Hawke (Carolina Cold Fury Hockey #5)(15)
I walk around the couch and plop down on one end. Swinging my legs up so I’m facing my dad, I say with a shrug, “I don’t know. It’s just awkward.”
“You two have some air to clear,” he says as his eyes slide back to the TV where a baseball game is on.
I study my dad intently. His face is still puffy from the last dose of steroids he took to control the brain swelling. There are dark circles under his eyes because he’s not sleeping well, but otherwise, he’s doing relatively well.
All things considered.
Almost four years ago, Dad went to a doctor because of unrelenting headaches and blurred vision. What we thought might be a result of stress turned out to be from a golf-ball-size glioblastoma in his head. Most of the tumor was removed with surgery, the remainder blasted with chemo and radiation. He recovered and went back to work.
But we waited for it to come back, because it was most likely coming back.
Borrowed time, lots of praying and living under a shroud of dread.
It came back less than two months ago.
And I quit my job in Columbus and moved with my dad so he could enter a clinical trial at Duke.
Hoping beyond hope…against all odds…for a cure.
Chapter 5
Hawke
It’s a standard power-play drill, me stationed point at the blue line.
The puck gets passed back and forth. Garrett to me. Back to Garrett. He eyes the net, tapping the biscuit back and forth. Winds up…reconsiders, passes back to me.
My stick reaches out to connect, and the puck slides right under it, crosses the blue line, and kills the play.
Coach blows his whistle and I slam the blade of my stick on the ice in frustration.
“You’re out, Therrien,” he says. “Camden…take his place.”
I skate off the ice, ripping my helmet off. The minute I hit the bench, I sit my ass down and slouch back.
Been off my game all f*cking day and can’t seem to get my shit together. It’s a good thing this is only the second full day of practice, or else I’d be worried as shit about my ability to make the first line. Everyone deserves an off day, right?
Poor goddamned soul, Dave Campbell, lives in a perpetual off day now, and I can’t seem to wrap my head around the fact that he could be dying very soon.
When he opened the door yesterday to the apartment he and Vale share, I knew in one glance that something was seriously wrong. His face was swollen, his skin pale.
He took one look at my face and his eyes softened with regret that I was seeing him like that.
Fifteen minutes later, I had the entire story, and it’s some crazy, whacked-out sci-fi shit too.
Apparently Duke is running a phase-one clinical trial—whatever the f*ck that means—to try to eradicate a disease that is essentially terminal to patients. Recurrence of a glio-whatever-the-f*ck-he-called-it is fatal. No cure. Nada. You’re going to die.
Except apparently Duke engineered some mojo f*cking treatment, taking the polio virus of all things, mixed in a little bit of the common cold virus, and bingo, a half-teaspoon cocktail injected right into the center of his recurrent brain tumor.
I didn’t understand all of the technicalities, but Dave was very educated on what was going on. Apparently the virus breaks down the cancer so that it’s not invisible to the body’s own immune system. The theory is that then the immune system will in turn attack the tumor and kill it.
Hocus f*cking pocus, but apparently the clinical trials have been working.
Somewhat.
About 50 percent of the patients have done well, while 50 percent have died.
Still, as Dave says, “What did I have to lose? Fifty-fifty odds are pretty damn good when I was looking at zero percent chance of survival.”
The shitter was, those patients that died were probably due to overdosing of the drug. In a phase-one clinical, as he described it, the main priority isn’t to kill the cancer but to try to figure out the maximum dosage that would do the job without killing the patient.
So far, it appeared to be working for Dave. Perhaps a little too well, because once the virus started working on the tumor, it got inflamed, causing it to triple in size and put pressure on his brain. Dave had to go in for an emergency dose of steroids and a chemotherapy drug designed to reduce the swelling.
And amazingly, he seems to be feeling pretty good now that the inflammation is under control. He’s just under watch and will have another MRI to check the tumor’s size in a few weeks. He’s being monitored by Duke and it’s a wait-and-see game.
“Vale never hesitated,” Dave told me yesterday with equal measures of pride and guilt. “Quit her job without even discussing it with me once I got accepted into the trial.”
“Lucked out getting on with the Cold Fury,” I observed.
“Not luck,” Dave said slyly. “Called in a favor to Brian Brannon. We went to college together.”
“What did he owe you for?” I asked curiously.
“He didn’t,” Dave told me quietly. “But now I owe him everything. There wasn’t an opening on the staff, so he talked to Gray and they created that position so Vale could have a job.”
And I thought that was a f*cking nice thing to do, because you don’t just add on a salary all willy-nilly within an organization like this. Made me even more proud to be part of this team and instilled in me some type of gratitude I felt like I really owed the Brannons now, on Dave’s behalf.