Conviction (Consolation Duet #2)(36)

“Okay, Robin . . . let’s see why he’s so protective of you,” I say to the car and decide I need therapy.

I look over at the passenger seat and there’s a note with a rose. I smile and try not to break down in tears.



Sweetheart,

You have my heart and now you have my car. Take care of both until I get home.

Love,

Liam



A small laugh escapes me as I start the car. The drive back to my house is a blur. I try to focus on the joy that awaits me. I haven’t seen Aarabelle in seventy-two hours, and I missed her desperately.

I open the door and she looks up. “Mamama!” she calls out and my heart swells with love.

“Hi, baby girl!” I call out and rush toward her. I scoop her in to my arms and nestle her close. “I missed you so much.”

“Hey,” Aaron’s voice is low and gruff. “You okay?”

I turn, wondering if he’s being serious or sarcastic. I decide serious. “I’m okay, thanks.” The small act of kindness means a lot to me. This is the Aaron I always tried to remember.

“The team get off okay?”

“Yeah,” I smile.

Aaron shifts his weight as Aarabelle pushes against me to get down. “Good. I’m glad.” He looks away awkwardly, and my chest hurts. This is hard for him, and I wish it didn’t have to be. It’s hard for me too if I’m being honest.

None of these issues are easy for anyone. It really sucks being an adult.

“How was she?” I ask, looking at her as she runs over to her toys.

He smiles and gazes at her. “She was great. Your parents left about an hour ago. They said they needed to get on the road. She’s amazing, Lee. You did such a good job with her.”

I try to fight the tears, but they come flooding forward. Between Liam’s farewell and then this . . . it’s too much. “I’m sorry,” I say trying to gain control.

Aaron’s arms are around me in a heartbeat. “It’ll be okay,” he comforts me, and I push back gently.

“Aaron,” I pause, “You don’t have to comfort me. This isn’t fair to you. I’m so sorry.”

I shouldn’t be crying in his arms. I won’t be that girl. This is no place for the weak. My emotions need to be better managed.

“I did a lot of thinking this weekend,” Aaron says as we move toward the couch. Aarabelle lifts her block and then shows me the other ones.

“Yeah?” I ask, watching my daughter in admiration.

“I realized how bad I f*cked up. Lying to you, cheating on you, it isn’t the way it was supposed to be.”

This isn’t exactly the conversation I feel like we’ve been having lately. “What are you saying?”

“I’m saying I get it. I sat here this weekend knowing you were with him, and it f*cked with my head. But if I didn’t know and thought you were on some girls’ weekend or something and found out, I’d kill someone.”

I sigh and wish this could’ve waited a little, but it’s the first time I feel he’s being sincerely honest. “The issue was the lies. You lied about Brittany. You lied about the baby, and then you went so far as to tell me it was a one-time thing. That’s not the man I loved. You and I had issues, big issues . . . but they weren’t something we couldn’t have tackled. We didn’t talk though, and it cost us everything.”

Aaron looks at Aara. “She’s the best thing we ever did.”

My lips turn up as I look at the reason for my existence. “Yeah, she is.” My eyes prick in sorrow. “It’s hard for me to know you were willing to throw it all away.” I look over at him and see him nod.

“You and I fought so much. It wasn’t a good time for either of us. Do you remember how much you hated me?”

Both of our guards are down, and we owe each other the honesty. “I didn’t hate you, I just didn’t like you. You were so angry all the time. Everything I did or said turned into an argument. Right now, you love Aarabelle and for that I’m so happy, but when I found out I was pregnant with her . . . you walked out.”

He stares at her and then turns to me. “I wanted her for you. But there was a huge part of me that worried how you’d ever survive the loss of another baby. So the pregnancy was another way I thought I’d lose my wife. And in a small way I didn’t think we deserved her.”

It’s heartbreaking how two people who genuinely loved each other can go so far off track. I had my fault in this. I pushed him away and made everything in our world revolve around getting pregnant. It was the only thing I could focus on most of the time. But I did try to be there with him. I never stopped loving him, and I couldn’t imagine seeking out another person. Aaron isn’t a bad guy, he made bad choices.

“Instead of talking to me though, you sought out another woman?”

“You know how you’re torn apart right now? You probably feel like you’re split in two. I know you love me, Natalie. I see how you want to hate me, but you can’t. We have a child, a life, and memories.” He takes my hand in his.

I look over at Aaron with watery eyes. “I’m begging you, please don’t do this to me today.”


My emotions are everywhere and today . . . I just can’t. It’s a conversation we could have tomorrow or the next day, because today my heart hurts. I miss Liam. I had to see him off, and it’s too much to process this heavy of a discussion.