Teaching Aleck (The Last Hangman MC #2)(19)

At first, I thought he was just heartbroken that I wasn’t going to be able to have his children like I was. I hoped we could adopt or go another route, but no. Instead, I found out that he would only inherit his grandfather’s money when he marries and have a child. Our loss put a dent in his perfect plan to pick the first idiot who would want to marry him and have a family just so he could get the money.

He immediately started to pull away and was being a complete * to me. He became really short tempered often yelling at me and calling me names. I ended up hating him, I wanted nothing more than to divorce his ass, but it wasn’t as easy as I thought. He would never give his consent as his parents had spent a lot of money on the wedding.

Remember the life insurance the parents set up when we were younger? He was after that. All he was interested in was money. I had to go to great lengths so he wouldn’t get one cent of that money. I managed to get a lawyer to draw up papers so you would be the one to get the money if anything happens to me. It might sound crazy to you, but seeing how Marc has become, I fear for my life. I don’t know if he would be capable of anything, but I don’t want to risk it. I don’t want him to get one penny of the money I have.

I love you Aleck, always and forever.

Cassie xxx

I see her turn to the second page and I can’t help but tense. I don’t know why I keep this letter with me. It kills me having it always with me, but it would feel wrong not to have it with me at all times, it’s still a piece of her.

Dear Aleck,

If you are reading this letter, it means that I am no longer with you. I hope that Marc or whoever found it will bring it to you.

I’m so sorry I took the coward way out. I couldn’t handle it anymore. The pressure from Marc, his rejection, his hate towards me, had become too much for me to handle them. I wish I were stronger. I wish I could have been there for you, always. I wish we could have had one last day together, like we used to.

I’m sorry I wasn’t strong enough to keep fighting. I know how you feel about relationships. Knowing mine was a failure, just like every single one around us, isn’t going to help you trust and want to be with a woman, but you’ll meet the one, my angel.

She’ll make you feel alive like no other and you’ll want to run away, but no matter how far you run, she’ll always be there for you and bring you back to reality. You might not see it now, but she’s already right in front of you. Don’t push her away too often, you might lose her, and I don’t want that for you. I want you to be happy.

I know one day you’ll be strong enough to trust that woman and be happy with her. Until then, don’t be such a pain in the ass and be nice to her or I’ll come and haunt your ass!

I’ll be watching over you, forever. Whenever you feel the hair on the back of your neck standup, whenever you feel like someone is with you even if you are alone, whenever you feel like you want to give up, know that I’m the one watching over you. Always and forever. You are my baby brother, and I have always loved you, from the time I knew I was going to be a big sister to this moment as I’m writing this letter, that I wish I didn’t have to write. I’ve always loved you, and I always will Aleck, no matter what, know that you’ll always have my love, and I’ll watch over you.

Stay safe and don’t get into trouble. You are worth it. You are worth all the happiness and love in the world. I wish we had it when we were younger, but you don’t choose your family. Find the right people and surround yourself with them. Those people will become your family and will love you no matter what you do. That’s what family is.

I love you Aleck, always and forever.

Cassie xxx

Charline folds up the letters and hands them back to me. “I’m so sorry Aleck, I didn’t know about your sister,” she says softly.

“It’s okay, only Cabe and Ant know the fully story. I’m surprised Ant hasn’t told Ayd already.”

“He keeps telling her that it’s your story to tell.” She shrugs.

“Yeah, I wish I didn’t have to talk about it, but you deserved to know why I can’t be with you.” I don’t dare look up at her. I keep staring at the folded letters in my hands.

“Look at me, Aleck,” she says in a rather authoritative voice. It takes me a few seconds, but I look up and lock eyes with her. “I think there’s so much more to the story than you are willing to tell right now, and I respect that. What I don’t understand is, while I get that every single relationship around you failed, why aren’t you letting yourself try?”

“I tried once. A couple of years ago, when you were away for college I met this girl. Everything was fine, we were getting along well and we were happy. I knew I wasn’t in love, but things were good, it felt good then one day she just disappears. She broke my heart. Even though I wasn’t in love with her, I did trust her enough to not let me down and crush my heart, but she did. She came back a couple of months later wanting to get back together, saying it was a mistake and that she was scared. I gave it another try, but I really struggled to trust her again. I was really trying and then she was taken away from me.” I sigh rubbing my face. I can’t tell her everything. She wouldn’t understand, wouldn’t accept it.

“What happened?” she asks softly.

“She passed away,” I say without any emotion. Call me an insensitive prick, you might be right, but I don’t care. I liked Emma, what we had was good, but she broke my heart and my trust. It’s horrible that she died, but I just can’t dwell on it.