Dream a Little Dream (Chicago Stars, #4)(187)

“You’re giving me a raise!”

“Hell no, I’m not giving you a raise.”

He did his best not to smile at her look of disappointment. Although it wasn’t easy, he was trying hard to keep her short of ready cash while he also made certain she had everything she really needed. The way she squeezed a dollar, he knew that if he gave her too much money, she’d save it up. And once she had enough, she’d leave town.

Sooner or later, she’d have to accept the fact that G. Dwayne hadn’t left his five million dollars hidden away in Salvation, and then she’d no longer have a reason to stay. Gabe needed to make certain she couldn’t afford to go. Not yet. Although he knew this town wasn’t a good place for her, he also couldn’t have her taking off until he was certain she had some way to stabilize her future. Her hold on survival was so very precarious, and somehow he had to make sure that she wouldn’t ever be destitute again.

“I deserve a raise, and you know it.”

Ignoring her, he said, “I don’t know why I didn’t think of this right away.” He stretched out on his side in the grass, propped himself on one elbow, and took a bite of chicken he didn’t want. “I’ve decided to put you on straight salary. That means that whether we fling or not, your paycheck won’t be affected.”

Her eyes lit up with dollar signs. “How much straight salary?”

He told her and waited for that little ripe strawberry mouth to bite his head off. Which it did.

“You are the stingiest, the most penny-pinching, tight-fisted—”


“Look who’s talking.”

“I’m not rich like you. I have to pinch pennies.”

“With a straight salary, you’ll come out ahead. I’ll still pay you overtime, but you won’t be penalized if you have to take an hour off to run an errand. Or something.” He paused and took another bite of chicken. “You should get down on your knees and thank me for my generosity.”

“I should take a crowbar to your knees.”

“Excuse me? I didn’t quite catch that.”

“Never mind.”

He’d wanted to pull her into his arms right there. But he couldn’t do it, not after the way it had been thefirst time between them. For all her talk about being a wanton woman, she deserved a bed this time, and not G. Dwayne’s bed, either.

She deserved a date, too, although that didn’t seem to have occurred to her. He wanted to take her out for a meal at a four-star restaurant just so he could watch her eat.

He loved doing that. Every day he came up with an excuse to feed her. He’d bring Egg McMuffins with him when he arrived in the morning and tell her he couldn’t stand eating breakfast alone. Around noon, he’d announce that he was so hungry he couldn’t concentrate until he had a bucket of KFC in front of him. In the middle of the afternoon, he’d haul out some fruit and cheese from the snack-bar refrigerator and make her take another break. If this kept up much longer, he wouldn’t be able to snap his jeans, but she was looking healthier by the day.

Her cheeks had filled out just enough so that her green eyes no longer seemed to be falling out of her face, and the bruises beneath her bottom lashes had disappeared. Her skin had taken on a healthy glow, and a few more freckles had popped out on her cheekbones. Her body was filling out a little, too. She’d never be plump, but she no longer looked quite so emaciated.

A shadow fell over him as he remembered how Cherry used to fret over her weight. He’d told her he’d still love her if she weighed three hundred pounds, but she’d counted calories anyway. He would have loved her fat or thin. He would have loved her crippled, old, shriveled. There was nothing that could have happened to her body that would have made him stop loving her. Not even death.

He tossed his half-eaten piece of chicken into the sack, leaned back into the grass, and threw his arm over his eyes as if he wanted to take a nap.

He felt her hand settle over his chest, and her voice was no longer angry. “Tell me about them, Gabe. Cherry and Jamie.”

His skin prickled. It had happened again. She’d said their names. Even Ethan didn’t do that anymore. His brother wanted to protect him, but Gabe was starting to feel as if they didn’t exist in anyone’s memory but his own.

The temptation to talk was almost overwhelming, but he held on to the few remnants of sanity he had left. He was crazy, but not crazy enough to have a cozy little chat about his dead wife’s virtues with a woman he planned to make love to as soon as possible. Besides, he could just imagine what fodder Rachel and her sharp tongue would find in his memories.

The muscles in his shoulders flexed. He was lying to himself. Rachel would rip him apart for many things, but not his memories. Never that. Still, he resisted.

Her hand rested over his heart, and her soft breath fanned his cheek as she spoke with a tenderness he’d never heard. “Everybody else is too kind to point this out to you, Bonner, but you’re in imminent danger of turning into one of those self-focused, self-pitying people nobody can stand.” She gave him a gentle rub. “Not that you don’t have plenty of reason for self-pity, and if you didn’t still have so much of your life left, it might even be all right.”

His blood churned, and a terrible anger rushed through him. She must have felt the constriction of his muscles because she laid her head on his chest to quiet him. A strand of her hair fell over his lips. He smelled her shampoo, and it reminded him both of sunshine and clean rain.