Borrowing Trouble(47)

Then Landon looked up at him with a gentle, loving grin and kissed Jay’s bare chest while he continued stroking Jay’s cock with one hand, and asked “You’re sure?”

Part of Jay wanted to say no, f*ck no. A million moments in their relationship had changed and rearranged Jay’s life. Even if he never did this particular act again, he felt it’d be as life changing as the first time Landon had blown him, or the first time he’d taken Landon in his mouth, or the first time he’d f*cked Landon.

A twinge of guilt had Jay placing a shaking hand on Landon’s face, palm to cheek. “Landon, I don’t think less of you because I’ve done this to you. The topping bit.”

Landon’s confused expression had Jay pulling him up for a heady kiss, then he finished his thought. “Sorry, me and my talking again. I guess, I just feel like this is big. You know?” Landon’s smirk made Jay roll his eyes in a way that’d make his kids proud. Not the time to think about them. “I just mean this, us doing this for the first time… I feel like it’s going to make me different.”

Landon’s brow furrowed in concern. “Jay, we don’t have to do this.”

“No!” Jay shout out, louder than he’d intended. He placed both hands on Landon’s face, opened his legs wider, and wrapped his calves around Landon’s thighs. And surpisingly, it felt right holding Landon like that, having him there.

“I didn’t mean that, Landon. I just meant… I’ll be different, but not in a bad way. But, for a while maybe, I did worry it would make me less. And I want to apologize because I didn’t really think of you as less. It just made you more…” Jay felt like a jerk. He was f*cking this up and he really didn’t mean it how the words may have sounded.

But Landon, bless him, smiled and chuckled lightly before pecking a kiss to Jay’s lips. “I get it. You thought it made sense because I’m gay. And it made you more gay.”

Jay shrugged and felt his cheeks heat up. Landon hugged him tightly. “Jay, being with a man and wanting a relationship with a man made you not-so-straight. This is just another way to be together. It’s not important that we do this. But I do love you so much for wanting to do it, to give me this.”

“Thank you. And I do. I do want so much to give you this. That’s why I even started with all this crazy talk.”

Landon’s expression grew naughty, but his gaze still held so much love, Jay’s heart felt full to bursting. Landon ground his hard, naked cock into Jay’s. Jay hissed in pleasure. “Anyone ever tell you you think too much?”

“Never,” Jay replied seriously.

“Fair point. Well, it’s not such a bad thing for me that you do that now. But right now, let’s turn off that brain of yours.” Landon sucked in Jay’s bottom lip, nibbling on it, using one of his strong, calloused hands to rub down Jay’s flank to his ass cheek, which he kneaded firmly.

Jay’s heart thumped harder and his cock tingled as Landon’s slid next to it. Landon gave one last lingering kiss before sitting back on his haunches and pushing Jay’s legs up, directing Jay to hold them open wide, gripping under the knees. Landon grabbed one of the extra pillows beside Jay’s head and maneuvered it under Jay’s hips.

“I’ll admit, I’ve never been with a virgin,” Landon started, seemingly unsure. “I want this to be good for us. My first time was with someone who knew what they were doing and it still had its awkward moments, so I can’t promise it won’t hurt or be strange. But I’m going to do some stuff to try to make it less… all of that.”

Jay could only nod as he looked down at Landon, whose hand was running up and down one of Jay’s inner thighs while the other stroked Jay’s cock. Even the tips of Jay’s ears burned, feeling a bit embarrassed as Landon flicked his gaze from Jay’s face, down to his hard cock, and further to his exposed hole. Jay could definitely say this was new, and not wholly comfortable, but the naked yearning in Landon’s eyes had Jay’s cock hard as steel.

Without preamble, Landon bent and sucked Jay’s throbbing cock into his mouth. Jay grunted, canting his hips up a bit, getting a dirty laugh from Landon as he started bobbing his head up and down, sucking Jay’s cock like a master. Jay’s head lolled as he gave over to the feeling.

Landon started playing with Jay’s balls, every once in a while stroking Jay’s spit-slicked shaft. He pulled off, breathing loudly. “Damn, Jay, you always taste so good.”

Jay couldn’t quite form words, but his cock jerked in Landon’s hand, so he figured that was response enough. Landon stroked Jay’s wet cock, leaning up to kiss and nibble on each of Jay’s nipples, which had Jay bucking in Landon’s hands. “Landon, damn. You’re gonna make me lose it.”

Landon stopped and pulled back a bit, eyes roaming over his lover. “You’re so beautiful.”

Jay flushed, this time with pride because the gleam in Landon’s eyes, the way his licked his lips wantonly, said even with Jay’s forming lovehandles and his softer tummy, the man really did want him. The confidence that zapped through Jay, the capital-L love, made him preen.

Landon spit on his hand, which made Jay laugh because it was crude as hell, but sexy in the strangest way, knowing what the man could do with that spit.

Landon rubbed the spit down Jay’s perineum, then the tip of his finger found Jay’s sensitive opening and started rubbing circles around his hole. Jay instinctively pulled his legs wider, eyes bulging as he let out a moan.