Hope's Chance(61)

Hope and I would sit awake at night talking about everything. Mark had only made us stronger and now that I was back, I knew I needed to pull him aside and tell him I didn’t want to return to South Carolina. I would have appreciated the job if I hadn’t met Hope, but I had something to live for now and being away from her was killing me.

As if she was reading my mind, Hope brought up the topic. “I am not going to let you get back on that plane Chance.”

I grabbed her hand and kissed it. “Are you going to wrestle me to the ground?” I said sarcastically. “Because, I think I would really like that.”

“Do you want to go back?” She said concerned.

I chuckled. “Are you kidding me? Hell no!”

I looked over at Hope and ran my hand across her cheek. “I don’t want to ever go back Hope. I just want to be here with you. You shouldn’t have to ask that baby.”

We came to another red light and Hope looked over at me. “I know, I know! I guess I am just on edge. I finally have you back and all I keep thinking about is the fact that you have to leave.” She confessed.

“I will find a way to stay Hope. I have saved up some money, at least enough to get a place and be able to pay for a few months until I can find a job here. I will do whatever it takes.”

Knowing that Hope was worried about this, and the fact that we were on the way to have dinner with the person who put us in this situation was ridiculous. I hated seeing her hurting.

“Maybe we should just tell him we are together?” She suggested.

I ran my hands through my hair. “Hope, it isn’t that easy. He could refuse to let me see you. He could get your mother involved. We only have a short time before your birthday. Just let me handle it. I will figure something out.”

“What if you don’t?” She asked.

“I will Hope.”

She started to cry. “I can’t handle you being gone. I know I sound like a selfish little girl, but it is true. I missed you so much Chance. It hurt so much.” She admitted.

We were getting close to the club and I knew that I need to calm Hope down before Mark started poking around with questions.

“Hope, I love you and I promise I will do whatever it takes for us to be together.”

“Thank you Chance. I’m sorry for being so annoying about it. I just love you so much. I can’t imagine ever losing you.”

I leaned over and kissed her cheek. My lips touched the base of her ear. “You will never lose me and I don’t find you annoying. I actually feel amazed every time I hear you say how much you want to be with me.”

Hope smiled and wiped the last tears from her eyes. “I am so glad your back Chance.”

“Me too baby.” I said as I rubbed the back of her neck.

We turned into the club and prepared for a long night with her father.





Chapter 35

Hope

I hated the Country Club. Trevor had brought me here every weekend when we dated. His father was a fixture here and probably kept the place in business. Before me, Trevor had found this place to be a great place to bang chicks; in fact, this is where he took my innocence.

One night a bunch of us kids snuck on the grounds and got some golf carts out from where they kept them. Rylee had hooked up with some football player and they went rolling out onto the golf course somewhere, leaving me alone with Trevor.

He had made many advances toward me having sex with him. At first they were sweet and innocent, but the longer I held out, the more physical he became. The truth was that Trevor always scared me and I found myself doing things so that he wouldn’t yell at me, or call me awful names. On nights like that night, he threatened to tell the whole school I had an STD and that was why we weren’t sleeping together. Finally, after crying for a long period of time, I lay down on a patch of green grass and let him have his way with me. I wasn’t ready. I didn’t even want to, which made it hurt even worse.

Just thinking about that night made my eyes water up with tears.

“What’s wrong Hope? I thought you were okay?”

I shook my head while I was looking for a parking spot. “This is where I lost my virginity. I hate this place.”

I suddenly thought back to when I knew I was truly ready to have sex. The moment when I knew that I wanted a guy without any doubt in my body. It had been my first night with Chance. After that night, nothing with Trevor even seemed to matter anymore. Chance had showed me love and what it was like to make love. He would never force me, or hurt me and I appreciated him so much.

“Why didn’t you just tell your father that you wanted to go somewhere else?” He asked, while trying to get me to focus on the conversation again.

“Because ever since he got this stupid membership he has been hell bent on spending every second here.” I explained.

We started to get out of the car. “Was it with the dick head?” He asked.

“Yes!” I held my head down, trying to not think about him. “It was horrible Chance. I wish I had just waited for you. You have no idea how much I wish that.”

Chance stroked my cheek and smiled. “He can’t hurt you now Hope. I will never let him hurt you again. I may not have been your first Hope, but I damn sure want to be your last.” Chance promised.

My father and Buffy approached us and we walked in together, as a family I guess, a really messed up one. Apparently, my father had reserved us a table ahead of time so we didn’t have to sit in a more common area of the restaurant. Our table was circular, Buffy slid in right next to my dad so Chance and I got to sit together. Because we were in a round booth, Chance and I were able to touch legs the whole time sitting. It may not have been much, in fact, it was seemingly innocent, but it was enough for me to feel him touching me.