Sorta Like a Rock Star(47)
“Father Chee cannot do the soul clap so well.”
For the first time in many weeks, I smile—and Father Chee laughs out a single note—ha!
“I’m sorry your parents were killed for believing in JC,” I say.
“I am sorry your mother was taken from you for no good reason at all, Amber. I am truly sorry for your loss.”
“But there is nothing either of us can do to bring our parents back, right?”
“There is nothing we can do to bring them back, but we can honor their memory by moving forward.”
“Why should we do that?”
“Maybe it is better than sitting in a room forever?”
“Why?”
“You know why,” FC says.
“It’s not fair.”
“Life is not fair. You are correct.”
“Then why should we be fair?”
“Because we can.”
“I don’t know, FC. I mean I totally dig your coming here every day. I do. True. But I don’t think I can go back to being who I used to be.”
“Who were you?”
“Amber Appleton. Aka the Princess of Hope.”
“You were, are, and will always be a hopeful person, until you die.”
“Why do you say that to me? Even now, when you know I’ve got nothing left. Why do you put that on me?”
“Because I have faith, and it is riding on the Princess of Hope. I believe in you, Amber Appleton. I’ve seen your powers.”
“Don’t do that to me.”
“What?”
“Put your faith on me. I can’t take that kind of pressure right now, okay? I just can’t take it!”
“I did not mean—”
“Just don’t,” I say, and then go to the bathroom.
I stay in the bathroom for a long time—until I hear FC walk down the steps and leave Donna’s house.
CHAPTER 42
THE FLY THAT DIED BY
SMASHING INTO MY WINDOW
PANE, I DISPOSE OF
CHAPTER 43
Ty visits my bedroom solo and says, “I brought you this.” He places a clear vase with a single rose and some baby’s breath on my dresser, and then adds, “How you feeling?”
“Crappy,” I say from under my comforter; I don’t even sit up.
“I’ve been thinking about you a lot, Amber.”
I haven’t thought about Ty even once in the last few weeks, so I don’t say anything.
“I don’t really know what to say about what happened,” Ty continues, “and it seems like you don’t want to talk about it, so I’m just going to talk about other stuff, okay?”
With my head still on my pillow, I just look at Ty, who is leaning his butt against my new dresser.
He swallows once and says, “The Marketing Club regionals are next week.”
“I know.”
“We’ve been practicing pretty hard. The team and all. Maybe Ricky told you, but Franks has us debating and practicing our pitches in the morning instead of playing Halo 3. We debate at lunch too. We’re on a video game hiatus until after regionals. We’re all pretty nervous and excited. We think we can place this year, no sweat.”
“Good luck.”
“You’re really not going to compete this year, are you?”
“No.”
“You would take first place if you did. We’d all do better, if—”
“Well, I’m not competing, so I’m not taking any place. And The Five will just have to be The Four, because I’m out.”
Ty smiles sorta weird and then says, “I’m going to win regionals for you. I’ll even give you the red ribbon. I’m going to do it for you. Then we’ll take The Five to nationals. Would you come to Vegas with us if I won?”
“No.”
“We miss you. All of us. The entire Five.”
“I’m sorry my mother’s murder has inconvenienced you.”
Ty’s eyes narrow as if I had sucker-punched him. “Why you being like that?”
“Like what?”
“So mean.”
“Because I’m a cat—a real bitch.”
“No you’re not. You’re the coolest girl I ever met. I’ve always admired you, Amber. And maybe I didn’t say it before, but—”
“Just leave.”
Ty looks at me for a second, and then says, “I thought maybe sometime The Five could like maybe share a sundae at Friendly’s? We could all go to the one in Hampton, so no one would know, if you are afraid of being seen outside the house. You could sneak out one night. I got my license last week. It was my birthday, remember? I sent you an invitation to my party. Did you get it? Ricky came.”
I remember throwing it out, but do not say so.
“Maybe Ricky told you my dad bought me an old Volvo station wagon. I’ve been driving Ricky to school and all. My ride’s outside actually. So I was thinking maybe I could take you out sometime?”
“No.”
“No?”
“Hell no,” I say, and then I walk over to my desk and pretend to do my assignments.