Taming Alec(15)

“Everything okay?” he asked.

I shook my head. “I really need to speak to him.”

He nodded and pointed to a set of doors behind me. “Go through there, and turn right. He’s in the last room on the right at the end of the hall.”

“Thank you.” I turned and hurried away. I swore I’d seen the bartender shaking his head as I left.

I pushed through the doors and looked around. I practically ran down the hallway to the right. I was shocked over just how quiet it was back here since the main part of the bar was only a few feet away. When I reached the end of the hallway, I knocked on the last door just as the bartender had told me.

I waited a few seconds before knocking again. I reached forward to turn the doorknob when the door swung open. My breath caught as I looked at Alec. This was the closest I’d been to him in days.

God, he still takes my breath away.

“Rebecca?” His voice held surprise. “What are you doing here? Is everything all right?”

I shook my head as I stepped closer. “Please don’t kill me for doing this.”

He gave me a questioning look, but I gave him no time to ask me what the hell I was doing. I reached out and pulled him closer to me. I stood on my toes and slammed my mouth against his. He froze for a moment before finally kissing me back. He groaned as his hands found my waist and pulled me tighter against him.

I felt myself being lifted, but I didn’t break the kiss. Alec held on to me as he stepped back into the room and closed the door behind us. He shoved me against the door, our lips still fused together. I nearly lost my mind when I felt him harden against me.

He broke away and released me so suddenly that I nearly fell without his weight holding me against the door. I grabbed on to the doorknob to keep myself from falling over.

“Fuck, Rebecca! What the hell was that?” he demanded as he took another step back.

“I didn’t mean to,” I said. “I just saw you and…”

He ran his hand over his face. “Why are you here?”

“I needed to talk to you,” I said quietly.

“It couldn’t have waited until I came home?” he asked.

I winced at the coldness in his tone. It looked like we were back to square one.

“I’ve waited long enough. Besides, you probably would have come home with another woman. That seems to be your norm lately.”

He had the decency to look embarrassed. At least, he did for a split second before a cold mask of indifference slipped over his face.

“It’s not just lately, Rebecca. I’ve been bringing home random women long before I met you.”

I glared at him. “You’re being an ass on purpose.”

He shrugged. “I’m just telling you the truth. Now, what was so important that you had to come here to talk to me?”

“I want to know what is going on with us.”

He gave me a strange look. “What are you talking about?”

“Don’t play dumb, Alec. You’ve been avoiding me for over a month.”

“No, I haven’t,” he said.

“Liar. Tell me the truth, Alec. What is going on? After that night, I thought…”

He frowned. “You thought what? That I’d show up at your door the next morning with a dozen roses and coffee? It doesn’t work that way. At least, it doesn’t with me. I knew this would happen. That’s why I tried so damn hard to stay away from you.”

“Knew what would happen?” I demanded.

“This!” He motioned between the two of us. “You’re here because you want something I can’t give you. Goddamn it, Rebecca! I tried my hardest to stay away from you because I knew you’d get hurt. You aren’t the type of girl who can just walk away. I’m the worst thing that could ever happen to you.”

“Stop! Just stop!” I shouted. “You make yourself out to be this horrible person, but you aren’t, not really.”

He laughed. “You’re so damn innocent. You can’t even see what’s right in front of you.”

“Yes, I can. You pretend to be an *, but you aren’t. An * wouldn’t have apologized. An * wouldn’t have left my apartment when he did. You knew I would say yes, but you still walked away. How many men can say they’d do the same thing? I might be inexperienced, but I know what men think about—sex. You had your chance, and you left. Stop pretending to be a coldhearted bastard. The only person you’re fooling is yourself.”

He took a step toward me. “Rebecca—”

I held up my hand. “No, don’t even try to say anything. I’m too pissed off to talk about this anymore. When you come to your senses, you know where to find me.”

I turned and stormed out of what I assumed was his office. I’d been too busy kissing and shouting at him to really look at it. I almost expected him to follow me as I stomped my way down the hallway, but he didn’t. I shook my head as I stepped back out into the main part of the bar. I didn’t bother to apologize as I pushed through the crowd to reach the door.

Once I was in my car, I peeled out of the lot. Anger flooded my body until I felt like I was boiling inside. The only things I’d managed to do tonight was piss off Alec and myself. I still didn’t have my answers. I wasn’t sure if I ever would.