Exes and O's (The Influencer, #2)(13)
While poking around in my storage space last night, I found a large box appropriately labeled The Ex-Files.
I explain to Trevor how this box has been with me since middle school. To be fair, it started as a shoe box (decorated with magazine cutouts of my celebrity crushes). Over the years, it got bigger, with physical artifacts from each successive relationship. Love notes, movie ticket stubs from first dates, articles of clothing, you name it.
Trevor bends over and fishes out a true-to-size royal-purple penis wax candle, appropriately named the Pecker Flame. He examines with caution, and I note how it fills his large, callused palm with commendable girth. He can most definitely handle a hose, I think to myself before blinking that errant thought to the abandoned cellar of my mind.
His brows pinch together, completing his confused face. “Please tell me this isn’t a mold of your ex’s . . .”
I wince when he tosses it back into the box as if it’s a used dildo. “God, no! It’s just a candle. I got it as a gag gift from my college roommate on the night I met ex number six, Zion.”
Trevor manages to find an ancient Fruit by the Foot wrapper. He holds it between pinched fingers, quietly disturbed. “And this?”
“From the night ex number one and I had our first kiss,” I say, taken by the memory.
Trevor officially thinks I’m a loon.
I turn his attention to the mementos of boyfriends past scattered atop my bed and hold up a boldly patterned body-con dress. He watches leerily as I hold it in front of my body, willing it to magically fit again. “I wore this the first night I had sex with ex number seven, Brandon.”
“Where’s the rest of it?”
“Okay, Dad.” I roll my eyes, moving on to my next find. Will I wear this cobalt-blue, zip-up, backless peplum top again? Probably not. Do I want to keep it indefinitely because I wore it on my first date with Seth? Absolutely.
Trevor shakes his head, overwhelmed when I brandish my shoe box full of old Valentine’s Day cards and love letters. In fact, he even starts ordering the books on my shelf, probably to escape my chaos. “What is it with women and Valentine’s Day?” he mutters.
“Let me guess: you’re part of the ninety-five percent of people who like to moan and complain about Valentine’s Day being nothing but a tacky commercial holiday, blah blah blah. Am I right? And before you go on to slander it, I feel the obligation to tell you it’s my favorite holiday of all time. I take it very seriously.”
His lips tighten in amusement. “I never said it was tacky. I just mean—”
“You think love should be celebrated every day, not just one day,” I finish for him.
Based on his miffed expression, that’s exactly what he was going to say.
“Everyone says that,” I note. “And yes, it’s true. But life gets busy. Why not use it as an excuse to take stock of all the people you love in your life and go the extra mile to make them feel special? Even something as small as leaving a cute note. I don’t get why celebrating love openly has to be considered tacky. If anything, the world needs more excuses to eat chocolate and celebrate love for the sake of it, don’t you think?”
He studies me for a moment before shrugging. “Sure, if you say so. But you need to throw this stuff out. You have no room for it.”
“But what if I get back together with one of them? I can’t just toss out tokens of our past. How cute would it be if I still had the menu from the very first restaurant we went to?”
He ignores this, still alphabetizing my books. “Didn’t you say you’re always the dumpee? If all these guys broke up with you, why would you want to get back with them?”
“Because they were all great people. And I can only assume time and maturity have made them even better. They all have soul mate potential. Most of them, anyway.” At least I think so, if my memory serves me correctly.
“Even the guy with the shark face?” Trevor jabs a thumb toward Seth’s photo. It’s his LinkedIn photo, and I chose it specifically because he looks like a smarmy, country-club arsehole named Tripp who pops his collars and paid someone to take his SATs. His face is crossed out with ominous, double-thick marker the color of blood.
“Shark face?” I repeat.
Trevor leaves my now organized shelf and steps around the box, officially entering my room to examine the photo closer. “Don’t you think he kinda looks like that shark from Finding Nemo? With the teeth?”
I clutch my stomach in a burst of evil laughter. Where has Trevor Metcalfe been all my life when I needed someone to trash-talk my exes? “You have a point.”
He points to numbers two and three, who are crossed out. “What happened with these guys?”
“Jacques is married, which is fine because he broke up with me via chain email in ninth grade,” I say, conveniently leaving out the fact that when I reached out last night, he immediately unfriended and blocked me. “And Tommy . . . you can see for yourself.”
I show him Tommy’s Facebook profile, which is full of politically frightening memes. Trevor does a brief scan of his timeline, searching for any redeemable qualities. Based on his frown, he’s failed. “Okay, I understand why he got the ax,” he says, passing my phone back.
“Yup. I’m single. Not desperate. Besides, he probably still hates me after I keyed his car.”