It's All Relative(103)

Jessie rested the heel of her hand on her own body. Still holding him tight, she stopped stroking. Kai stilled his hand as well, leaving his fingers inside of her. Pulling back to stare at each other, they kept their hands still and only rocked their hips, like they were making love. Jessie imagined the stiff fingers moving inside her were the thickness she held in her hand; she rocked against his fingers harder. Kai groaned and rocked against her hand harder. They were perfectly in sync now, having sex, without technically having sex. Jessie closed her eyes, and let the fantasy consume her.

As they thrust against each other’s body, Jessie felt the buildup quickly coming. Clenching him tight, she leaned in to find his lips. As the apex approached, she started moaning uncontrollably. It was incredible, her imagination was only adding to the sensation. She was so close…almost there. God, yes…don’t stop.

Speeding up her hips, she hungrily attacked his mouth. Kai groaned as he sped up his movements as well. Still in perfect synch, she felt the beginning of the wave rushing up on her. Dropping her head back, she loudly cried out as it inched ever closer. Her hand automatically tightened on his throbbing mass between her fingers as she prepared for the release. Watching her, Kai panted in her ear, “I want to come with you. I can’t…it’s not enough…”

Not thinking about anything but sharing the explosion with him, Jessie twisted onto her back. Removing his hand from inside her, she led him right to the spot where she needed him the most. He slipped inside her effortlessly, not even breaking his rhythm, like he’d always been there. His body tensed as she enveloped him. “No, wait, I shouldn’t… Oh God…yes…”

Kai began thrusting in her in earnest, holding nothing back. Jessie, already so very, very close, immediately started to come. Grabbing his hips, she pushed hers up to meet him, prolonging the burst of euphoria in her body. She cried out repeatedly as the waves swept her away.

He dropped his head to her shoulder as he panted in her ear. “I’m so close…God I want to so bad.” With a groan, he started to stiffen like he was about to climax, too. He slowed and started shaking his head. “I shouldn’t come in you…I should pull out.”

Kai started to remove himself from her and Jessie, still carried away on the best high she’d ever had, pulled against his hips, slamming him back inside of her. Being right on the edge, he immediately cried out, “I can’t stop…oh God, yes…”

He grunted and groaned as his orgasm overtook him. Jessie felt the warmth spread through her, and at that moment it only amplified her joy; she felt complete. His body rocked against hers for a few long strokes as they both rode out the bliss. After a few residual groans and pants, they both slumped against each other, spent and satisfied.

But after the high completely faded, a darker feeling instantly seeped inside Jessie. She’d just had sex with her cousin…again. But this time they’d known they were related, and they’d done it anyway. Pulling out, Kai rolled over and stared at the ceiling. His breathing was still fast, but other than that, he was completely silent.

Jessie didn’t know what to say, what to do, or how to feel. She stared at the ceiling with him, as small tears fell from the corner of her eyes. Why did the best, most intense connection she’d ever had with anyone, have to be with him? Why couldn’t she stop having feelings for him? Things would be so much easier, if she wasn’t in love with him.

She closed her eyes after finally admitting that to herself. She was in love him, and not just in the familial way. Needing to process this new information alone, she slowly stood up. Kai sat up on his elbows as she moved away from him. “Where are you going?” he quietly asked.

Wiping the tears off her face, she shook her head. “I just need to go for a walk…get some air.”

He nodded and looked away. His face mirrored all of the horror, remorse, and conflict that hers did, and Jessie wondered if he loved her too. For his sake, she hoped he didn’t. As quickly as she could, she grabbed some clothes that she could wear in the main lobby. Sitting up now, Kai kept his eyes on the floor. He either wasn’t able to look at her anymore, or he was giving her privacy.

Once she was cleaned up and dressed, Jessie went to their door. Pausing, she glanced back at him still on the floor in front of the fire, completely naked and completely beautiful. Knowing she wasn’t returning until the morning, she whispered, “Goodnight, Kai.”

He finally looked at her, and Jessie was surprised to see tears on his cheeks. “Goodnight, Jessie.” His voice was scratchy, like he was barely containing the emotion warring within him. And she could clearly see the emotion now. He did love her…and it was killing him. It was killing them both.

Closing the door, blocking out the devastating grief on his face, Jessie wondered who it was that had said all the world needed was love? Apparently that person had never been in a situation like hers before. An absence of love was what Jessie needed.





Kai ran his hands down his face, and was surprised to find his cheeks damp. Had that really just happened? Had he really just made love to his cousin, or had he fallen asleep in front of the fire, and all of that had just been some horrible, yet wonderful dream? If his spent body wasn’t telling him that he’d—once again—had the best orgasm of his life, he probably could have convinced himself it was just a fantasy, but he wasn’t so demented that he could delude himself in that way.