Conviction (Consolation Duet #2)(46)

“I do know.” He lifts Aarabelle in his arms. “I don’t want to fight with you. I came here to see if we could talk.”

My phone rings and it’s Liam’s number.

“I gotta answer,” I explain.

“Liam?”

“Hey, Lee.” He sounds exhausted and worn. “I only have a minute, but I needed to hear your voice.”

“What’s wrong?” Fear starts to course through me. This doesn’t sound like the man I know.

He huffs and something crumples behind him. “Everything. I’m ready to be out of this hellhole. It’s going to be a long deployment, and I’ve never been like this. I’m the guy who’s counting down the f*cking days, Lee. I’m not this guy. I don’t do moody bullshit. The whole damn time I was away, all I did was worry about you. This isn’t normal. I don’t care about being away. It’s money and fun, yet here I sit all pissed off and ready to come the f*ck home.”

“Lee, I need the keys,” Aaron says loudly and I know it is on purpose. I hand him the keys and give him the nastiest look. Asshole.

Liam goes silent and then his voice morphs to anger. “Aaron’s there?”

“Yes, he came to see Aarabelle.”

“But he needs the keys?”

“Don’t make this a fight because you’re looking for one. It wasn’t anything you need to worry about. Our divorce paperwork is submitted, but he’s going to be a part of our lives. You’re pissed off because you’re gone, and I get that, but there’s nothing here.”

“My mind goes crazy. I think about him being there when I’m not. I wonder if he’s telling you how easy it would be with him. I’m going out of my mind, Natalie.”

I wish I could take his worry away, but I know if it were me, I’d be the same. I don’t blame him for it. He’s away and my husband who I loved for more than half my life is here. One who made it abundantly clear he wasn’t going to give up.

I look back as Aaron and Aarabelle enter the house.

“Listen to me,” I say as I walk down by the beach. “You have my heart. You have my soul and you have my body. No one else. You have to trust me and know that I would never betray you. I love you, and you’re not getting rid of me so easily.”

“When I get home, I’m going to show you how much you mean to me. I’m going to marry you, Natalie. I’m going to give you everything I have. Just wait for me.”

“You already give me everything. Now, come home soon.”

Liam disconnects the call. I close my eyes and I rub my stomach. “You’ve given me more than you know.”





“You’re now sixteen weeks,” Dr. Contreras says as she smiles and grips my hand. I’ve been with her from the beginning of my very first failed pregnancy, and she knows more than anyone how I’ve been terrified. Each week, I start to gain a tiny flick of hope this might be okay. “You are still high risk, but right now you’re on track.”

“I keep waiting,” I say aloud.

“Don’t live like that. Everything looks great right now, and you’ve made it through the most trying time.” She walks over and gives my hand a squeeze. “Have faith, Natalie.”

I need to harness my faith that no matter what, I will be okay. I can’t be worried because the stress won’t be good for the baby either. “Can you give me any insight about how this happened? Years I went through hell, and now when I’m not even trying . . . it happens?”

“Sometimes after you have a baby, your body resets itself in a way. Kind of like ‘been there done that.’ Your cycle restarted after Aarabelle, and while you might not have been regular because PCOS doesn’t go away, you were ovulating when you did happen to get pregnant. It’s a good sign.” Dr. Contreras smiles and writes some things in her chart. “I want to see you back in four weeks.”

“Are we doing this like we did with Aarabelle?”

During my pregnancy, I was considered high risk. My visits were more frequent and they monitored me very closely. I also was on a very light lifting ban. We were very careful, and I felt like I should’ve covered myself in bubble wrap.

“Most of it, yes. I don’t want you doing anything strenuous. If you can keep off your feet then do it. I know that’s hard with an eighteen-month-old, but try to take it easy. Do you have help from the father?”

I look away and shake my head, “Aaron has been helping a little with Aarabelle, but he doesn’t know. Liam is deployed, and I can’t tell him while he’s gone.”

She laughs, “I’m sure that’ll be a fun homecoming.”

“It’ll be interesting for sure.”

She pats my hand. “I’m sure you will get everything worked out. We’ll keep you monitored and next appointment will be an ultrasound. It’s all good things, Natalie.”

“I have so much stress right now, between Aaron and Liam, I’m not sure what the hell to do. I’m concerned all of this is going to affect the baby.” This is my worry I battle each day. I’ve been doing so well with keeping myself calm and in check so far though.

Aaron and I get along, but I’m sure that all could change very quickly. Liam will be home soon enough and then the dynamic shifts again. Plus, there will be an even bigger sense of betrayal. Liam was able to get his wife pregnant when he couldn’t.