Blinding Trust (Mitchell Family, #7)(54)

I sat there waiting for her to be able to tell me what was going on. I’d never considered that it could be something bad. I just assumed they were sneaking around behind my back.

“Savanna, please talk to me.”

She was still sobbing, but managed to get out one sentence. “The doctor found a lump in my breast.”

A knot formed in my throat and I could hear the severity in her voice. While I was away with our son, she had been going through hell. Every one of our phone calls had ended badly when she needed my support the most. How would I ever be able to make this up to her?





Chapter 23


Savanna


As angry as I was at Colt for what’ he’d done to Ty, a part of me was so relieved to have him sitting there next to me. I’d wanted his support since this had all begun. He should have been there for me instead of his cousin. Now, poor Ty was going home with a black eye and hard feelings.

Colt put his head down when I told him what the doctor had found. I think the shock of what I’d said had finally calmed him down and brought the man back to reality. God knows, he had been way off base.

As I continued to try to calm myself down, Colt tried once again to put his arm around me. Sometimes actions speak louder than words, and in this case, it was true. I leaned my head against him. “How bad is it darlin’? When are they goin’ to do a biopsy?”

“I had it done this morning. That’s why Ty was here. He took me to the doctors.”

“Oh, hell, Savanna. I didn’t know. I just thought he was tryin’ to take you from me.” I could tell he felt terrible and there was a part of me that wanted him to. He should have just talked to me, instead of losing his temper. No matter how old he got, some things just didn’t change.

“He was being there for me because he knew you couldn’t be, but it wasn’t because he wanted me for himself. Colt, I’ve known him practically my whole life. He’s my best friend.”

“He was your first love, darlin’. It’s hard for me to not think about that. It’s hard for me to know you still love him.” Colt looked in another direction. “It kills me to know he was here for you. I should have been here. Why didn’t you call me, Savanna? I never would have gone if I’d known.”

“You were taking care of our son, Colt. Just because something bad was happening to me, doesn’t mean we can just give up on our kids. I knew it was important to Noah and with the wedge between us, I couldn’t be the person to ruin it for him.” I wiped my face and took a few deep breaths. “I was just going to go through the tests alone. If it was nothing, than I didn’t want anyone else to have to worry about me. When I left the office and called Miranda, I was just so scared. Ty sensed it right away and wouldn’t leave me alone until I told him what was going on. Colt, I swear to you that there is nothing going on between us, but I don’t know how I would have gotten through this week without him. That’s why I didn’t ask him to leave.”

Colt’s phone started vibrating in his pants. He pulled it out and hit the ignore button. “It’s Miranda. I know she’s going to tear me a new ass. I don’t have time for that, right now. I can’t believe this is happenin’. You know I would have been here for you, Savanna. I can’t understand why you thought it was necessary to keep it from me. I don’t even care what I had goin’ on. This was more important than anything.” He covered his face with his hands for a second and then looked over at me. Those beautiful green eyes were watered up. “I’m so sorry, Savanna. I’d fall apart without you, darlin’. Nothin’ makes sense in my life if you’re not in it.” He grabbed my hand and kissed it. “What’s the doctor sayin’? How long until we get the results?”

“My doctor said that he would call me as soon as he gets them.” I’m so sorry I didn’t tell you. I wanted to call you and tell you every day. I was just so upset and I don’t want the kids to know. I don’t want anyone to know that there’s a possibility that I might not be around much longer.” I could barely get out the last words.

Colt held me tight. I could hear him sniffling, but refused to look up at his face. “Please don’t talk like that. I don’t care what it costs, or what we have to do. If the results are positive for cancer, we’ll beat it together. Never talk about it bein’ the end, darlin’. Please don’t ever do that.” Colt was starting to lose it. The sniffling was becoming more frequent and I knew that he wasn’t going to leave my side.

“I’m so scared, Colt. I know I should be optimistic, but I can’t stop thinking about the bad. I just want to be prepared for the worst possible result, so that if it’s any better, I can at least be happy about that.”

He brushed the hair away from my face. “Have you done any research?”

I shook my head. “No. I was too afraid. My doctor said it was a bad idea.”

He stood up and reached out for my hand. “Let’s go inside. I had to wait hours for a flight at the airport. We were so damn tired that Noah came right in and went to sleep.”

I realized that I hadn’t even asked why he was home a day early. “What happened? I thought you told me you weren’t coming home until tomorrow.”

We went into the kitchen. I sat down at the table while he leaned against the countertop. “It seems Zeke wasn’t as forward for information as we thought. At first, everything was great. His house was unbelievable and Noah was spoiled with attention. I was startin’ to think I wouldn’t be able to get him to leave.”