Emergency Contact(90)

Her mother’s eyes widened as she quietly gathered her cardigan, sunglasses, and purse.

Penny smiled with the toothpaste foam dripping. “I love you,” she said. “I so owe you.”

“You so do,” responded Celeste, heading for the door.

The prospect of Celeste and Sam seeing each other again made Penny feel hopelessly awkward. Plus, she didn’t need Celeste to see anything revealing or odd if Sam was there to tell Penny something she absolutely didn’t want to hear. Penny’s phone continued to buzz.

Should I come back?

I’m sorry I can hear you freaking out in there I can come back


“No!” she yelled. Penny spat into the sink, wiped her mouth, smoothed her hair, and cracked open the door.

“Hi,” she said. Cheesing. “I look insane.”

“Hi,” he said. “You look . . .” He took a step back to admire her. “Incredible.”

Penny was smiling so forcefully her cheeks were about to cramp.

Sam was standing in the hall wearing his usual goth ensemble. With his backpack. “Can I come in?”

“Uh, yeah,” said Penny. “Hang on a second.” Celeste hugged her and made a big show of covering her eyes as she walked past Sam.

“I’m not even here,” she said.

“Hi, Celeste,” said Sam. “Happy birthday.”

“Thanks,” she said, still facing away from them. “Take care of this one.”

“Sure thing.”

Penny watched her mother walk down the hall.

“I love you!” Penny called out. Celeste waved over her shoulder without glancing back.

“Okay, now hold on for an additional second,” Penny said, and shut the door. She whipped her head around quickly to make sure there wasn’t anything mortifying in plain sight. Like any Jude food remnants or econo-size boxes of tampons. Penny shoved Jude’s dirty socks into her shoes and kicked them under her bed. Then she opened the door all the way.

“I see we employ the same interior decorator,” Sam said, surveying the barren premises.

“Worth every cent,” Penny croaked. “Hi.” She cleared her throat.

“Hi,” Sam said back.

“Is everything okay?” she asked him.

He smiled.

“Everything doesn’t have to be a crisis, Penny,” he said. Penny wasn’t so sure.

She wanted to sit on her bed, only she wasn’t sure if she could take him sitting on her bed with her if he was delivering bad news. So instead Penny stood in the middle of the room, like a normal human lady in a casual situation, and clenched her hands into fists. She could feel her heart in her palms.

“I have something to tell you,” Sam said, standing uneasily in front of her.

“Are you going somewhere?” she asked, nodding at the backpack. “Is it something to do with Brandi Rose?”

“Dude,” he said, and laughed.

Shit. Penny was fairly certain that when a guy called you “dude,” it was because he didn’t want to see you naked ever.

“Have you ever called me ‘dude’ before?”

Penny wasn’t sure why she was talking.

“Wow,” he said. “Sometimes talking to you is like accidentally clicking on a pop-up with autoplay video.”

Penny smiled weakly. “Sorry. Continue.”

“I want to get through what I want to say and then it’ll be your turn,” said Sam. “Is that okay?”

Penny nodded.

“I don’t . . . ,” he said, and then stopped. “So I don’t think I want to be friends with you anymore. I want to kill the pact.”

Penny blinked back tears, hoping that her eyelashes could dam the flow at least until she could kick him out. This was it, the moment they both knew would come. At least she did. It was the day Sam grew out of talking to her. It was how Christopher Robin didn’t need Winnie-the-Pooh when he became a grown-up. God, how she’d wept when she discovered the ending. Penny wondered if that’s what happened in Calvin & Hobbes too but couldn’t remember. Penny hated whenever you could see Hobbes as a doll since it killed the magic. God. Penny didn’t want to be friends with Sam either. It was too emotional.

She took a deep breath.

“Good,” said Penny. “Because I completely agree. We’re definitely getting too codependent, right? I mean, how much workshopping can we honestly do for each other? It’s not as if you need my mom drama on top of your mom drama. It’s way too taxing. For both of us. Especially since we have so much homework. Emotional homework. Oh, and real homework for me. I have so much of all the homeworks.”

“You think we’re codependent?” Sam asked her. He frowned and ran his hands through his hair.

Penny nodded. She thought about how she’d invited this. Invoked it. By summoning Sam out of her phone, she had hastened this evolution. They could have stayed in suspended animation forever if she hadn’t appeared in front of him so many times. Pried open the portal and insisted her body through. Penny gazed longingly at Sam’s skinny legs. His bony arms. Oh God, she loved everything.

Whatever. Maybe this was good. This could be great for her story. Knowing about real heartbreak is useful. Maybe this was her inciting incident. Her saga would go on. She would persist. At least Penny had Jude and her mom and Mallory. God, was she at the point of counting Mallory as a good thing?