Taking Shots (Assassins, #1)(103)
“Okay, so I tell you that I’m falling in love with you, and you break up with me? Right before we leave so you can meet my parents.”
The door flew up and she stood there, the same height as him, tears streaking down her face, as she tried to keep the sobs inside her.
“I don’t want to break up, but I feel like I’m holding you back, you deserve someone that will give you what you want, and I’m not sure I’m that person,” she said putting her hands on her chest.
“Why do you f*cking do this? Why do you over analyze; over f*cking think everything! We are great together! If you don’t want to move in, fine. If you do; great, if you don’t love me, that’s fine, but I do love you, and I will wait for you to love me, Elli.”
Her lip wobbled, before more tears streamed down her face. “Don’t do this, don’t over think, just feel, baby, don’t you feel what I feel when we are this close to each other? Don’t you have fun with me? Don’t you miss me when I’m gone? Don’t you want me?” He cupped her face with his hands, her tears running over his big hands, she had such big tears something he couldn’t help but love, because even when she cried, he thought she was the most beautiful person on earth, “Tell me no to any of those questions Elli, I’ll let you break up with me, hell I’ll even help you pack, I’ll let you go, even though-” he took a deep breath, tears welling up in his eyes, because if she did say no, he was done for, “Even though it would kill me.”
Shea had never cried in front of a woman. Okay, well, he did cry in front of Grace once, and his mom was always there when he cried, but he had never cried in front of a woman he was dating, but he felt like the tears were about to fall. He tried so hard to keep them at bay because he didn’t want to seem weak, but she wasn’t saying anything, she was just looking at him, tears rolling down her cheeks onto his hands. He could except the fact that she didn’t love him, because he knew she would later, but the fact that she wanted to break up, no he couldn’t except that, wouldn’t except that.
She took a deep breath, and then said “I don’t deserve you Shea.”
His heart melted, “Of course, you do, baby.”
“No, I really don’t, you’re too patient, too nice. You deal with my craziness, my insecurities, why Shea? Why do I deserve you?”
He smiled, moving his thumbs back and forth against her cheeks, “Because, I said so,” he said with a wink, “Now stop over thinking us. I’ll leave the moving thing alone; let you make the decision, okay?”
She nodded before wrapping her arms around his middle, nuzzling her nose in his neck, getting snot and tears all over him, but he didn’t care. He held her close, kissing her wet hair, inhaling her scent. They stayed like that for a long time, just holding each other until his phone rang. He pulled back a little pulling the phone out of his pocket.
“Shit,” he said, “Its Grace.”
“Crap, I gotta finish my hair!” she placed a quick kiss to his lips before turning back around going to the sink.
“Hey.”
“Where the hell are you?”
“We’re running late.”
“I mean Jesus, can’t you guys wait until tonight?!”
“For your information we weren’t having sex, we did that earlier in her office.”
She let out a disgusted cry, “Wonderful, now if I’m ever in her office that’s what I’ll imagine.”
“Hey, it was good stuff.”
“Ugh, anyways, when will you be here? Mom is waiting…and she is not happy about it.”
“Sorry, we’ll stay later, Elli’s doing her hair now, we should be out of here in…hey, baby, how long you going to be?” he asked Elli.
“Give me fifteen, I promise I’m hurrying.”
Yeah right, fifteen minutes?
“We’ll be over within the hour,” he said instead.
“Fine!” Grace hung up, as he shook his head.
Damn women in his life drove him nuts!
Elli wanted to call Harper, not go to Grace’s house to meet Shea’s parents. She was still on edge from their fight, from almost throwing away the most amazing man in the world. She just didn’t understand what her problem was, why couldn’t she just let it go. Shea was not going to hurt her, but it didn’t matter how many times she told herself that, it still sat in the back of her mind.
Elli wasn’t happy with the way she looked either, she only had time to straighten her hair when she wanted to put big curls in, and she didn’t get to spend much time on her makeup, so she knew Shea’s family was gonna think she was a ugly, frumpy, gold digging whore not worthy of their amazing son. She was more nervous about meeting his family than she was about him meeting hers.
Gosh, this sucked.
When they pulled into Grace’s driveway, Shea cut the truck off but didn’t get out. He still had her hand in his, moving his thumb back and forth on the back of her hand as he looked up at Grace’s house. He looked over at her, and she looked at him, nervously.
“Are you nervous?” he asked.
She gave him a shaky smile, “Yeah.”
He smiled back, taking a deep breath. “I’m not, they’re going to love you. I just hope they don’t embarrass me too much,” he said before kissing the back of her hand and getting out, coming around to the other side to help her out.