Dear Heart, You Screwed Me(70)

“Very sure.” I nodded quickly, breaking eye contact and ducking under his arm.

Opening the door I stepped over the threshold, I felt like I couldn’t breathe.

“Hey, Hey… Reese!” he called as he stood in opening of the door and grabbed my arm so I couldn’t run.

“What?” I whispered.

“Are you going back to Lordes?” his voice was low, his beautiful brown eyes volleying back and forth between mine in that way he had.

I inhaled deeply before shaking my head side to side, “No, ” I breathed.

“You can’t let her win.”

“I’m not letting her win, Killian. I just don’t want to work with her anymore. I deserve better,” I pulled my arm from his tight grip. “I’ll be fine, Connie said she can get me some shifts at the hotel if needs be,” I shrugged my shoulders up, “I’ve waitressed before, it’s easy money.”

Killian shook his head quickly, “No, no,” his tone stern. “You can work with me until something more permanent comes along. You can help me with any loose ends that I just don’t have time for,” his eyes begged me to say yes.

“Can I think about it?”

He nodded.

“Come to dinner Friday night with Connie, a little drink and catch up before Christmas break. It’ll be nice to see you,” he stepped back inside his office, “please say yes.”

I nodded.

“That would be lovely.”

He beamed at me.

“I’ll see you Friday.”

“I’ll see you Friday.” And with that, I left.





CHAPTER 29





KILLIAN





Sitting at my desk, I drummed my fingers against the hardboard of my solid, black oak desk. I was distracted. Ever since Reese showed up and gave me a phenomenal blow job under it, I couldn’t stop thinking about it.

Everything about her is a temptation.

Adele had tried to call me numerous times throughout the week, but I didn’t have the energy to speak to her. The mood she put me in would only make me act and do something I would regret.

I had to keep level-headed regarding the business. I had to take my personal life out of this.

Should I have told Adele that me and Reese were married? No. I should have kept my mouth shut but she made me so angry. I don’t think my blood has ever boiled so bad.

My eyes flicked to the time on my computer monitor, it had just gone three. I was so ready to leave and go home.

I had Connie and Reese over tonight, I didn’t know if I would see much of Connie over Christmas so decided on an early dinner tonight. Connie was always hesitant about wanting to come over, but her knowing Reese will be there makes her decision a lot easier.

“Screw this,” I huffed, pushing off the desk and shutting my computer down. I grabbed my suit jacket and coat before walking out of my office.

“Ben, cancel my calls. I’m finished for the day.” I didn’t stop to hear if he said anything, I walked towards the elevator, shrugging my jacket and coat on before stepping into the snow.

My car was sitting kerbside, thanking Colin, I slipped in the back and let him drive me home. I felt tense. Work wasn’t bothering me. Yes, Adele had got under my skin, but I think it was more the fact that I had to fight the urge every minute of the day to stop myself from going to Reese. She was like a magnet. Constantly pulling me towards her.

We would never work. I couldn’t do that to Connie. I couldn’t be selfish, and if I pursued a relationship with Reese, it would be for selfish reasons.

I didn’t even want the annulment, but I couldn’t expect Reese to stay married to me just because deep down, I didn’t want to let her go. The papers were still sitting unsigned in my office, it would take merely a minute, yet I couldn’t bring myself to do it.

I had this constant battle in my head. The voices from my head and my heart constantly arguing about it.

It would get easier; I knew it would.

I just had to be patient.

Walking into my apartment, I hung my coat and scarf up in the cloak room before heading to my bedroom. I needed a shower. The winter air was bitter.

Tugging my tie out of my shirt collar, I tossed it onto the bed. Unbuttoning and discarding the shirt on the floor, I stepped over it and pulled down my suit pants. Turning the shower dial, I slipped my jocks down and stepped into the hot water. It felt good against my tense skin, my muscles rippling as I lathered myself up then washed my hair. The smell of mint wafted through my nostrils, smiling as I rinsed it off.

I felt the bubbles of excitement surface in my stomach before they popped. I was excited to see Reese. I almost felt wrong for feeling the way I did, my stomach churned and coiled constantly at the thought of her being here but being unable to touch her because of Connie. I sometimes wish I could switch them off, but it wasn’t that simple was it. Because believe me, if I could, I would.

Drying myself off, I dressed in jeans and a t-shirt. I ramped the heating up to take the chill out of the apartment then slipped a couple of bottles of wine into the fridge. Padding back into the bathroom I brushed my teeth then styled my brown hair, messing it up and pushing it back away from my face. Running my hand over my chin, my stubble felt rough, but it wasn’t long enough to tame or style. I never intended on keeping it, but the sultry look and little lip bites from Reese when my stubble grazed across her sensitive skin made me want to keep it. So, it stayed.