Drawn to You (Lover to Stepbrother)(30)

“Sounds good. Just pass on the details.”

“Honey are you okay? You sound a little funny,” she asks, clearly concerned.

“I’m fine, just a long day.”

“You need to sleep more.” I haven’t told her that the guy I was seeing is no longer in the picture. I don’t want to concern her. I guess deep down, I’m not ready to admit it out loud even though it’s true.

“I know. Looking forward to later.” I try and change the subject.

“Me, too. Now go and get an education.” I chuckle.

“Love you.”

“Love you too, sweetie.” I hang up and turn around and see Colin dressed, sitting on the edge of the table looking pained.

“It was my mom.” It’s the only words I can get to come out of my mouth and he nods. “Listen…”

“I get it,” he interrupts me. “You either regret what happened or it was just a one-time thing or it won’t happen again.” I close my mouth, not sure what to say. I feel like I used him. And in some way, I did.

“We should get to Mr. Atkins office before they send a search party,” I try and joke. He stands and walks around me, heading out of the classroom. This time I’m the one to follow him. My eyes on him.

When we get to the office, the secretary lets us in and we knock on Mr. Atkins door. After a moment, he yells for us to come in. “Please, take a seat,” He says and we both do. “I want to talk to you about last week.” I feel my palms start to sweat. I watch him walk to his files and then back to his desk, taking a seat. He looks between us and then smiles. “You both did a great job.” I look at him speechless.

“Excuse me?” I say softly.

“You did a great job. More than great. Because of you, this school was donated one hundred thousand dollars and half of it will be going to the arts department.” I open and close my mouth over and over.

“My department will be getting money?” He nods.

“They said it was a requirement. They loved you. They couldn’t stop talking about you.” I squeal a little.

“Oh, my God.”

“Told you they would love you,” Colin says. I look over at him and he gives me a sad smile.

“Thank you,” I tell him and I feel tears prickle my eyes.

“And you, Mr. Baxter, everyone said how hard you worked. Even a few said that you and the team were blackmailing a few of the students.” He laughs. “Love your style, it was wrong, but I’m thankful as the place did look full.” I look to Colin again. He made sure that the place was packed for me.

“I just did what I was told.”

“And you did good. Oh, and well done for a good game yesterday. A few scouts are asking me for a recommendation and I am happy to say that I will make it glow.” His game was yesterday. The most important game and I missed it. I have been so stuck in my own head that I forgot about his game. I promised him no matter what I would go. I would have gone, I knew it meant a lot to him.

“Thank you, sir.” I look at him but he won’t look to me.

“You two did me proud. You make a good team.” With that, he is dismissing us and we both stand and walk out of his office. Colin starts to walk down the hall but I run after him, stopping him.

“I’m sorry I forgot about your game.” He just shrugs.

“I know you had other things on your mind. Don’t worry about it.” He walks off again.

“Colin,” I shout and he turns. No words come out. My head is telling me to scream that I forgive him. That I want to give us another chance. But only air leaves my mouth. He gives me a nod and then leaves as I stand there rooted to the spot.



*

I told Karen what happened on the way home. I first told her what Mr. Atkins wanted and then I tell her that I lost my virginity in an empty classroom to the person I thought I hated. Yeah, once I had more time to think, the more I’m regretting not giving him second chance. I can see how sorry he is.

Why should I keep on punishing us both?

Tomorrow I am going to speak to him.

“You lost your virginity and you’re just telling me now?” Karen shouts in the car.

“I knew you would overreact so that’s why I waited.”

“You lost your virginity. In school. You could have been caught, you could have gotten suspended. What were you thinking?”

“Actually, I wasn’t thinking. It just sort of happened.”

“I can’t believe this.” She pauses. “Can I ask you a question?” I nod. “Did it really hurt?”

“It did. I know this is going to be a bit TMI, but I was soaked and even that didn’t help. He was just so big and thick. But, God, once the pain was gone, it was so good. I was like a woman possessed. I wanted more. I wanted it harder. I wanted him to just slam into me.” I look at Karen and her mouth is hanging open.

“Did you come?”

I nod. “Big time. I’m sure my eyes rolled back.”

“I can’t believe you lost your V-card and I still have mine.” She huffs and I laugh. “So, are you and Colin back together?” I bite my lip shaking my head.

“I think I made a mistake. Maybe I did overreact over the whole thing. I was just so hurt I wasn’t thinking straight. I miss him so much.”