The Crow King's Wife (The Elder Blood Chronicles #5)(36)
“So you ran away instead and left us both to rot here with him!” Neph snapped. His fist slammed down on the table hard enough to rattle the beer mug and he glowered at her. “Where was Fortune’s luck when Zyi was hanging? Why didn’t the loving father protect his child then? She died in my arms!” His voice broke with the words and it took all of his will to resist breaking something to vent his frustration. “You cheated on a man like RenDelvayon and then left your bastards to suffer for your sins.” He declared in a snarl that sounded more animal than man.
“I didn’t run Neph.” She gasped and quickly reached across the table to take his hand firmly in her own. Her flesh was cold to the touch and she clung to him long enough for him to realize there was no pulse left in her body. Slowly her fingers unclenched and she waited until his anger had cooled to shock once more before waving a delicate hand at the painting. “He placed my ashes behind the painting. If you don’t believe me have a look for yourself. I doubt Ren troubled himself to move the urn. As I said, I wasn’t strong enough to stand against him, and I followed the same path as Zyi on my choices. When Fortune presented me with an opportunity to run, I ignored it, just as she did. I wouldn’t leave you and Zyi behind, no matter what it cost me.”
Neph’s attention shifted from the painting and then back to his mother as he slowly digested what she was saying. Shaking his head slowly he gaped at her. “So you are what? Some kind of ghost?” he asked in a faltering voice.
“Fortune took me from the Darklands and spared me the Dark Lady’s penance. He gave me the choice of returning to the Lifestream for my next life, or serving him. The choice was an easy one. So I serve him and exist by his power alone. I am here by his grace, most of the time I’m not quite so substantial.” She explained quietly. “There was no way to come to you sooner Neph or I would have. I couldn’t reveal myself with Ren alive and with the world in such chaos…” her voice trailed off and she carefully wiped the tears from her face.
“But you are crying. Can spirits even cry?” Neph protested and his gaze moved once more to the painting on the wall. Everything he had thought he had known about his mother had been twisted in his mind. As a child he had been told that she had run off, and then he had been told she was dead, and now he was being informed it was both. A slow ache built in his chest and he realized slowly that he would have rather she simply run from Ren rather than die for her children. If she had run, there still would have been hope that somehow things could be made right, but now, well death was terribly final for just about everyone aside from Jala.
“Spirits cannot, she can. I grant her as much life as I can without actually stepping on the toes of my fellow Aspects. I cannot give her true life and I will not surrender her to death, so she exists as this for the time being.” Fortune said from behind him and Neph shifted in his chair to face him at the sound of his voice.
The Aspect was dressed in a fine black suit in the latest fashion and his attention seemed to be fixated on a dusty book at the top of the bookshelf. Neph hadn’t even bothered to look at the books that were there and had no idea what the Aspect was so interested in. He knew Ren hadn’t kept any books of magic in his rooms, and those were what held Neph’s interest as far as reading material went, aside from the occasional book of poetry.
Fortune plucked the book from the shelf and blew on the cover scattering dust through the air. Turning he walked back to the table with a grim expression on his face. “Time for a history lesson Neph. Too many secrets have been kept from you and it’s time to shed some light on things.” He dropped the book to the table with a heavy thud and frowned at the high backed chairs. Rolling his eyes he pulled one closer to the table and sat down gingerly in it. “I will never understand why Ren favored such furnishings. Living in discomfort doesn’t make you a stronger, it makes you bitchier.” He grumbled as he flipped the cover open and scanned through several pages quickly.
Leaning to one side Neph glanced at the heavily yellowed pages and frowned. From what he could tell it was a genealogy book of the houses of Delvay. “I know the houses of Delvay. I don’t need a lesson on my own people.” Neph informed him dryly.
Fortune looked up at him with a raised eyebrow and then returned his attention to the book wordlessly. He scanned through several more pages and then nodded faintly to himself before he removed his suit coat and sat back in the chair further. Still silent he began to roll the sleeve of his silk shirt up until well past his elbow. His eyes narrowed and slender ridges rose in his skin forming a spiraling design with a shield near the center. The flesh gradually darkened around the markings until they stood out like a dark grey tattoo against his paler flesh. “Do you know what this is Neph?” Fortune asked as he held up his arm for Neph to get a better look at the marking.
Neph studied the sigil carefully before shaking his head slowly. It was tempting to make a smart ass comment, but Fortune was an Aspect, and due respect regardless of the current situation.
“It’s the sigil of the Guardians.” Fortune informed him quietly. The marks began to fade from his skin as he lowered his arm and his attention turned back to the book before him. “I was with them in the beginning. When the split came to Delvay, before they fled the city. I was one of the first to join the movement actually.” His hand slid slowly across the book in front of him and sigils began to glow softly under his touch. The air above the book shimmered and an image formed of a powerful built man in badly scarred armor with two swords across his back.