Can't Let Go(10)

“You make an excellent point.”

“I try,” she responded, wishing she could smile. But as soon as she began to, a wave of pain rushed through her and she looked away, swallowing hard. She took one more moment before she eased away from the railing and stepped off the porch, making her way to her rental car. She discovered that she had parked in front of Logan and as he climbed into the driver’s seat of the truck behind her, he waved. She watched in the rearview mirror, waving in return.

The Moonlight Motel was only five minutes down the road. She pulled in and parked randomly in the lot, taking another deep breath before turning off the ignition and walking into the office. An older man sat at the desk, taking reservations. He handed over a key, telling her that her room was on the second floor. Back outside, she found Logan standing by her car.

“Thought I’d offer to help with your bags.”

“It’s okay—I can get them.” She’d forgotten how old-fashioned he could be.

“No, I insist.” She popped the trunk and watched as he took the bags out. “Where’re we going?”

“207,” she replied.

“Well, isn’t that handy. I’m just down the way—203,”

“Whenever you’re ready to go—just let me know. I’m probably not going to get much sleep anyway.” She told him. In fact, she was certain she wouldn’t get any. She just needed a few minutes to herself—a few minutes to put herself back together.

“Okay—so I’ll see you in a bit then?” They were standing just outside her doorway now.

“See you in a bit,” Abby replied, dying to slip out from beneath his gaze. She turned and unlocked the door, taking her bags from him and stepping inside. “Thanks, Logan.”

“Try and get some rest, Abby.” And with that, he turned and walked away.

She had just finished unpacking the few things she’d brought when she became aware of her cell phone vibrating loudly in the quiet of the room. She sighed, crossing over to her purse and digging through it until she found the small piece of technology. As soon as she unlocked it, she groaned. She already had nine missed calls, and Ingrid had only been in the office two hours.

She pressed the button that allowed her to ignore all of the messages and settled down on the bed, deciding it was time to call her dad. It was going to be a difficult conversation because—even though he respected Hayley’s parents, he knew how much Abby loved Hayley.

The phone rang a few times before he finally picked up. “Hello?”

“Hey, Dad.” Her voice was so quiet, no matter how hard she tried to act normal.

“Abby? What’s wrong dear?” She recalled him saying the same words the day she’d come back from Hawaii.

“I have some—some bad news,” she started, unsure of how to continue. How could she break the news to him when she hardly believed it herself? “It’s Hayley, Dad.”

“What’s wrong? What happened?” His voice was instantly filled with fatherly concern.

“She’s dead.” By now, a tear finally escaped, rolling down her cheek. The words sounded so harsh, she couldn’t believe she’d just said them.

“What?” She imagined his expression—stunned, much like her own still was. “What happened? Are you alright?”

“There was an accident.” She realized she still didn’t have all the details about what had happened, but she told herself this would suffice. There was no way he would question her further.

“Her family—”

“No,” Abby’s voice suddenly grew strong and she reached up to brush away the tears. “No, they’re not welcome.”

“Abigail, they’re her parents—”

“They wanted nothing to do with her while she was alive. Neither she nor Blake.”

“How is he handling it?” His tone changed slightly at the mention of Blake. It was no longer full of concern, but instead a tone of inquisition.

“He’s gone too. Both of them.” Abby shook her head, feeling a wave of tears coming on once more as the news refreshed itself in her mind. “Please don’t tell them, Dad. I can’t do that to her.”

“They’re my friends, Abigail—” He only called her Abigail when he was trying to be stern with her.

“They’re not welcome.” She was only getting angry now. “There’s a viewing Friday, and the funeral is Saturday. I thought you might want to know.” She exhaled deeply, suddenly eager to end the conversation. “I’ll call back when I have more information.”

“Abby—” But she pulled the phone away from her ear and pressed the button to end the call.

When Hayley and Blake had married, her parents had cut her off. But Abby’s dad had been caught in the middle—he was friends with the Lawrence’s. Yet Abby was his daughter, and he was more than aware of how important Hayley was to her. Even after six years, he’d never been certain about Blake—had never really given him a chance. Martin Lewis had cared about Hayley, but he’d never accepted Blake. It was the only way he could reconcile both worlds.

Her heart ached—it actually, physically, ached.

She sighed, pulling her knees up to her chest. Her phone vibrated once more and she glanced at it, assuming it would be her father calling back.

Instead, it was an alert—letting her know that she had one new picture message.

Abby’s brow furrowed as she stared at the sleek piece of technology, wondering who would be sending her a picture message.

And then she opened it.

As soon as she saw it, she almost dropped the phone, her eyes welling up with tears she could no longer deny. She felt sobs well up in her chest and, though she fought against them, she couldn’t resist the intense emotions rushing through her.

Because there, depicted in the image in front of her, was her best friend. Beside her was her husband. They were smiling happily at her, Blake’s eyes wide with excitement, Hayley’s full of laughter. The subject read, “Doesn’t this look like the face of a happy man?” They were outside somewhere—she couldn’t quite tell where.

Hayley must have sent it the day before.

She remained in the bed, sitting in a ball, crying into her knees.



~*~



Logan was sitting on the edge of the bed in a room that was the mirror image of Abby’s, just down the way. His elbows were on his knees, and his head in his hands, as he struggled with the myriad emotions running through him like a freight train.

He was still having trouble believing that Blake was gone.

But the image of his body, laying on that cold metal table, right beside Hayley, was enough to shock him back to reality.

Blake was dead. Hayley and their child, too. It was a fact he had to keep repeating to himself, over and over.

He had been within driving distance when he’d gotten the call, though he currently lived in Sacramento. But when the accident had happened, he had just happened to be in Pennsylvania, both for business and to attend to some of his personal dealings. Rather than waste the eight hours driving, though, he had decided to take the first plane out.

He wanted to make it into town before Abby did, not wanting her to have to deal with the task of identifying the bodies of their two closest friends.

It had been difficult for him, and after it was done, Logan had immediately turned his focus to the only person he knew would understand how he felt—both out of concern for Abby, and as an attempt to distract himself from his own heartache.

And he wanted nothing more than to take away the pain he knew would consume her. He had made certain that Abby wouldn’t have to set foot in the morgue before moving on to the funeral home and making what limited arrangements he could.

He’d made a brief stop at the motel and then returned back to the funeral home, knowing she would soon be arriving.

He had been so anxious about facing her again—so much time had gone by, and he knew that she was doing well. Hayley had been sure to update him often. She had gone back to school, and was now working at Rumor, which was a huge deal as far as he was concerned. He could see touches of Abby all over the place, in every issue.

She was living in Beverly Hills.

And she was engaged.

He had wondered briefly if she would bring her fiancé with her. He couldn’t imagine letting the woman he loved go through this alone—which was kind of ironic, considering Abby was the only woman he had ever loved.

The moment she had walked through the door, his heart had actually stopped for a moment.

She still took his breath away.

Logan sighed, balling his hands into fists and pressing them into his eyes in some vain attempt to stop the tears that formed there.

She hadn’t brought her fiancé, which made things easier and more difficult. Easier, because Logan knew that the two of them would be spending time together, and it was better not to have to worry about things being awkward.