Jake, can I talk to you for a minute in my classroom?”
Jake narrowed his eyes on Mr. Daniels and huffed, “No thanks.”
I cringed at his reaction and moved over to Jake. I placed my mouth near his ear and sighed. “Please, Jake? For me?”
He frowned and shook his head back and forth. He didn’t say a word. He just stood up and followed Daniel out of the room.
Hailey and I sat back down at the table. “Remember in the beginning of the year when I said I’d never seen two people love each other so quietly? About Ryan and Avery?” Hailey asked. I nodded. Her eyes moved toward Daniel, who was walking away. “I stand corrected.”
I leaned in toward her. “Jake told you?” She nodded. I started to explain the complete situation but she cut me off.
“You don’t have to explain anything to me, Ashlyn.” Her eyes watered over and she shrugged. “Friends stick together no matter what. And I told Jake to shut his big mouth and keep it to himself.”
I grimaced. “Yeah, well, I don’t think he has plans to do that.”
“If he cares for you the way Mr. Daniels cares for you, then he’ll shut up.”
It felt like forever since Daniel and Jake had left the cafeteria. And they didn’t return before the lunch period was over. I rushed toward Daniel’s classroom, my heart pounding out of my chest, fear almost eating me up. His door was closed, so I waited across from it as students walked past me, moving on with their lives. But I stayed still.
The door opened and Jake walked out first. I hiccupped when I saw him and rushed to his side. He looked befuddled and walked in a slow pace.
“Jake? Talk to me, please. What happened?”
He looked up to me, his eyes heavy with emotion, and he shrugged. “I think I just fell in love with Mr. Daniels.”
I laughed when I saw him smirk. “Yeah, it has a way of sneaking up on you.”
His brows fell. “You’re really leaving? Going back to Chicago?”
I nodded.
“Look, it’s not because of me saying I would make him pay was it? Because I didn’t know—” He paused. “I didn’t know another human being could care about someone as much as he does you.”
“It’s not because of you, Jake. It’s just life. Life is happening, and I’m allowing myself to happen right along with it.”
“I’ll watch after her,” he promised. “Hailey. I’ll sit with her every day. She won’t eat lunch alone.”
“Thank you, Jake.” I kissed his cheek.
“You’re welcome, Ashlyn.” He put the stress on my name. And I kissed his cheek again.






We burned together.
We burned for fun.
We burned in front of everyone.
We were the stars.
~ Romeo’s Quest


It was the night before she was heading back to Chicago. After school tomorrow, Ashlyn would be on a train leaving town. I stood near the dock with Gabby’s guitar, staring at the frozen water, my hands jammed into my jeans. Randy had been out to check on me a few times, but I’d told him I would be all right. I had to be. She would hate if I was anything but okay.
The gloom of winter dwelled on everything. I could see it in every breath I took. The music and mystery of the lake was silenced by ice. But the music in her delicate voice sang to me.
“Hey,” Ashlyn whispered, walking behind me. Henry had let her borrow his car to say goodbye to a few people. She’d said that she was only using it to come see me. Her eyelids were hooded. She hadn’t slept a wink last night either.
“Hey,” I smiled, turning her way. She had a box in her hands. My eyes shifted to the small bonfire I’d started up at the request of her. I laughed, “Man, you look hideous. So f*cking ugly.”
She smiled wide. “Romancing—you’re doing it right.”
“This sucks,” I sighed, rubbing the back of my neck.
“I know…” We walked over to the fire and she opened the box. “Are you ready?”