Feels Like Summertime(46)

“So do you. You used to always smell like Love’s Baby Soft.”

I laugh. “I did, didn’t I?”

“Yep. Even now, every time I smell that kind of perfume, my dick gets hard.” He chuckles.

I reach over and take his hand. “Is that happening now?”

He groans and adjusts his big body in the seat. “Change of subject.”

I stare hard at him. “I think I’m falling in love with you, Jake,” I say quietly.

He stops breathing. Then he squeezes my hand and says, “Really now...”

“When summer is over, are we going to write a few letters and then forget about one another?”

He shakes his head. “When summer’s over, I’m going where you’re going, if I can’t talk you into going with me.”

My heart goes pitter-patter. “What if I’m really bad in bed?”

“That’s not possible,” he whispers.

“What if I snore really loudly?”

“I’ll buy earplugs.”

“What if I—?”

“Katie,” he argues, “there’s nothing you can do to turn me off right now.”

Hank lets out a cry from the back seat.

“Well, that might work,” he says. He reaches over and starts the truck. “We had better get home.”

I slide over to my spot and buckle back up. I grab his phone and cycle through his songs. He has a whole playlist called “Katie.” “I like this one,” I say as a new one starts. “We listened to this one when we were washing your car one day. You sprayed me with the hose.”

He chuckles. “I could see right through your t-shirt.”

“It all goes back to the boobs, right?” I laugh too, though. “Hey, speaking of your car, will you take me out in it? Or did you leave it in New York?”

He clears his throat. “About that,” he says as he pulls back out onto the road.

“What about it?”

“So my wife is bringing me the car this weekend. She’s driving it down here.”

My gut clenches. “You mean your ex-wife, right?”

“Um…” He scratches his chin. “Not quite yet. We haven’t finalized things yet.”

“You mean to tell me you’re still married?”

“Technically,” he says, as he puts on his turn signal and turns onto his dad’s property.

“Jake,” I say quietly, “you lied to me.”

“No, I didn’t,” he insists.

“You told me the woman in the picture used to be your wife, and she wasn’t anymore.”

“Well, in the practical sense, she’s not.”

“Legally, she is! I can’t believe you lied to me.”

“I didn’t lie.” He stops the truck in the driveway, and I scurry out as fast as I can. Tears are about to betray me, and I want to get away from Jake before the waterworks start.

I take Hank’s car seat out of the back of the truck and run into the house. Dad and Adam both look at me funny.

“What’s wrong?” Adam asks.

“He’s married,” I say quietly, so that my kids won’t hear. They’re watching a movie in the other room.

“Katie, would you listen to me?” Jake says from behind me. But I walk out onto the porch, lift Hank from his carrier, because by now he’s putting up one hell of a fuss, and sit down to nurse him.

“Well, you f*cked that up,” I hear Mr. Jacobson say.

“Oh, be quiet,” Jake grouses.

Jake doesn’t come out to talk to me, and I’m glad of it, because I have no idea how I should be feeling right now. My head is warring with my heart. I want the big prize. I want the happy family and the man who loves me. But Jake still belongs to someone else.





38





Jake





The first time I ever danced with Katie Higgins, we were swaying together by a roaring campfire. Both her parents were there, and my dad was playing his guitar. The fire was so tall that I could barely see over it, and it was so hot it made my shins itch. Most of us sat in lawn chairs, but some people were on overturned buckets and a fallen log that had been dragged over near the flames.

Pop didn’t play often, but when he did, people came from all over the complex to hear him. That night, he’d invited a friend of his from town to come and play as well, and where his voice was so deep it resonated within your soul, hers was as light as air, and she filled in all the cracks he left behind.

Katie jerked her stick back from the fire when her marshmallow went up in flames. She blew frantically to put it out.

“Pass it here, Katie girl,” Pop said. “The burnt ones are my favorite.”

Katie smiled and extended the stick toward him. Instead of peeling the marshmallow off the stick, he grabbed the stick in the middle and bit the whole thing off, sliding it from the stick with his teeth. He hummed and blew out his breath, trying to cool it. “Perfect,” he said, after he swallowed. He wiggled his fingers at her. “Didn’t want to get my fingers sticky. Burn me another one, will you?”

I rolled my eyes and passed Katie another marshmallow. She stabbed it with the stick and leaned toward the fire.