Sincerely, The Puck Bunny (Totally Pucked #2)(64)

“Wow, this place is amazing. I’m so glad we got to come.” Holland squeals in excitement. We find an empty bench on the far side of the rooftop bar that’s quieter, and still well-lit by the strand of lights that are roped across the entire floor.

“Here would be perfect. What do you think?” Juliet asks, gesturing to the spot.

“For sure.”

My phone rings inside my purse, so I quickly fish it out while Juliet and Holland chat over the drink menu.

I can’t help the smile that blooms on my lips when I see it’s a text from Briggs.

Briggs: I fucking miss you.

Grinning, I quickly type a message back:

Maddison: Miss you too! How is Olive?

A photo pops up seconds later of Olive strapped in the baby carrier, strapped to Briggs’ chest where he’s smiling with Graham, Reed, and Hudson. He captioned it “guys’ day out + olive.”

My heart squeezes at the photo, and I turn it around to show Holland and Juliet.

“Okay, girl, seriously, there is nothing hotter than a man and a baby, tell me I’m wrong,” Holland says.

“Seriously. Come on, spill, we want all the details!” Juliet quips.

The waitress comes up just as I’m about to speak, even though I have no idea where to really start when it comes to Briggs and me. We all give her our drink order. I stick with trusty white wine, while the other girls get more adventurous and order something fruity and frozen from the menu.

"Well… I guess I’m technically the statistic that no one wants to talk about. I got pregnant after we spent the weekend together at my grandparents’ inn on Lake Geneva.”

Holland and Juliet look at each other then back at me, their eyes pleading with me to go on. I guess it’s good to know that our situation hasn’t been talked about, even within his friend group.

“We basically never exchanged last names, or numbers, and I could tell that Briggs wanted his anonymity, so I respected that. We shared a bottle of cheap tequila and well… the rest of the weekend we spent together. Then, I left on Sunday because, I don’t know… I just knew that our worlds were so different, and I wouldn’t have a place in his life, and I didn’t want to complicate the weekend that we spent together.”

Holland scoots closer to me and puts her hand on my arm in comfort.

“Then, I found out I was pregnant, and the rest is history. Now Olive is our world. Only recently… did we decide to explore a relationship between us. It was really important to me that we put our parenting relationship first. I don’t ever want something to come between Olive and her daddy. Now, we’re just learning to be a couple… and be Olive’s parents.”

Juliet speaks up next, “I know how that feels. You see when I met Liam, I was his nanny.”

“Wow.”

She nods. “Yeah, it was a seriously crazy situation. We tried too hard to keep things professional, and he was such a grumpy ass. It was the only way that he could separate his feelings for me from the professional relationship. His little girls, Ari and Kennedy, and I fell in love, and then so did Liam and me. It’s kind of funny… looking back, had we just communicated better, things would have been so much easier, but you live and learn, I guess.”

Her words strike entirely too close to home.

Each day that passes, the guilt seems to eat me alive. I know the right thing to do is confess to Briggs that I’m The Puck Bunny, that I’m the blog that has put his life on display, even though I had no idea who he really was at the time. But it’s not black and white. It’s not as simple as telling him.

If I tell him, everything changes.

He’ll hate me. No matter the reason behind my motives.

Not only will he hate me, but he’ll never trust me again. I can’t lose him. The thought makes my stomach lurch.

“Maddison?” Holland says, pulling me from the thoughts in my head.

“I’m so sorry, I was lost in thought, what did you say?”

She laughs. “You sound like me. I swear, I can’t keep my focus on something for longer than fifteen seconds these days. I was asking if you were planning on moving in to Briggs’ house? I thought he said something to Reed about it, but I wasn’t sure if I overheard it correctly.”

“I’m not sure, honestly. We’re kind of just taking things day-by-day, you know?”

Holland nods, her blonde curls matching my own tonight, seem to bounce with her movements. “I’m not being intrusive, I swear. I guess just curious about the girl who Briggs is head over heels in love with.”

What?

Wait, did she just say Briggs is in love with me? That’s... that’s not at all true.

…is it?

“Don’t look so panicked, babe. You can’t tell me you didn’t know that he’s crazy about you?”

Swallowing the lump in my throat, I shake my head. “I-I... I mean, we’ve never said that, and we’ve only been an actual couple for a few weeks.”

This time, it’s Juliet that laughs and looks at me incredulously. “If there’s anything I’ve learned about these men… they love, and they love hard. It doesn’t matter if it’s been a day, or a week, or three years, if that man loves you, he loves you. Time doesn’t define that. Liam still looks at me like he did back then, and if anything, he’s crazier now about me.” She smiles. “If I can offer you any advice, and feel free to tell me to shove it at any point, I just... I see a lot of myself in you and I can see how much you two both care about each other.”