Dream a Little Dream (Chicago Stars, #4)(223)

“It’s all right,” Rachel said. “I have to go anyway. Good-bye, Emily. You take care of yourself.”

Emily pulled the thermometer from her mouth. “Can your little boy come play with me?”

“We’re going to be moving soon. I’m afraid he won’t be around much longer.”

Lisa tried to put the thermometer back in, but Emily shook her head. “Want to read a story. Want apple juice.”

“What’s going on?” Russ said. “You told me she’s been too sick to sit up.”

“I guess she’s having a good day.” Lisa walked over to Rachel. Taking her hand, she drew her into the hallway. “I’ll never be able to thank you enough. That money’s going to make a lot of difference.”

Russ appeared behind them. “What money?”

“Rachel is giving us twenty-five thousand dollars for Emily’s Fund.”

“What?” He sounded as if he were choking.

“The check is from Cal Bonner,” Rachel said. “It’s his gift, not mine.”

Lisa’s expression indicated she didn’t believe it, and Russ looked as if he’d been hit by a stun gun. Suddenly Rachel needed to get away from them both. “Good luck.”

A small voice called out to her from the bedroom. “Bye, Rachel.”

“Bye, sweetie.”

She left the house and hurried to her car.



As Ethan pulled into the left lane of the interstate to pass a Ryder rental truck with two bicycles hanging off the rear, Kristy gazed at his calendar boy-profile. “I can’t believe you’re serious about this.”

He slipped back into the right lane. “I’m just not cut out to be a pastor. I’ve known it for a long time, and I’m tired of fighting it. I’m planning to turn in my letter of resignation on Monday, as soon as we get back.”

Kristy started to argue, then shut her mouth. What was the use? He’d dropped his bombshell just as they’d left Salvation. Now they were approaching Knoxville, and she’d been debating with him the whole time. Unfortunately, he showed no sign of changing his mind.

Ethan Bonner had been born to be a pastor. How could he not understand that? This was the worst mistake of his life, but no matter what she said, he wasn’t going to listen.

“Could we please talk about something else?” he said.

It was already late, nearly evening on Friday. They’d be returning to Salvation after the conference’s Sunday-morning prayer service and luncheon, which didn’t give her much time to reason with him. “What will you do?”


“Counseling probably. Maybe I’ll go back to school and get my Ph.D. in psychology. I don’t know.”

She played her trump card. “Your brothers are going to be so disappointed in you, not to mention your parents.”

“We all have to live our own lives.” They were approaching an exit ramp, and he pulled over. “I’m hungry. Let’s get something to eat.”

He knew as well as she did that the conference kicked off with a buffet dinner at seven, and her car trouble had already made them late. She hadn’t wanted to spend too much time alone with him, so she’d planned to drive separately to Knoxville, but when she’d tried to start her normally reliable Honda, nothing had happened, and she’d been forced to go with him. “It’s already six, and we really don’t have time.”

“Are you afraid somebody’s going to give you an F on your report card if you’re late?”

This sarcasm was new to him, one of several changes that had taken place since she’d told him she was quitting, and she didn’t like it. “It’s your conference, not mine. I wouldn’t even be going if you hadn’t nagged me into it.”

Her two weeks’ notice had been up nearly a week ago, but he’d bullied her into staying on the job through this weekend, and since her new position at the preschool in Brevard didn’t start until Monday, she’d agreed. Now she wished she hadn’t been such a pushover.

Being with him had grown even more painful since last Friday night at the Pride of Carolina. What had happened in the front seat of his car had destroyed her illusions that she might be getting over him. She still loved him, and she knew she always would, even though being around him this past week had felt like a ride on a runaway roller coaster.

He alternated between uncharacteristic bouts of snappishness and being so sweet and thoughtful that she could barely hold back tears. When he wasn’t snarling at her, he displayed an almost puppy-dog eagerness to please. She knew her accusation that he hadn’t been a friend had stung him badly, and she only wished she could chalk his behavior up to an emotion other than guilt.

Sometimes she’d catch him watching her, and even her inexperienced eyes recognized the desire she saw there. It should have made her happy. Wasn’t that what she’d wanted? But the knowledge only depressed her. She didn’t want to be some babe he lusted after. She wanted to be his love.

She realized he’d passed the fast-food restaurants that sat near the freeway exit. “I thought you said you were hungry.”

“I am.” But he continued to drive down the two-lane country highway. Finally he slowed and made a left turn into the parking lot of a dingy diner that sat next to an eight-unit motel.