Avoiding Commitment (Avoiding #1)(150)

"Do you really want one of your A-list clients angry at you, when Chyna finds out that you treated her best friend this poorly?" Lexi asked smoothly.

Her face shifted into a line of worry. Individuals who came to the hotel and rented the penthouse suite were few and far between. It was unlikely this woman wouldn't want to accommodate them. "Very well. When Ms. Van der Wal returns and we can confirm your identity, then we can allow you into her room. If you would like a room of your own, we could arrange that. Otherwise you will have to wait."

Lexi sighed heavily and wandered over to a loveseat. She pulled her feet up onto the cushion and rested her head against the arm of the chair. All she wanted to do was forget that tonight had ever happened. A short while later she was being shaken on her shoulder and someone was saying her name. Lexi's eyes fluttered open and she realized, somewhat unbelievably, she had fallen asleep. Her neck was sore from the uncomfortable position, but her mind was, at least, still. She must have been exhausted to have fallen asleep that quickly.

"You alright chica?" Chyna asked looking at her anxiously.

"A little sore." What an understatement. "But I'll be alright. Can we just go upstairs?"

"Yea sure," Chyna agreed helping Lexi to her feet. "Did they give you any trouble?" Chyna asked staring daggers at the concierge.

"No, they were fine. They did exactly as I expected," Lexi replied following Chyna to the elevators.

The two girls took the elevator to the top floor and Chyna let them into her suite. All Lexi wanted to do was to crash out for the next several hours. She was both physically and mentally exhausted. Chyna had other ideas though. She obviously had all the energy from just getting laid that Lexi was lacking. And even though she needed her mandated seven hours of beauty sleep, she didn't seem ready for that to begin.

"Can you just spit it out so I can go to sleep?" Lexi asked resting her head back against the couch.

Chyna bit down on her bottom lip as she stared uncomfortably at her friend. "What the hell happened to you? You look like a train wreck. You should have seen the way those people were looking at you downstairs. God, you could have been a hooker for all they knew. A hooker wearing amazing clothes but still…"

Lexi rolled her eyes not caring much what others thought about her. "I had a rough night."

"I'll say. Just look at you."

"Thanks Chy. I got it," she mumbled irritated.

"Then what happened?"

Lexi sighed wavering between a lie and the truth. "Jack and I slept together."

Chyna's mouth dropped open. "No! When?" Lexi lowered her eyes to the floor. "Tonight?" Chyna squeaked. "How could you?"

"You know the answer to that."

"You said you weren't going to."

"I hadn't planned on it. This obviously wasn't planned," she said gesturing around her.

"But Alexa," Chyna scolded.

"Don't use that voice with me," she growled. "Things didn't go exactly as planned anyway." Things definitely did not go as planned. She hadn't planned on sleeping with him. She hadn't planned on falling for him…again. She hadn't planned on her night with Ramsey. She hadn't planned on any of it.

"Did he hit you?" Chyna asked fear obvious in her voice. "You look like shit."

"What? No! God no," Lexi exclaimed running her hands through her hair. "He just…he was really cold to me afterwards."

"Like how?" Chyna asked concerned. She could tell that her friend was a mess and she was at a loss for how to help her.

"I don't know. He said this didn't change things," Lexi attempted to explain.

"What does that mean?" Chyna asked aggravated.

"I think it means he needs more time to decide what he wants which makes sense. It just came out wrong," Lexi said trying to convince herself too.

"I doubt it."

"Chyna," Lexi said warningly.

"No, you listen to yourself. He f**ked you then pretty much told you that you didn't mean anything to him. How could you think otherwise?"

"He said he still needed time. He told me he wanted to be with me. Chyna, they can't be together. I have to stop this. He can't do what he did to me and expect not to have to make a decision," she told her vehemently.

"Alexa just stop. You can't think like that. You cannot break them up."

"But he wants to be with me. A part of him still wants to be with me."

"You really cannot believe him, can you?" Chyna asked scrunching her perfectly waxed eyebrows together.

"He's never lied to me before," Lexi said but doubt was in her voice.

"Are you sure?"

"He hasn't lied to me in six years. Why would he start now?" Lexi asked trying to force a sense of determination.

"I just…don't know," she said biting her lip and looking away.

"What are you getting at Chyna?" Lexi couldn't keep the venom out of her voice. She wasn't some naïve twit. She knew what the consequences of her actions could be.

"Look maybe he never lied directly, but that didn't mean that he was telling you the whole truth," Chyna told her.

Lexi sighed. She had thought of that. In fact, a part of her wondered if maybe everything he ever said to her had some part of a lie in it. Just because he wasn't flat out lying to her, didn't mean it wasn't a lie regardless. But she couldn't let herself get caught up on that. He was the same Jack she had always known, and he loved her. No matter how difficult the past week…the past year and a half had been there was a part of him that would always love her. She just needed to harness that affection and make him realize that was what he had always wanted…what he still wanted.