Echo(41)

I band my arms around her, reminding, “I love this family more than life.”

“I’m so s-scared. I d-don’t even know what to think right now,” she whimpers, and I wipe her tears.

“I know, hun. I know, and I’m sorry. I never wanted to drag you into this. But I have to go.”

“No. Wait,” she clips out. “Maybe I can help you. If you just tell me whatever trouble you’re in, maybe there’s a way out. Something I can do to hel—”

“I promise you, I’ve calculated everything. Remember what I told you: we argued, and I left.”

We have one last kiss when I get the call on the untraceable cell I purchased, letting me know the car is here.

And then I’m gone as the car makes its way to the charter that will take me to Scotland, undetected and off the grid.





I’M A SELFISH woman for what I’m about to do, but I can’t stop myself. All my luggage is packed in the trunk, but before driving to the airport, I need to say goodbye. I know my words hurt him last night when he came to see me. The more I spoke, the angrier he became and eventually stormed out. But I can’t be left with that. I can’t have that be our last interaction. I know I’m only thinking of myself right now, but I simply have to see him one last time.

Pulling up to the gate, I push the call button.

“Go home, Nina,” his voice says.

“Declan, please. I’m going home. I’m heading to the airport now, I just want to say goodbye. Can you please give me that?”

There’s no response, only silence. I wait, and when I’m about to shift to reverse, the gates begin to open. Releasing a sigh of gratitude, I start the drive up the winding road. After I park the car, I take another long look at the house. I try not to think too much about the could-have-been’s because they’re just never-be’s. I still find it odd that the shrubs that line the house are scarce in areas. Big, gaping holes when everything else is pristine, even under all the snow.

“It’s freezing out here,” Declan calls out to me from the front door where he stands.

“The shrubs look sad,” I tell him.

“The shrubs?”

“You’re missing a lot of them. Did they die?”

“You could say that,” he responds. “Can we get out of the cold?”

Giving him a weak smile, I walk over and enter his home. Declan closes the door and moves past me, and I follow, but today he leads us into the kitchen.

“I was just making some coffee,” he says as he pulls the kettle off the stove. “I think the old housekeeper left some tea in the pantry if you’d like a cup.”

His politeness is unexpected, catching me off guard.

“Umm, okay. Yeah, that would be nice,” I say, stumbling nervously over my words.

I walk around the large center island, and take a seat on one of the barstools. I watch him move about the kitchen, pouring the boiling water into the French press, and then the rest in a teacup for me.

Looking around, I take in the surroundings. The kitchen is tucked away from the openness of the house. It’s an eat-in kitchen with a large, farm-style table that sits in front of three, floor-to-ceiling windows that overlook the beautiful grounds. The room is brightly lit from the snow outside, and the windows are slightly fogged over.

“Here you go,” he says, and I quickly turn back around to the cup of tea he’s set in front of me.

I stare down, watching the ribbons of steam float up and disappear. I’m reminded of the many mornings I would sit at the bar in Declan’s loft, sipping on tea while watching him cook breakfast. He always looked so sexy in his long pajama pants and white t-shirt that hugged his broad chest. I could watch this man infinitely and never tire.

The memory of what used to be pangs in my chest as I sit here, and when I look up, I see him standing in front of me on the opposite side of the island.

“Declan,” I say on a faint whisper. I let his name linger in the air between us for a moment. “I’m so sorry.”

Setting his coffee down, he braces his hands on the granite countertop, letting his head drop. I give him silence, and let it grow as I keep my eyes pinned to the most amazing man I’ve ever known. His soul knows no boundaries of beauty.

When he finally raises his head and looks at me, I tell him, “If I could go back, I’d do it all differently.”

“You can’t go back, Nina. And what’s done is done.”