Love, Lies, and Deception(33)

Alec’s ragged breaths sounded enticingly erotic in my ear, and when he bit down on my lobe and sucked it greedily it was almost my undoing.

“I can feel you clenching all around me. So tight …”

He reached around me to rub my clit, circling around it. I cried out again and leaned my head back so I could look at him over my shoulder.

“Alec,” I choked out. “I’m so close.”

“That’s right, baby, let it go for me. I want to hear you cry out when I make you come.” He continued his deep rhythm as he pounded inside me.

As my orgasm started to send me over the edge, I grabbed Alec’s hand and moved it to my breast and squeezed. Knowing what I wanted, he took over. I loved it when he touched my breasts. He pinched and rolled my nipple hard while I screamed out my release.

“Alec,” I cried, just as my orgasm heightened.

“Fuck … Marissa!”

After two more hard thrusts, he jerked with his release and collapsed on top of me, sweaty and breathless. My arms gave out underneath me, so I was smashed into the bed with his weight on top of me. My muscles quivered and I couldn’t move.

Alec sure was giving my body a good workout these days. Gently, he pulled out of me and I heard him slide off the condom. I still couldn’t move, so he grabbed me by the shoulder and rolled me over.

“Did I work you out that hard?” he teased.

Testing my arms, I lifted them and winced at the burn in my muscles. I turned to peer into his amused blue gaze. “Well, when we do it every day it can begin to wear on you. Not that I’m complaining or anything. The sex is really nice.”

“Really nice?” he repeated dryly. “How nice of you to say that.”

He pursed his lips and tried to look offended, but failed. I rolled my eyes and gave in. “Okay, fine. The sex is freaking amazing. It’s absolutely the best sex I’ve ever had.”

That had him smiling that delicious smile of his.

Leaning over, Alec took my face in his hands before laying a gentle kiss on my lips. “You are amazing, Marissa. Promise me you’ll still stay with me once I tell you everything.” His eyes were pleading, worried. I’d never really gave much thought to how bad his secrets could actually be.

My face fell, and I couldn’t shake the nervous tremor that racked my body. “Is it really that bad?” I asked.

He shrugged. “It’s hard to say, but all I know is that I don’t want to lose what we have here. It’s the first real relationship I’ve had. I never thought I’d be able to experience it, and now that I have I don’t want to let you go. You’re the light to my endless world of dark.”

In my mind, I felt like I could withstand anything he was about to tell me, but I couldn’t stop the fear from creeping in. I was falling for the guy against my better judgment, but I desperately wanted to keep my heart at a distance. Especially, since I was moving away in a couple of months.

“Why do you look so sad?” he asked nervously.

Biting my lip, I shrugged and released a heavy sigh. “I’m not sad. I just don’t know how far to go with you. The more time we spend together the harder it is to keep my distance. I love the sex, and like I said before it’s amazing, but I was thinking the same as you. I didn’t think it would go as far as it has, and to be honest, I don’t know if I’m prepared for it.”

Alec was taken aback. “After everything that’s happening between us do you still want to distance yourself?”

I’d never felt the amount of passion and lust for someone like I did with Alec. Could it lead to love someday? I was sure it could.

Gazing into his forlorn eyes, I explained, “I’m scared, Alec. What we have is intense and it’s something I’ve never experienced before, but I’m leaving in a couple of months. Falling for you is just going to make it harder for me to go.”

Alec’s saddened and guarded eyes took a complete turn and his lips curled up into a wolfish grin. He caught me off guard by rolling on top of me, and possessed my lips in a brutal kiss. Immediately, I took to him, forgetting everything I just said and let him claim me, falling into a trance.

He growled in my ear. “Well, then… I’m just going to make it harder on you. It’s too late, Marissa. No matter where you go or what you do it’s too late.”

The fire inside me burned hotter, and my heart swelled and opened up another inch. “Too late?” I asked, even though I knew what he was going to say. “Too late for what?”

He caressed both of my cheeks and stared deeply into my eyes. “It’s too late because I’ve already fallen for you, Marissa … hard. It’s too late to go back for me.”

My mind said he was wrong, that it was never too late to turn back, but I had the sinking suspicion my heart was telling me a different story. It was also too late for me.





I left Alec’s to take a quick shower and change into some comfortable clothes. Alec wanted to go hiking later, so I wore a pair of black yoga pants and a green performance tee, except he wanted to have the ‘talk’ with me first before we did anything.

Grabbing my juice and cereal bar, I traipsed down the stairs to his floor. His door was unlocked, so I walked right on in to the delicious aroma of bacon and eggs. Alec smiled when I walked in, but scowled at what I had in my hands.