TABOO: THE COMPLETE SERIES(10)

I don’t know why I felt the need to tell him that. Perhaps it helped if Jake wasn’t completely focused on saving his brother and getting him out of there. Because that was what they would try to do. Not that I’d allow it. The first time they had tried, the only reason they made it that far was because I hadn’t expected Benner to give a fuck about that boy. That would never happen for as long as I lived, fool me once, and all that.

Jake couldn’t stop staring at the screen so I turned it off.

He was still on knees, disturbed.

“What do you want?” Jake asked, and I was quick at the response. “You. I want you, Jake. Nothing more, nothing less.”

“You already have me here!”

“Don’t you dare raise your voice to me,” I growled. He was suddenly at a loss for words. So was Benner. The boy and his father had angered me, and something needed to be done. I went up to Jake and crouched in front of him. “For future reference,” I said. “Don’t make me angry.”

“Fuck you!” Jake said, and before he said another word, Mace was restraining him and Stoll had left the father’s side and left him in another guard’s care to help Mace.

Watching Jake, struggle with the two of them, fighting with all his strength and accomplishing nothing, it must have hurt deep down. But that’s exactly where I wanted it to hurt. I wanted to go deeper than anyone else had been, even his fucked-up excuse of a father. That was the only way he would be mine. Completely. It was the only way to get him to understand that him and I were meant to be.

“Let go of me!” Jake was still grappling with Mace. But even he knew he had already lost the fight. He might as well have been eating their shit.

I turned my attention to Benner. “How would you like it if I raped your son right here, in front of all these people and in front of you?”

Benner lunged for me.

Bad move.

I had been waiting to do this all night. I lifted the bat and clubbed him over the head. I hadn’t done it hard enough to break anything in his skull or give lasting damage, just enough to scare him and it worked. After that, Benner made no more attempts at getting back at me. It was amazing how a single club could change the course of someone’s life forever. Amazing how we’re never truly afraid of death until it comes to stare us down right in our faces. For Benner Ross, that club was death. And I had a good idea he wanted to live. Everyone does. “Whatever happens to Jake now,” I said to Benner. “Remember, you had a hand in it.”

“Please don’t hurt him,” Benner was weeping.

I left him there, still on his knees, still begging and gestured to Mace and Stoll. They promptly brought a struggling, hostile Jake to the ground. Stoll was perched on top of him, and I kneeled and crouched next to Jake’s head and grabbed a fistful of his hair and pulled. “You’re going to hate me after today,” I told him. “But I don’t give a shit. I’ll enjoy destroying you, Jake. Because that’s why you’re here. So I can build you up and destroy you, every single day of our lives and that’s something you’ll have to get used to, Jakey.”

Jake had tears in his eyes and I saw the silent pleas in those baby blues, waiting for a miracle, or waiting for it all to be some dream but I wasn’t letting it happen. Jake didn’t even know the meaning of nightmare. He didn’t really know the meaning of pain. Today, he would learn, I was going to make sure of it.

Today, he would truly be mine even if he won’t understand it at first. He will belong to me now, even though he will deny it.

Today, I will be so deep inside him, to the great depths of that psyche, that his body will never be able to stop me, or refuse me my pleasure.

Today, I will become a part of him and he will never be able to shed me or cut me away from him no matter how much tried.

Today, I will destroy him for the very first time.

And we always remember our first time.

Always.

I wanted him to look at me, so I forced his head in the right position to face me while Mace lowered Jake’s pants. Stoll was pressing down on Jake’s shoulders so he wouldn’t be able to move his upper body and Mace was holding him down by the legs. My hand was still lodged in Jake’s hair. Look at me, Jake. And after today you won’t see anyone but me.

He didn’t understand but I could smell his fear and that was enough. He was more beautiful than ever with that fear and the tears and the silent pleas, and I wanted to do things but I stopped myself. Because I wanted to do more than just take his virginity, and I wanted to do more than just make love. The depths of my desire were hard to fathom. He had no clue, but after today he would be on the journey to understand.

Mine.

The backs of his thighs were exposed to me now. Watching him through the barrier of a TV screen was one thing but seeing him now, exposed, and vulnerable and right in front of me was a whole other level of emotion. Mace was holding his legs down and his large hands were weighing down on the boy’s calves. His jeans were almost to his knees, and giving me a great view of his naked ass.

My cock was so hard it was impossible to contain myself. The boy was still squirming, struggling with Stoll’s hold on his shoulders. Stoll was grinning. He was a good subordinate, he had always been loyal and respectful. Mace and Stoll were the two people I trusted with my life. I knew they would only follow orders, no more no less. And that’s exactly what they were doing now. I wanted to see the boy’s cock, see what it looked like but now wasn’t the right time for it. I moved the bat over Jake’s ass and he froze.