Reflected in You(103)

Petersen's office when you knew you weren't coming because you were going out with another woman instead.


That's just serious douchebag territory, Gideon.


And worse, it was a Kingsman event, too, which should've had some sentimental value to you, considering that's how - " There was the abrupt scraping noise of a chair being shoved back.


I rushed on, desperate to say what needed to be said before he hung up.


"I think you're a coward for not coming right out and saying we're over, especially before you started f*cking around with someone else."


"Eva.


Goddamn it."


"But I want you to know that even though the way you've handled this is f*cking wrong and you've broken my heart into millions of tiny pieces and I've lost all respect for you, I don't blame you for how you feel after seeing those pictures of me.


I get it."


"Stop."


His voice was little more than a whisper, making me wonder if Corinne was with him even now.


"I don't want you to blame yourself, okay? After what you and I have been through - not that I know what you've been through because you never told me - but anyway ."


I sighed and winced at how shaky it came out.


Worse, when I opened my mouth again, my words were watery with tears.


"Don't blame yourself.


I don't.


I just want you to know that."


"Christ," he breathed.


"Please stop, Eva."


"I'm done.I hope you find - " My hand clenched in my lap.


"Never mind.Good-bye."


I hung up and dropped the phone on my bed.


I stripped off my clothes on the way to the shower and set the ring Gideon had given me on the counter.


I turned the water on as hot as I could stand it and sank numbly to the floor of the stall.


I had nothing left.



Chapter 17



For the rest of Saturday and Sunday, my dad and I bounced all over the city.


I made sure he did the food thing, taking him to Junior's for cheesecake, Gray's Papaya for hot dogs, and John's for pizza, which we took back to the apartment to share with Cary.


We went up to the top of the Empire State Building, which also satisfied the Statue of Liberty requirement as far as my dad was concerned.


We enjoyed a matinee show on Broadway.


We walked to Times Square, which was hot and crowded and smelled awful but had some interesting - and a few half- naked - street performers.


I snapped pictures with my phone and sent them to Cary for a laugh.


My dad was impressed with the emergency responder presence in the city and liked seeing the police officers on horseback as much as I did.


We took a ride around Central Park in a horse- drawn carriage and braved the subway together.


I took him to Rockefeller Center and Macy's and the Crossfire, which he admitted was an impressive building more than capable of holding its own among other impressive buildings.


But through it all, we were just hanging out.


Mostly walking and talking and simply being together.


I finally learned how he'd met my mom.


Her sleek little sports car had gotten a flat tire and she'd ended up at the auto shop where he was working.


Their story reminded me of the old Billy Joel hit "Uptown Girl," and I told him so.


My dad laughed and said it was one of his favorite songs.


He said he could still see her sliding out from behind the wheel of her expensive little toy car and rocking his world.


She was the most beautiful thing he'd seen before or since .


until I came along.


"Do you resent her, Daddy?" "I used to."


He put his arm around my shoulders.


"I'm never going to forgive her for not giving you my last name when you were born.


But I'm not mad about the money thing anymore.


I'd never be able to make her happy in the long run, and she knew herself enough to know that."


I nodded, feeling sorry for all of us.


"And really" - he sighed and rested his cheek against the top of my head for a moment - "as much as I wish I could give you all the things her husbands can, I'm just glad you're getting them.


I'm not too proud to appreciate that your life is better because of her choices.


And I'm not upset with my lot.


I've got a good life that makes me happy and a daughter who makes me so damn proud.


I consider myself a rich man because there's nothing in this world I want that I don't already have."


I stopped walking and hugged him.


"I love you, Daddy.


I'm so happy you're here."


His arms came around me, and I thought I just might be all right eventually.


Both my mom and my dad were living fulfilling lives without the one they loved.


I could do it, too.