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13 Aug 18.04
She’s on her way back, have you moved it?
She just bumped into that girl from her work, Connie I think
13 Aug 18.04
Yes, sitting in car on top floor Keep an eye on her so I can move it if she comes up here Let me know what’s happening
13 Aug 18.14
So funny to watch
She’s looking everywhere for it On 5th floor at moment Feel almost sorry for her
13 Aug 18.14
Do you think she’ll come up here?
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13 Aug 18.16
No, going down again
13 Aug 18.19
What’s happening?
13 Aug 18.21
On ground floor, think she’s going to office to tell them she can’t find car
13 Aug 18.21
Shall I move it back to 4th
13 Aug 18.21
Yes!
13 Aug 18.24
Have you done it?
She’s on way up with attendant, waiting for lift 13 Aug 18.25
Yes, not in exactly same place though, couple of spaces along 13 Aug 18.25
Don’t think it will matter
You better get going
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13 Aug 18.26
Already gone
I’m going to call her to ask where she is, pretend I’m at home 13 Aug 23.48
Hi, how did it go?
13 Aug 23.49
Put it this way
She won’t be opening champagne again any time soon 13 Aug 23.49
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Suddenly hungry, because I haven’t eaten since lunch-time yesterday, I stop at a service station and buy myself a sandwich and something to drink. I eat quickly, impatient to be home. I get back onto the dual carriageway, intending to stay on it all the way home, but five minutes later, without really knowing why, I find myself turning left, down the road to the woods, the one that will take me home via Blackwater Lane. I don’t worry too much about it, deciding to let fate take me where it will. After all, it had allowed me to find the phone. What were the chances of the French student taking it from Rachel’s bag as she pushed past him? What were the chances of one of his friends having a crisis of conscience and The Breakdown
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handing it to me? I’ve never thought of myself as particularly spiritual, but yesterday, somebody somewhere was looking out for me.
Blackwater Lane looks nothing like it did the last time I drove down it. The trees that line the road are a riot of autumnal colours and the fact there are no other cars around make it peaceful, not threatening. When I get to the lay-by where Jane’s car was parked I slow down and pull in. After turning off the engine, I wind down my window and sit for a while, letting the light breeze fill the car. And I feel that Jane is with me. Even though the murderer still hasn’t been caught, for the first time since her death, I feel at peace.
I’d intended to go back to the house, take Rachel’s phone from under the orchid and hand it to the police but if I’ve been brought to this spot it must be for a reason. So I close my eyes and think of Jane, and of how Matthew and Rachel, without conscience, used her murder to get to me.
18 Jul 15.15
How are you?
18 Jul 15.16
Fine. How come you’re cal ing at this time?
18 Jul 15.16
I’m out. Told her I was going to the gym Need to keep up appearances
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Don’t want her to question why I’m not going any more 18 Jul 15.16
Wish you were on your way to me, like before 18 Jul 15.16
Me too. Do you know how much I miss you?
18 Jul 15.16
I think I can guess?
And we’re not going to be seeing each other tonight 18 Jul 15.16
Just as wel , would want to kiss you But why not?
18 Jul 15.17
Susie’s cancel ed her party
You know the woman who was murdered? She worked in our company 18 Jul 15.17
Seriously?
18 Jul 15.17
Just phoned C to tell her, she went into meltdown Turns out she had lunch with her recently The Breakdown
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18 Jul 15.18
What? Are you sure? The murdered woman?
18 Jul 15.18
Yes. She met her at that leaving party I took her to a month back
And they arranged to have lunch Jane Walters 18 Jul 15.19
I remember! I met Cass at the restaurant after the lunch She said she was meeting a new friend, Jane 18 Jul 15.19
That was her
18 Jul 15.19
God, she’ll be even more upset now She’s real y nervous about murderer on the loose 18 Jul 15.20
Good maybe we can use it
18 Jul 23.33
Didn’t know you had argument with murdered woman Cass told me
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18 Jul 23.34
She nicked my parking space
18 Jul 23.34
She got what she deserved then 18 Jul 23.35
God, you real y are a cold-hearted bastard!
18 Jul 23.35
Not where you’re concerned
You do know you’re the one for me, don’t you?
18 Jul 23.35
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24 Jul 23.40
The murder has real y got to her, she doesn’t want to be on own while I’m away Told her to invite you round