Avoiding Commitment (Avoiding #1)(92)

"Clark found out, and Jack wasn't going to tell you. I thought it was right to let you know."

"I just never thought he would do this."

Lexi rolled her eyes. Of course, he would do this. Then again, he probably didn't reveal this side of himself too many people. Lexi had just happened to be on the wrong end of this scenario twice already.

"I mean, I'm a virgin."

"What?" Lexi squeaked. She steadied herself on the molding to the front entrance. "You're a what?"

"I just thought that if it was one time he would get it out of his system since we don't sleep together. We do everything else, but we don't have sex. I didn't think it was that big of deal, but this…this is different."

Lexi couldn't do anything more than just stare at her. She's a virgin. Jack had never mentioned that. Not once. The look a despair that passed over Kate seeped into Lexi. How had she done this? It was a question she couldn't help repeating to herself. She had slept with Jack and Kate hadn't. Jack and Kate had been together for years and never slept together. Lexi just couldn't process that information. Jack had no self-restraint. He was completely incapable of it around her. Just like she had no control around her. How was he able to go years without sleeping with Kate?

"Just get out," Kate said. "I can't stand looking at you. You took something that wasn't yours, and you don't even seem remorseful. If I ever set eyes on you again it will be too soon."

With that Lexi pulled the front door open and rushed out of the house to her car. She was so lost in what had just happened that she hadn't even noticed the very familiar Maxda 3 pulling into the driveway. She tried to dart into her car before he would notice her, but she wasn't quick enough. Jack hopped out of his car and sprinted to her side.

"What are you doing here?" he asked venomously.

"She is a virgin," was the only thing Lexi could get out at the sight of him.

"Oh God," he said running his hands through his hair. "What did you do?"

"She is a virgin."

"Lexi," he yelled grabbing her by the shoulders. "What did you do?"

Tears began to form in her eyes again as she looked up at the handsome face. "Why?"

"I came here to tell her."

"Why?"

"So we could be together."

"You didn't want to be with me," she said feeling her weight sinking in his grasp.

"Lexi, I've wanted to tell you for so long."

"That she's a virgin."

"No. That I love you."

Lexi's head snapped up. "You what?"

"You've known that for a long time. You say it to me all the time with your eyes. I came here to straighten things out with Kate. To make things right for us."

"Did you say you love me?"

"Lexi you know I do."

"No, no I don't," she said pulling herself away from him and slamming into her car door.

"You're just lying to me."

"I'd never lie to you again. I've told you that so many times. Just let me straighten things out so we can work this out."

"I don't want to work it out," she said numbly staring at him. She was still shell shocked and saying the first thing that came to her mind. How could he say those things to her? After everything he said only a couple hours ago about wanting to be with Kate, and having no desire to let her know about what happened, how did he expect her to react? Did he think she was just going to roll over for him? She had made a decision in that coffee shop with Clark and she was going to stick by it. He couldn't just come in here with his sweet talk and think everything would just go back to normal. He wanted her now, maybe, but that wasn't good enough. He had to want her all the time. He had to need her. He had to put her first. If he loved her, that's what he would have done from the beginning. But Jack had never put anyone first in his life. "I want to be with Clark. He wants to take me back."

The look on Jack's face hurt more than Lexi ever thought would be possible. "Fine. Go be miserable with your little lap dog. Forget what I said. Just forget it," he said turning away from her pushing aside the lone tear that had managed to seep out of his eye. "Forget it all."

But she would never forget.

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K.A. Linde

Interview with the Mistress Pt II

Lying here on the couch

With my heart in my mouth

I realize you were right, I was wrong and

I'm in pieces and bits but that's nothing you can't fix

Cause baby you're still my addiction

- O-Town "Craving"

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Chapter 15: Present

Finding a town car pull up in front of Ramsey's place the next morning with breakfast and coffee wasn't exactly the type of hospitality Lexi had been expecting to receive from Bekah. When they had last parted it hadn't exactly been on good terms. So far, everything had officially gone completely opposite of how she had planned. All she had wanted to do was tell Bekah her story and get over Jack. Instead, she had stayed at his house, nearly been seduced, met Bekah's entire family, started a near brawl with the girl, made out with her brother, and went on a date with him. None of these things had fit into the master plan. By now she was supposed to be sitting on the back porch of her parents' house sipping on a margarita and enjoying the remaining week at home. Instead she found herself being whisked off to some boutique to go shopping for Jack's birthday party. A birthday party that not only did she have a date for, but it was with the aforementioned brother.