Hard to Fight (Alpha's Heart, #1)(58)

“Nah,” he grunts.

“Your arm?”

“Yeah.”

Shit. How am I supposed to ease his pain? Maybe there’s too much pressure on the wound. I can’t see, how am I supposed to check that?

“Do you want me to loosen the bandage?”

“Yeah,” he rasps. “Please.”

I reach down gently, running my hands over him until I find his arms. I find the knot I tied and undo it just as gently. He almost cries out with relief as I undo the makeshift bandage. I wish I could see it. Maybe I can beg for painkillers?

“You need painkillers.”

“Got some.”

“Why haven’t you taken them?”

He says nothing.

“God, Raide, are you always so proud?”

He chuckles but it’s full of pain. “Mostly.”

“Where are they?”

“Pocket.”

“Is there a light in here?”

“Only a shitty lamp beside the bedframe.”

I must have missed that.

“Hang on.”

I crawl slowly over to the bed and feel my way about. It takes me a few minutes but I finally feel a lamp beneath my fingers. I fiddle and it comes on. The light flickers a few times but finally stays on. I crawl back to Raide and stare down at his arm. He’s on his back, with it by his side. I glance at him and he’s staring up at me with a beautiful, gentle look on his face. I look away quickly and focus on his arm.

When I unwrap it, it’s red and swollen. God, it looks sore. I stare around, and notice a bottle of water in the corner, it’s about three-quarters full. They must have brought him water at some point. I nod to it. “Can I use that?”

Raide turns and stares at it. “You drink some first.”

My heart swells but I don’t let it get ahead of me. He’s just being nice. Making sure I’m strong. I retrieve the bottle and open it, taking a long drink. I offer some to Raide and he takes some, too. Then I find the cleanest piece of his remaining shirt and pour some water on it. I dab around his gunshot wound, trying not to react to his hissing as I clean it up as best I can. When I’m done, I get a new ball of material and place it over. This time I tie it loosely.

Then, as if it knows I’m done, the lamp flickers off. Great. No more light.

“Jesus,” I mutter. “Piece of shit.”

Raide grunts. “Did you expect it to be anything but?”

“Ha-ha,” I mumble. “Which pocket are the painkillers in?”

“Left, back.”

“You going to roll over and make this easy for me?”

“Nope.”

Jerk.

I reach out to his chest. I suck in a quiet breath. I love touching him. I purposely run my fingers slowly down his stomach. When I reach his jeans, I slide my fingers around gently, dipping them into the first pocket even though I know the pills aren’t there. I graze his cock and it’s hard beneath my touch. I bite my bottom lip and I can hear his breathing become more frantic as I move my hand out and dip it into the other pocket.

I graze his cock again, then I remove my hand and glide it over his hip and around to his ass. He lifts slightly and I reach in, finding a packet in his back pocket. I pull it out, and he lowers himself back down. I want him. It’s wrong, and I know I shouldn’t, but I do. I want him. I want to reach down and release him. I want to feel him inside me. I want to kiss him. I want to taste him.

I pop two pills out and reach up, using my fingers to find his lips. He parts them and I slip the pills onto his tongue. Before I can remove my fingers, he closes his lips around them and sucks. I whimper and shift. Heat pools between my legs and I figure what the heck? We might not get out of here, I’m not going to waste my last minutes resisting the man who has captivated me so thoroughly.

“How much pain are you in?” I whisper.

“Feelin’ much better,” he says, his voice thick.

He’s lying, but he’s doing it because he knows what I want. He wants it, too. I’m not about to deny him, not now.

“Don’t move.” I run my finger down his chest and over his abs. I stop at the top of his jeans and I slide my hand over the top of them, feeling him swollen and thick beneath them. I give him a squeeze and he hisses. I smile in the darkness. I taunt him by using my palm to rub him through his jeans, he jerks and thrusts his hips up, silently pleading for more, but I just keep rubbing him slowly.

“Keep doing that,” he pants, “I’ll come and you’ll miss out.”

Good point.

I stop rubbing him and find his button. I undo his jeans, jerking them down until I free his cock. I wrap my hand around it, and moan at the heat radiating off it. He’s so solid and thick, just the thought of how amazing he feels inside me has my sex clenching. I stroke him softly as I position my body over his legs. Then I lean down and touch my lips to his straining crown.

“Fuck, yes,” he hisses.

I swirl my tongue around the tip, and then I open my mouth and slide him in. He moans and thrusts upward, sliding even more of his thick length into my mouth. I take him, sliding my lips down, then back up again. I gently graze my teeth over his skin and he shudders. I love having the control. I curl my fingers around the base of him and start stroking as I suck him deep and hard, feeling him pressing against the back of my throat.